ZenRaiden
One atom of me
What if you wake up one day, and you have done normal life to best of your ability, and you realize it does not work.
Not because you cannot, but because you just wont. Like you brain just cannot do it even if you want to.
So you realize you got to do something differently. But you never done anything differently.
You dont even know what that is.
I just look at my parents. And I have the urge to jump head first out the window.
Its just an unconscious impulse.
I used to think its the fact I never did anything with my life.
But then I asked myself why not?
And I honestly cannot blame it on my circumstances, but anytime I want to do anything normal people do, I just feel the urge to stab a fork in my knee and bleed.
Ever get that feeling of dread, that being normal aint an option, but you dont want to be different for sake of different.
You just cannot stand normal life?
Not because you cannot, but because you just wont. Like you brain just cannot do it even if you want to.
So you realize you got to do something differently. But you never done anything differently.
You dont even know what that is.
I just look at my parents. And I have the urge to jump head first out the window.
Its just an unconscious impulse.
I used to think its the fact I never did anything with my life.
But then I asked myself why not?
And I honestly cannot blame it on my circumstances, but anytime I want to do anything normal people do, I just feel the urge to stab a fork in my knee and bleed.
Ever get that feeling of dread, that being normal aint an option, but you dont want to be different for sake of different.
You just cannot stand normal life?
