MSpank Private Thoughts

[MunkySpanker]

where do I draw the line? serious or kidding? empathetic or asshole? funny or mean? come here or not? in a way I don't care about you nits, in a way, I can't wait to see how emotional I've made you with a few strokes of the keyboard... you hate me because I'm narcissistic and cocky... but i do it on purpose because pity makes me uncomfortable. but, you acknowledge my existence. even if i piss you off, at least you understood my insult to be an insult; most people stare at me like my yorkie does when I ask him if he's happy or sad; not you, at least you feel the need to either befriend me or destroy me; I refuse to fall into the purgatory of normalness; would rather be hated than to be neutralized into ambivalence; how did I find you guys anyways you should ask? why did I wait 27 years to find out what my personality type was? I was actually being empathetic to those close to me... I googled "how to live with an INTP" and this was how I found this forum... I read wacky philosophical inquiries, which reminded me of me... it burns a little when I'm ridiculed, but at least I feel alive; because in the normal world I'm not noticed; in the normal world, i'm not even scoffed at; i'm misunderstood, and the most I get is weird; my humor doesn't get the it deserves; i'm very good at pushing away those closest to me; probably as a mechanism to value those that stick around; my view of people has teetered from "we are born good" to "we are born evil" -- I feel like most of my acquaintances would stab me in the back if given an opportunity to benefit themselves; I feel bad when I hurt your feelings, but generally I didn't mean to;

 

[Cegorach]

You've made it pretty clear that you have no respect for this forum or anybody on it.

Ergo, you're banned.

 

[Firehazard159]

This is kind of awkward, he literally just defined himself as a troll.

Thanks Cow <3

 

[Reluctantly]

MunkySpank, I know you are banned, but you seem really disturbed. That can't be a comfortable feeling. Please find a way to relax or do something that let's you release all this because this is not a healthy state for anyone to get stuck in. This is just a suggestion, but if you think you need someone to listen to your thoughts and you can't get anyone else to, there are many psychology forums on the internet that deal with narcissistic/borderline disorders and will probably at least let you get the feedback you want/need.

 

[EyeSeeCold]

I think it was the release from his company that did it. He was in denial, even DesertSmeagle wasn't that obnoxious.

 

[snafupants]

Why is there a semicolon ending your post? You do seem quite narcissistic - low self esteem masquarading around as alpha male prowess. Your posts are more inane that outrageous, which is what this attention grabbing thread seems to be apologizing for. DesertSmeagle, god bless him, has returned.

 

[The Gopher]

DesertSmeagle could at least have a sensible conversation sometimes. This guy just came to cause problems.

 

[EvilScientist Trainee]

There was something about Munky that I felt like he wasn't doing that just to cause some chaos.

If you read the title of his threads, you can get the feeling that finally had arrived at some sort of "Holy Shit, there are more people like me", but couldn't control his drive to connect to people. It's like what happens if you leave a kid in a candy-for-free imaginary place. They are so amazed that they want it all at the same time.

Oblivious to the etiquette used on forums, he just maniacally posted. Of course, he was a bit cocky with that Alpha male attitude bullshit, but he was at a stage of rebuilding his character. He lost his girlfriend, job, father, and pretty much lived alone. He needed to found a new identity for himself.

That doesn't justify his actions, as he was obnoxious indeed. But i think that this was his coping mechanism, as his messages were not sent in a understandable way (And we were flooded by them), thus no one connected with him. He lacked that connection.

Shame's on me, for not trying to understand him while he was alive (Do people die when they get banned? At least his forum persona is dead), to give a hint and guide him. He could have been a construtive member. A brute diamond, if i could say. (This thread was particularly insightful for him)

I also noticed that once he found out that INTPs were skilled at thinking and stuff, he got into the type-superiority thing. That might have fueled his misunderstanding, leading to cockiness as he realized that we're not superheroes, just people. Sending him into a self-destructing spiral of shame.

And if he somehow reads this, my words are: Munky, people have limitations, and you have reached yours. Open yourself to help and people will help you. That course of action just makes communication worse and can lead to, well, what happened to you. Hope you get better.

I feel silly talking to a person that i'm not sure if will read my post. It's almost like praying.

 

[EyeSeeCold]

Hmm, socially anxious ENTP seems likely.

 

[Melllvar]

There was something about Munky that I felt like he wasn't doing that just to cause some chaos.

I tend to agree. He did make some serious posts, where he wasn't simply causing chaos but was trying to actually say something. He also seemed to take it personally when Anthile referred to him as a rash, as seen by his later attacks on said moderator. The OP of this thread seems to show that he didn't like being dismissed as a run-of-the-mill idiot. Someone who was 100% trying to be a troll wouldn't have taken it that personally.

But still, when you come in repeatedly calling everyone nits, claiming you're being an ass to provoke the "emotional creatures," and completely ignore repeated warnings that you're going to get banned, what do you expect?

I tried to actually talk to him at first, but I could tell I'd lost my patience when I found myself making jokes about sex with his mom.

 

[The Gopher]

I tried to actually talk to him at first, but I could tell I'd lost my patience when I found myself making jokes about sex with his mom.

Must have missed that what thread?

 

[Melllvar]

Just one joke, really.