Look at me! I'm interesting!

[Iximi]

I just sort of started posting and never really introduced myself so I figured I would

I am a 18 year old guy and live in Colorado. All signs point to me being an INTP on the MBTI as far as I can tell. I used to think I was an INTJ, but that turned out to be total BS . At first I was not too exited to be placed as an INTP- but now I am starting to embrace it I would say.

I spent then first 13 years of my life living at a summer camp for deaf children that my parents ran in the mountains. American sign language was my first language, but sadly I seem to have lost most of that ability since (lack of practice I suspect, I myself am not deaf).

I have always been sort of lackluster as a student- not taking time to study things I find boring or tedious primarily) And after my first year of Collage (International Affairs) that has really nipped me in the ass and sent me into a rather deep fit of depression that has compounded with my lack of motivation. Not a very fun place to be for sure- I'm working to set myself up for a more successful framework for next year, but if any fellow INTP's have any suggestions I'm all ears

My interests are pretty vast, and I have been looking to expand my more creative side recently. I feel like this is an area that I can really do some exiting stuff with. I'm looking forward to when I can fight off this depression and actually get the motivation to learn the violin, and get back into graphic design, among other things .

I love to party (with booze and weed of course- otherwise I just sort of sit anxiously around with a friend. I have been getting better with this tho! MBTI has helped ) but only have a few good friends. I have never really had a best friend that I feel %100 comfortable with, opening up with others is terribly exhausting and sometimes painful for me :/.

Sexually I am sort of a nymphomaniac- at least when I am not terribly depressed. Did I mention I was depressed? Anyway I have been entertaining the idea of a more intimate sexual experience focused more on personality lately, but I am a bit hesitant (stuck my dick in crazy a few times to many ). One person has been on my mind in particular, whenever I talk about him people say I act like a middle school girl with a crush (lol).

So before I ramble on any more about myself I am going to cut this off. You guys here seem like a pretty cool bunch and I look forward to all the wonder you can bring to my life . Oh- and pardon the title, just a joke XD

 

[Hadoblado]

Yes you are. A depressed nymphomaniac bisexual INTP who was raised in the mountains and has forgotten his first language?

You sir, are a taker of cake.

 

[Deleted member 1424]

I actually find Hado much more peculiar for being able to find Iximi interesting.

Regardless, welcome.

 

[Iximi]

I actually find Hado much more peculiar for being able to find Iximi interesting.

Regardless, welcome.

Well I guess it depends on a person's own experiences.

 

[Blue Dream]

I have always been sort of lackluster as a student- not taking time to study things I find boring or tedious primarily) And after my first year of Collage (International Affairs) that has really nipped me in the ass and sent me into a rather deep fit of depression that has compounded with my lack of motivation. Not a very fun place to be for sure- I'm working to set myself up for a more successful framework for next year, but if any fellow INTP's have any suggestions I'm all ears

This, aside from the depression (well if I'm depressed at all, which I feel I slightly am at the moment, although it isn't severe), sums up my school life and first year of college :\ I'm switching my major and trying to set myself up with only classes I am interested in next semester. I'm can't take general ed anymore, I hate 3/4ths of the classes I have taken this year, and I only see "general ed requirements" as a way for the school to make more money out of students, namely by making them pay for two years of schooling that they might not necessarily need. I realize some majors require pre-requisites, but I feel that I specifically do not need a single class that I have had to take thus far. I mean, it's not like I'm learning anything from them :\

I'm switching from psychology to music (unsure of the concentration, although I know for sure it won't be performance or education. Most likely going to be composition/music technology). I came to the conclusion that I have to enjoy the schooling phase as well as the career phase of whatever I decide to do, so I chose to go with what I love the most, because it will be the only thing which will hold my attention for the many years of school that I have ahead of me. I still plan on minoring in psych, though.

The only way I see my new plan working is if I set up a really, really, REALLY engaging schedule of classes and personal practice. I have to be engrossed in what I am learning in and out of class, otherwise I'll only give it like, 5% of my maximum effort, if not less...

 

[Iximi]

The only way I see my new plan working is if I set up a really, really, REALLY engaging schedule of classes and personal practice. I have to be engrossed in what I am learning in and out of class, otherwise I'll only give it like, 5% of my maximum effort, if not less...

I'm thinking along the same lines. If I keep myself busy I think I can stay on top of things. It looks like I will probably be on academic probation, which may turn out to be a good thing since I will have to see my advisor more often and therefore feel a little more accountable for my coursework.

As far as the depression thing I suppose I should drop into the mental health services for regular prevention, despite my pride. I do feel a little distrustful of services like that, but I'm not sure if that is really rational or not. Keeping up with my hobbies and practicing yoga more often seem like good ideas as well. I fell like I know exactly what to do- the trick is getting myself to actually do it haha.

