Is life meaningless?

[Black Rose]

I lost touch with reality after school.

I was put on disability when I got depressed for not being able to complete college.

That was hard because I never did much even if I kept trying to learn.

But more so I believe my mother is mentally disabled in some way.

So then no one cared about what I did.

That seems to be how society functions.

If you cannot take care of yourself, then you just do nothing all day.

Is doing nothing what I am supposed to be doing?

I do not know.

 

[Cognisant]

Seek power, knowledge is power, learn things, try to learn something new every day.

Learn how to change a tire, learn how to bake a cake, learn how to say some simple phrases in another language, even if it's not a lot something is always more than nothing.

Some people are merchants, they make a profit from buying and selling things, to do that you need to know how to talk to people, how to sell to them, what makes something valuable and where to find things you can acquire for less than they're worth elsewhere. It's all knowledge.

Some people make money from making videos in which they talk about their thoughts and the world, people listen to them because they know a lot.

 

[Black Rose]

I had a nap and had some thinking dreams.

If I were to feel that things were meaningless then things would go one way.

If I were to feel that things were meaningful then they would go another way.

Rationally it all depends on inducing those feelings.

And in my dream, I felt both total meaninglessness and total meaningfulness.

To be happy one needs to have a centered emotional state.

Because despair is just a state of confusion and sadness.

This is when you can't process things and they are stuck inside you.

But in the opposite case, I realized that a divine-like state is possible.

In a way, it is like a sci-fi future where everything is shining and made of light.

That means we have a possibility of consciousness in the feeling state of meaning.

("Meaning") divinity light and all that is possible as a consciousness state.