Nocturna
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I really need to make sense of this, so any help will be deeply appreciated.
Most of the time I score as a INTP, although sometimes I get INFP instead. Either way, the F and P are always extremely close in percentage. Reading both descriptions I can easily identify with both to an extent, both fit but neither does it entirely. I have the INFPs idealism and INTPs absolute need for facts and cynicism. So I tried looking at the cognitive functions and see if they could untie the score, it's been to no avail. In quizzes I always score extremely high (>90%) in both Ti and Fi, moderately high in Si and moderate in Ne. Reading the descriptions it makes sense, I recognize myself in both the extreme Ti and extreme Fi, I can't choose one over the other. I'm beginning to think this may be the reason why I internalize everything, it's like I've spent my life trying to absorb the world in an attempt to recreate it within myself and thus make it real, thinking that only when I finally succeed (and knowing very well that it's impossible) will I be able to really connect to the world outside and people in particular. There are universes inside my mind, it's also my prison. I want so much to connect at a deep level that I end up feeling that I can't connect at all. I have no idea if I'm a dysfunctional INTP who's incapable of expressing feelings or a dysfunctional INFP who never learned to how to be organized. I feel like both. I am both. So what do I do? Do I try to develop Te or Fe, knowing that by picking one I may actually be doing the opposite of what might be helpful in the long run?
Most of the time I score as a INTP, although sometimes I get INFP instead. Either way, the F and P are always extremely close in percentage. Reading both descriptions I can easily identify with both to an extent, both fit but neither does it entirely. I have the INFPs idealism and INTPs absolute need for facts and cynicism. So I tried looking at the cognitive functions and see if they could untie the score, it's been to no avail. In quizzes I always score extremely high (>90%) in both Ti and Fi, moderately high in Si and moderate in Ne. Reading the descriptions it makes sense, I recognize myself in both the extreme Ti and extreme Fi, I can't choose one over the other. I'm beginning to think this may be the reason why I internalize everything, it's like I've spent my life trying to absorb the world in an attempt to recreate it within myself and thus make it real, thinking that only when I finally succeed (and knowing very well that it's impossible) will I be able to really connect to the world outside and people in particular. There are universes inside my mind, it's also my prison. I want so much to connect at a deep level that I end up feeling that I can't connect at all. I have no idea if I'm a dysfunctional INTP who's incapable of expressing feelings or a dysfunctional INFP who never learned to how to be organized. I feel like both. I am both. So what do I do? Do I try to develop Te or Fe, knowing that by picking one I may actually be doing the opposite of what might be helpful in the long run?