 

[Deleted member 1424]

It is a common human fallacy to believe in special circumstances.
You are no more special than anyone else. Indeed your prose supports this.
The contents are exceptionally ordinary. You use a little dramatized language, but that in and of itself is again very common.

You'll find it has nothing to do with personal experiences.
There is merely nothing surprising, bizarre, or otherwise notable about your existence so far expressed.

Unless Hado has some personal interest it doesn't make sense that he should find you interesting. So it's likely he has low standards for what qualifies as interesting or that he's merely been 'nice' and indulging your humor. Though whether the latter is due to a compulsion born from social engineering or for some specific intent is unknown.


Continued observation of subject Hado necessary for complete analysis.

 

[Iximi]

It is a common human fallacy to believe in special circumstances.
You are no more special than anyone else. Indeed your prose supports this.
The contents are exceptionally ordinary. You use a little dramatized language, but that in and of itself is again very common.

You'll find it has nothing to do with personal experiences.
There is merely nothing surprising or bizarre about your existence so far expressed.

Unless Hado has some personal interest it doesn't make sense that he should find you interesting. So it's likely he has low standards for what qualifies as interesting or that he's merely been 'nice' and indulging your humor. Though whether the latter is due to compulsion born from social engineering or to some specific future purpose is unknown.


Continued observation of subject Hado necessary for complete analysis.

Well obviously I don't think I am any "more" special than anyone else from an objective standpoint. However when encountering wild humans I am intrigued by people that I don't immediately understand or feel familiar with- weather it is their background or their manner. What would qualify someone as having a "surprising or bizarre" existence? How do you define a normal or "exceptionally ordinary" existence?

 

[ElvenVeil]

Adaires replies were unexpected. Rebooting, storing the newfound data.

 

[Hadoblado]

Well... I do find these things interesting. I am a depressed INTP who was brought up in the mountains, so we have common ground. He then has a more interesting lingual background, a more interesting sexuality, and certainly a more interesting addiction.

If I didn't find him interesting I would probably have to think of myself as boring by comparison, something which I do not consider myself to be. Your assessment of a personal interest may not be far wrong, but I'm pretty sure it's my turn to point the finger of peculiarity at you for finding the need to point out your perception to a person of just how mundane they are. I think this odd, and can only speculate as to your motive.

 

[xbox]

welcome

 

[EyeSeeCold]

I've seen you around, though now you're officially here. Welcome

 

[Dimensional Transition]

Welcome bra.
You really are a pretty interesting person, you seem quite adventurous.

 

[Cavallier]

*prods Adaire with a pitchfork*

Stop scarring the newbies with your cold logic and reality. Well, stop unless you are willing to let me in on the action. I'm getting a little jealous. What happened to lose lovely looks of disgust you used to send my way. Am I nothing to you now?

Welcome young dragonette! You are unique just like everybody else!

 

[Deleted member 1424]

Well... I do find these things interesting. I am a depressed INTP who was brought up in the mountains, so we have common ground. He then has a more interesting lingual background, a more interesting sexuality, and certainly a more interesting addiction.

So he is interesting so far as he relates to you, falling within a comfortable parameter of deviation? Rather tribal, don't you think?

If I didn't find him interesting I would probably have to think of myself as boring by comparison, something which I do not consider myself to be.

When your atoms have returned to dust, your entire species dead and forgotten, perhaps your entire universe; will you still hold yourself as interesting or important? You are only interesting to yourself and a handful humans. However in any substantive sense you mean nothing.

Even if you're religious or spiritual, you're still only one of billions. Unless your a solipsist, but then everything I've said is your fault. You're such a jerk.

Your assessment of a personal interest may not be far wrong, but I'm pretty sure it's my turn to point the finger of peculiarity at you for finding the need to point out your perception to a person of just how mundane they are. I think this odd, and can only speculate as to your motive.

Oh it could be multiple things. Perhaps another string of repetitive mindless niceties was just too much for my fragile sanity to bear. Perhaps unwarranted self-importance and the shameless and impotent pursuit of external validations are pet peeves of mine. Perhaps I'm pmsing. Perhaps I'm trolling. Perhaps I don't have a reason and I just want to watch the world burn. Perhaps I like Batman.
:smiley_emoticons_mr

I'm probably just mean, but is it meanness to tell someone that they don't objectively matter in any sense, when it is true? Would it bruise an ego less to say the very same is true of myself? Why should it be this way? Are humans so delicate they must wrap themselves in delusions of relevance? Are some folk depressed because that is how they define themselves? Do I even have a cogent understanding of depression? How callous can I get before I'm banned or unceremoniously murdered? Why am I still philosophizing when its very clear I lost my point sentences ago? Did I even have a point? How meta can I make this question? Are you regretting asking about my motivations yet? How many questions can I ask?

answer to all the above: 24
because 42 would just be cliche

 

[Deleted member 1424]

*prods Adaire with a pitchfork*

Stop scarring the newbies with your cold logic and reality. Well, stop unless you are willing to let me in on the action. I'm getting a little jealous. What happened to lose lovely looks of disgust you used to send my way. Am I nothing to you now?
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Oh my poor dear Cav!

