I feel like I am very fucked up.

[Weliddryn]

Judging by my posts, if you cared to view them, would you agree?

 

[Anthile]

No.

 

[Kidege]

I doubt a hug will help, but here is one.

*hugs*

And from what I know of you, you're pretty sane.

 

[Inappropriate Behavior]

I feel like I am very fucked up.

And you trust your feelings? You're INTP (aren't you?), the last thing you should trust is something you don't understand all that well.

Now....GROUP HUG!!!!

 

[flow]

I feel that I'M very fucked up. But I prefer it this way, keeps people on their toes.

 

[sagewolf]

No! You're one of the sanest people on this forum.

*Looks around* Actually, let me reconsider that...

Weliddryn, you really are magnificent. Don't doubt it. *hug*

 

[Weliddryn]

Then why WHY do feel so goddamn ashamed? It is agony, tearing me apart from the inside out. ALWAYS the shame, never...

 

[Weliddryn]

Forget this. Forget all of this. I apologize for my last post and this thread.

 

[Kidege]

Never apologize for feeling.


............................


And you listened to me when I needed it.

 

[flow]

Woah now, let us examine this feeling.. why do you feel fucked up all of a sudden? Have you been feeling this way since joining the forum, or has something more recently brought about such feelings? You know, I still feel ashamed about things I did years ago... as soon as the memory pops back in my head I feel like shit. It sucks.. sometimes you wish you'd just forget things.

 

[Weliddryn]

...please move this to the Inner Sanctum?

I will get over this. Shame is something I've always had a lot of, for no reason or reason, its always been there. I could never, ever escape it. Recent difficult events.... heh. They'll haunt me, always, but I am repulsed by creating this thread. I'll simply have to get over it and leave you people alone.

Thanks to all who replied.

Kidege, anytime. ^^
And Flow, thank you. We all have skeletons in the closet...or will obtain them. A fact of life, perhaps.
^_^

 

[Anthile]

Done.

 

[flow]

It's true. You know, at like 4 in the morning a few nights ago while I was trying to fall asleep a thought popped into my head while reminiscing on past regrets.. I wrote it down, even though it's kind of silly.

"A life without mistakes is like a song with no sound."

Also, evolutionarily speaking, we wouldn't even be here with out 'mistakes'.

 

[Weliddryn]

Yep, yep. And thanks Anthile.

 

[Toad]

I am sympathetic to your "feelings"

Thanks for posting. I know this sounds inconsiderate, but I feel a little better knowing I'm not the only one that feels fucked up. What's that saying...I thin it's "misery loves company"?

 

[The Fury]

I have never met a person in my entire life who isn't fucked up. You're probably just more aware of your problems than most since you're in your own head so much.

 

[Artifice Orisit]

Weliddryn, you're such a girl

Y-Chromosone Guide to Handling Shame
(if the first fails, try the next, etc)
Apathy -> Poor Memory -> Drink -> Try to Fix Things -> Say Sorry -> Apathy ->

 

[Weliddryn]

lol, cog. I literally laughed. I do not drink, however.

Toad- Start a "I'm fucked up club"? xD

Fury- True, I was just reflecting on that. I'll never change the fact that I feel so horribly flawed, though, and the cycle can be highly destructive.

I was also thinking how I find Seducer, Wisp, and a few others so courageous for seeking help and really trying to obtain it. I can never do that, not to a degree that will truly aid me, long term. Too scared. xD

I am only posting this reply due to it may aid someone else with the same issue. cryptonia helped me realize how expressing yourself, despite potential criticism, can help those who read and relate but do not speak.

My point- don't worry about trying to reassure me, offering consolation, etc. It won't work and will only embarass me or make me more critical.

Thanks for the replies, they were all appreciated. ^^

 

[cheese]

Ok, no reassurance or consolation.

Weli at end of thread:

Points to crypt.

 

[echoplex]

Well, I'm sure I'm one of about ...umm... everyone here who read this and thought "well, you can't possibly be anymore fucked up than me..."

I'm curious though, in what way do you mean this? Do you mean that you don't feel you can function well in society? Do you feel insane? Do you feel disappointed in how you perceive yourself? Do you think the feelings you exprience are unusual, and thus make you comparatively more "fucked up" than most people? (after all, it could be said that everyone is fucked up, so perhaps it's a matter of degree where there's a certain threshold of fuckedupness.)

I dunno, I'm just rambling now, but I think I can relate and we need a club for this or something.

 

[Weliddryn]

Well, I'm sure I'm one of about ...umm... everyone here who read this and thought "well, you can't possibly be anymore fucked up than me..."

I acknowledge I am probably more stable? than re's a certain threshold of fuckedupness.)[/quote]
Doesn't matter.

I dunno, I'm just rambling now, but I think I can relate and we need a club for this or something.

Am I gonna have to be the one to create it? ;p

Anyway- can this thread be closed, delete, forgotten? This is highly distressing me.
Once again, replies were appreciated, I just cannot handle this.

 

[INTPINFP]

probably will never get as messed up as me.

 

[Claverhouse]

Anyway- can this thread be closed, delete, forgotten? This is highly distressing me.
Once again, replies were appreciated, I just cannot handle this.

Sure.

Well, two out of the three.


Claverhouse

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