EndogenousRebel
Even a mean person is trying their best, right?
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OK, it's on.
Is this relatable to anyone else?
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ZenRaiden
One atom of me
Yes I can relate.
Black Rose
An unbreakable bond
I have two genes for Autism. (asymmetric miswiring)
I also have two genes for schizophrenia. (limbic motor dysregulation)
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Autism
rs895606 is a genetic risk variant for autism
rs895606 is a gene that is associated with progressive supranuclear palsy
Progressive supranuclear palsy (PSP) is a rare neurological disorder that occurs when brain cells in certain areas gradually deteriorate. PSP is caused by damage to nerve cells in areas of the brain that control thinking and body movements.
PSP involves the deposition of neurofibrillary tangles (NFTs), gliosis, and cell loss in a specific distribution. These areas include the subthalamic nucleus, globus pallidus, substantia nigra, pretectal area of the midbrain, and basis pontis.
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Autism
rs11588857 less efficient transport of polypeptide (protein chain)
The Leucine-rich repeat neuronal 2 (LRRN2) gene encodes a protein that is a type I transmembrane protein.
Lrrn2 acts downstream of Hoxb1 and plays a role in the selective targeting of rhombomere 4 (r4) motor neurons to BA2
LRRN2 gene Rhombomere 4 also transfer signals from the cerebral motor cortex to the cerebellum
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Schizophrenia
TaqIA polymorphism:
Reduced D2 receptor availability in the striatum
Lower mean relative glucose metabolic rate in dopaminergic regions
less receptive to reward signals
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Schizophrenia
The DRD3 Ser9Gly polymorphism:
increases dopamine affinity by 4–5 times.
increased calcium levels
increased GABA levels
nucleus accumbens less inhibited
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I also have two genes for schizophrenia. (limbic motor dysregulation)
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Autism
rs895606 is a genetic risk variant for autism
rs895606 is a gene that is associated with progressive supranuclear palsy
Progressive supranuclear palsy (PSP) is a rare neurological disorder that occurs when brain cells in certain areas gradually deteriorate. PSP is caused by damage to nerve cells in areas of the brain that control thinking and body movements.
PSP involves the deposition of neurofibrillary tangles (NFTs), gliosis, and cell loss in a specific distribution. These areas include the subthalamic nucleus, globus pallidus, substantia nigra, pretectal area of the midbrain, and basis pontis.
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Autism
rs11588857 less efficient transport of polypeptide (protein chain)
The Leucine-rich repeat neuronal 2 (LRRN2) gene encodes a protein that is a type I transmembrane protein.
Lrrn2 acts downstream of Hoxb1 and plays a role in the selective targeting of rhombomere 4 (r4) motor neurons to BA2
LRRN2 gene Rhombomere 4 also transfer signals from the cerebral motor cortex to the cerebellum
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Schizophrenia
TaqIA polymorphism:
Reduced D2 receptor availability in the striatum
Lower mean relative glucose metabolic rate in dopaminergic regions
less receptive to reward signals
-
Schizophrenia
The DRD3 Ser9Gly polymorphism:
increases dopamine affinity by 4–5 times.
increased calcium levels
increased GABA levels
nucleus accumbens less inhibited
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EndogenousRebel
Even a mean person is trying their best, right?
I found it interesting though just in specific ways.
In social contexts my attention is always scattered.
The normal flow of a conversation goes from topic to topic, and for whatever reason people would think it's weird if I circle back to address something else, because in my head that topic is still in my head.
This one time I was at a party with a friend and the music is really loud. I hear some a ring tone over all the noise and I identify it as my friends phone ringing in his pocket.
Music being designed to draw on attention, it was ironic.
I also relate to this idea that I have to build up my attention.
In social contexts my attention is always scattered.
The normal flow of a conversation goes from topic to topic, and for whatever reason people would think it's weird if I circle back to address something else, because in my head that topic is still in my head.
This one time I was at a party with a friend and the music is really loud. I hear some a ring tone over all the noise and I identify it as my friends phone ringing in his pocket.
Music being designed to draw on attention, it was ironic.
I also relate to this idea that I have to build up my attention.
birdsnestfern
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The hsp part that I relate to is the social aspect of it. And/or the physiological processing aspect of the different sounds and energies coming from people. Normal people see only people in the room and tune out everything else. Highly sensitives / psychics / intuitives are absorbing another world or two full of information at the same time, like what people are really feeling about you, how their ego is drawing energy from you or giving to you, what the tone of voice indicates, why they are the way they are underneath, motives for saying something, what your reaction is to that, the reactions of others, the nuances of energies both bodily and psychic that are bouncing around the room and echoing in the cacophony of sounds, your own heartbeat and body reactions, the moment you feel yourself withdrawing into a frozen deer in the headlights response, feeling the urge to run outside to get away from the craziness of everyones egoic desires, the tightening of muscles, the worry about what you should say in response, the worry about hiding your real reactions or not reacting enough, the muffled sounds when they mix together, its like the focus goes on the combined energy of everything at once that at first are fine and quickly become too much.
But when it comes to actual work type multitasking, I'm quite good at it. In fact, I can drop one deep focus item to grab a phone call and answer an email simultaneously and bounce back to a deep task of accounting - as long as I've had my vitamin B complex and its the first 3 days of the week I'm super fast and staying on top of it. Towards day four and five, I'm burning out more and have to push everything away, my brain gets tired after dealing with too much. This is why distractions like a mini time out watching a tv show I like will bring me back, or a walk outside will. I thrive on distractions, because each time I switch, it gives me more energy to come back to the other one. If its something I don't like I get bored and can only handle a little at a time, so multi tasking kind of works well so I don't get so bored.
Building personal boundaries and communicating about what and when something can be done is vitally important. Teaching others about your boundaries and making them respect them is vital. TAKING your time or having days where you do nothing but purge is also helpful.
But when it comes to actual work type multitasking, I'm quite good at it. In fact, I can drop one deep focus item to grab a phone call and answer an email simultaneously and bounce back to a deep task of accounting - as long as I've had my vitamin B complex and its the first 3 days of the week I'm super fast and staying on top of it. Towards day four and five, I'm burning out more and have to push everything away, my brain gets tired after dealing with too much. This is why distractions like a mini time out watching a tv show I like will bring me back, or a walk outside will. I thrive on distractions, because each time I switch, it gives me more energy to come back to the other one. If its something I don't like I get bored and can only handle a little at a time, so multi tasking kind of works well so I don't get so bored.
Building personal boundaries and communicating about what and when something can be done is vitally important. Teaching others about your boundaries and making them respect them is vital. TAKING your time or having days where you do nothing but purge is also helpful.