You must know my searing hatred burns hottest for you!

 

[kantor1003]

I think this odd, and can only speculate as to your motive.

Adair wants to be special, interesting, notable, and what was it? Bizarre?

Welcome

 

[AlisaD]

*gives Adaire a lolly*

There, there, honey.

 

[Melllvar]

Yes you are. A depressed nymphomaniac bisexual INTP who was raised in the mountains and has forgotten his first language?

You sir, are a taker of cake.

Oh come on, what's so special about nymphomania? Hell, the vast majority of what's keeping me from nymphomaniac/sex addict status is just opportunity.

(I'm mostly joking... mostly)

Edit: Funny that this would be my 699th post. Get it!? Do ya!?

 

[Jesse]

Your not so much interesting as a copy of me. Except for the nymphomaniac part as I am just shit out getting laid.

Your thinking of combating depression with music? Right because there is so much happy musicians.

I would say do better at school. You will regret it later when yo fail (like i do).

 

[Iximi]

Your not so much interesting as a copy of me. Except for the nymphomaniac part as I am just shit out getting laid.

Your thinking of combating depression with music? Right because there is so much happy musicians.

I would say do better at school. You will regret it later when yo fail (like i do).

I'm not planning of taking it up as the main focus of my life- but more like a hobby. Thanks for the advice tho haha.

 

[Jesse]

What can I say I want everyone to be as miserable as me.

I'm also quite sarcastic so never take me seriously.

 

[Da Blob]

Get the bleepin' piece of paper, the college degree, that will prove to potential employers that "yes, indeed, you have a high tolerance for meaningless BS, posing as an education". That seems to be important to some employers.

In the meantime, make use of the collegiate environment and the extracurricular activities to educate your own Self, as you see best, for fun and profit.

College can be quite a disillusioning experience, but it is still way up the scale from working as a menial corporate lackey. If nothing else, one can just work a few hours a week, enough to get passing grades by playing the professors' games, so that one actually has more free time than the alternative of working full time at a job with no future and little free time away from it...

 

[Hadoblado]

So he is interesting so far as he relates to you, falling within a comfortable parameter of deviation? Rather tribal, don't you think?



When your atoms have returned to dust, your entire species dead and forgotten, perhaps your entire universe; will you still hold yourself as interesting or important? You are only interesting to yourself and a handful humans. However in any substantive sense you mean nothing.

Even if you're religious or spiritual, you're still only one of billions. Unless your a solipsist, but then everything I've said is your fault. You're such a jerk.



Oh it could be multiple things. Perhaps another string of repetitive mindless niceties was just too much for my fragile sanity to bear. Perhaps unwarranted self-importance and the shameless and impotent pursuit of external validations are pet peeves of mine. Perhaps I'm pmsing. Perhaps I'm trolling. Perhaps I don't have a reason and I just want to watch the world burn. Perhaps I like Batman.
:smiley_emoticons_mr

I'm probably just mean, but is it meanness to tell someone that they don't objectively matter in any sense, when it is true? Would it bruise an ego less to say the very same is true of myself? Why should it be this way? Are humans so delicate they must wrap themselves in delusions of relevance? Are some folk depressed because that is how they define themselves? Do I even have a cogent understanding of depression? How callous can I get before I'm banned or unceremoniously murdered? Why am I still philosophizing when its very clear I lost my point sentences ago? Did I even have a point? How meta can I make this question? Are you regretting asking about my motivations yet? How many questions can I ask?

answer to all the above: 24
because 42 would just be cliche

Is it fair to claim that you make the mistake of assuming I express anything other than my opinion? Objective reality can only be known subjectively (if at all), and interesting on an objective scale is a concept that tickles me pink. When I state that a person is of interest I am stating that I find them interesting, why all the prattle about objective perspective and meaning? Are you trying to set a pretense for the newbie? Because if you are that would be cute...erm... subjectively.

 

[cheese]

I'm surprised by how unoffended Iximi is. He takes everything in stride!

 

[ElvenVeil]

How on earth do you judge something as being objectively unimportant, in a larger scale, where there are no preset goals or rules? have you not already then made a subjective judgement, on what should be objectively important/unimportant?

Edit: that was naturally aimed at Adaires ramble : p

 

[PapyrusAirplanes]

Rockies+ASL=Amazing. You've lived my dream life.

 

[pirate]

Welcome! I used to be depressed but I think I'm fine now. Actually, I'm not so sure... I can't feel anything anymore. Anyways, I can give you some ideas for how to overcome it.