Me

[Zezon Vice]

Hello, obviously im new here. So as instructed i am posting this to explain a little about myself. Let it be known that i am 17. I am intp. I am analytical, logical, and somewhere inside me lies, the root of all my tormented troubles, emotions. i really dont have much self esteem these days. ill answer just about any question i am asked. (assuming anyone cares to know anything) Im an angry emotionaly unbalanced teen, what more is there to know?

 

[NoID10ts]

Welcome! You should fit right in. I think almost everyone here is either an angry, emotionally unbalanced teen or an angry, emotionally unbalanced adult.

Except for me of course.

 

[flow]

How do you typically go about venting your anger?

 

[Zezon Vice]

I am a large fan of metal music, but i also listen to depressing alternative when i feel the need. If i get angry about something (which happens a lot) i instantly shut myself off from others. They tend to make it worse because by then not only am i angry im down on myself and there way of fixing it is "oh itll be ok" or they complement me in someway. This is counter productive for some reason. But then i feel alone. So after a short amount of time i either vent through some sort of violence or turn it into, sadness i guess, through music and thinking. Which takes me in a circle. I almost wish emotions were controlable, but i have learned never to wish for anything. Everything iv wished for iv somehow managed to get, and when i did, i regreted it heavily.

 

[loveofreason]

Hi Zezon... you sound somewhat familiar...

 

[Titania]

Welcome, Zezon Vice. There's lots of space (especially in Siberia) to erupt your anger and other emotions safely. Hopefully we'll hear about your thoughts too.

 

[Zezon Vice]

Hi Zezon... you sound somewhat familiar...

How so, if your dont mind me asking?

 

[Agent Intellect]

i love the quote in your signature. i might have to use that sometime.

 

[fullerene]

wow I'm gonna like this guy. I'd ask questions, but I suspect you'd answer em about the same way I would.

I'd always suggest you go with the music/thinking to turn anger into sadness as much as possible. I think that the type of anger that it's possible to turn into sadness is usually just generated as a defense mechanism so that you don't actually feel the sadness, which I don't find all that helpful... but even if it's not, at least this way you're not likely to hurt anyone else. I only have a couple years on you, though, so I carry no information on long-term effects.

 

[Zezon Vice]

wow I'm gonna like this guy. I'd ask questions, but I suspect you'd answer em about the same way I would.

I'd always suggest you go with the music/thinking to turn anger into sadness as much as possible. I think that the type of anger that it's possible to turn into sadness is usually just generated as a defense mechanism so that you don't actually feel the sadness, which I don't find all that helpful... but even if it's not, at least this way you're not likely to hurt anyone else. I only have a couple years on you, though, so I carry no information on long-term effects.

Thanks. I have to agree with you (assuming thats what you meant) that the anger used to cover up sadness isnt helpfull. I find that id rather be angry then sad though.
Out of curousity, what makes you think you will like me?

 

[Ermine]

Metal music is also my chosen venting medium. I'd say that it's the reason why I'm such a good natured agreeable person now. No one seems to get that angry music helps me get my frustration out so I'm happier.

I'm 17 too, so I can only know so much, but laughter helps a lot with self esteem. Whenever I tell a joke or make a funny/witty remark, I get a little boost.

 

[loveofreason]

How so, if your dont mind me asking?

You sound like us.

 

[fullerene]

Out of curousity, what makes you think you will like me?

Just by the things you chose to identify yourself with. Mainly because you, too, carry an emotional obsession with you... but also that you'll answer just about any question you're asked. That's like me... but I do think we're the only two INTPs here who'll do that. I also don't think I've ever disliked someone who's said they have low self-esteem so quickly. It's not really like that's a plus or a minus, in itself... but it's one of those things that the world pushes so hard to make everyone feel like they have to hide, so the fact that you'd say it probably means you've actually split off from the world and don't care much about fulfilling its expectations. Or if you still do, you probably don't like yourself much for doing it.

I tend to choose sadness over anger, when I have the ability, for a few reasons. One benefit is that there's less of a chance of it hurting other people if it overwhelms me. Mainly, though, I hate the idea that anger-caused-by-sadness isn't the "true" thing that I'm feeling (if it's a body's defensive response), and I try to bring everything about myself into accordence with truth.

 

[Snail]

I tend to choose sadness over anger, when I have the ability, for a few reasons. One benefit is that there's less of a chance of it hurting other people if it overwhelms me. Mainly, though, I hate the idea that anger-caused-by-sadness isn't the "true" thing that I'm feeling (if it's a body's defensive response), and I try to bring everything about myself into accordance with truth.

I tried to explain this to my ex, who claimed to love the truth, and he just didn't get it. He thought I was promoting weakness. It was his anger that eventually made him so threatening that I had to leave. I'm glad that you are naturally wise and don't have to be trained out of something destructive.

 

[Jesin]

but I do think we're the only two INTPs here who'll do that.

Are you sure about that?

 

[fullerene]

lol of course not, Jesin. That was just the overwhelming impression I got from the "trust" thread that I started so long ago... that people here are really protective of themselves, and most of the one's who started out on the "postive" trust side seemed more like they would give them the benefit of the doubt (originally) only if there wasn't much risk to it. That was definitely overstated, though, to say zezon and I would be the "only two" based off of a general impression.

Snail... you are a smart cookie . Sorry it didn't work out, and all, but well... like pretty much everything so far, I'd say you're right