I don't know myself

[meanbluepanda]

I go and take personality tests, and they ask me about hypothetical situations. But when I try to answer them, I find that I don't actually know what I would do. I am 16 so basically no life experience. I also find myself questioning why I do things all the time, and come to no real conclusion. When people ask me what I think about something for example a movie, I come up blank. I literally am just like "uhh it was a movie that i watched...." or how they look or whatever. I basically have no opinions about anything. This post isn't really going anywhere I just want to know how to find myself or whatever, if there is anything to find in the first place.

PS: I sometimes feel like am going nowhere, I don't have any hopes for the future and am basically bored all the time no matter what I do.

 

[QuickTwist]

Its all yours Gopher.

 

[somebodiesfool]

Hey I like you.

"opinions are like assholes, everyone has got one!"

I'm also hopelessly bored.

 

[Black Rose]

sometimes there are no answers and things just are the way they are. a test is not good for defining who you are. what you do and who you are are separate because of why you do them instead of just doing them. boredom happens because you have not found what resonates with the inside. passion is hard to find but it could be that you just don't want to be involved with what you do. before it was about doing it was about deciding "I want to do something". if its the future that you have uncertainty of just its because of not living a hopeful life right her right now. perhaps you want to be someone who is different but instead you need to enjoy who you are as you are and not let the things you think you need to do define you.

 

[meanbluepanda]

Its all yours Gopher.

What

a test is not good for defining who you are.

Am not using the test to define who I am, but through attempting the test am realizing that IDK who I am.

what you do and who you are are separate because of why you do them instead of just doing them.

You just lost me there(engrish isn't my first language).

Also what I meant about the future is that I find myself in a state of existence is the best way I'd call it. I am not depressed, just not really hoping for anything. My reaction to most things is meh.

 

[Black Rose]

i guess i was projecting because my boredom comes with anxiety meh isn't so bad but who you are is a choice if you can make if it has come from a state of existence where you don't know yet. but attachment to an identity can bring about ill gotten emotions if confrunted

 

[somebodiesfool]

Also what I meant about the future is that I find myself in a state of existence is the best way I'd call it. I am not depressed, just not really hoping for anything. My reaction to most things is meh.

Well, what's wrong with that. Just be and do. Forget hope. You just going to hope on something that never comes true then get more depressed. All that is, is what's in front of you and what you have to work with. Just be realistic.

 

[nanook]

you shouldn't invent crap about yourself, just so you can boast about how well you know yourself. many people, myself included, do this, to compensate for their total lack of direction in life. not knowing who you are in conceptual ways is natural, however it's also natural to know what you want or how you feel about things and if this isn't working for you, you suffer from apathy, which is really dangerous and better fixed while you are young.

 

[Kuu]

I am not depressed, just not really hoping for anything. My reaction to most things is meh.

You should seriously rethink that statement. Misunderstanding depression is quite common.

 

[Cognisant]

Any personality take you choose to take instantly looses all validity because you know you're taking the test and you more-or-less know what it's testing so you're going to make biased choices based upon the outcome you want, and not achieving an outcome is itself an outcome.

Like every kid your age you want to be told you're special and personality tests cater to that desire, however you have the self awareness to realize that no matter what outcome you get it's no more or less special than any other so in typical INTP fashion you sought the outcome outside the system. You intentionally (consciously or not) give vague answers so the test fails and you get to feel special because you got the most special outcome, you're something beyond the test's power to classify.

It's a childish victory but still a valid one, personality tests are stupid, well done.

 

[meanbluepanda]

All that is, is what's in front of you and what you have to work with. Just be realistic.

Well what reason do I have to do anything basically. If I am not looking for something out of life, and I don't enjoy anything I do. Then why do anything. My finals are coming up, and everyone is saying "You need to study and work hard to get a good future". I know that's what I have to do, but I just don't give a shit.

Any personality take you choose to take instantly looses all validity because you know you're taking the test and you more-or-less know what it's testing so you're going to make biased choices based upon the outcome you want, and not achieving an outcome is itself an outcome.

Like every kid your age you want to be told you're special and personality tests cater to that desire, however you have the self awareness to realize that no matter what outcome you get it's no more or less special than any other so in typical INTP fashion you sought the outcome outside the system. You intentionally (consciously or not) give vague answers so the test fails and you get to feel special because you got the most special outcome, you're something beyond the test's power to classify.

It's a childish victory but still a valid one, personality tests are stupid, well done.

I am no longer looking for the answer in personality tests. I am trying to figure it out on my own, and I noticed that am not making any progress that's why I came here.

I am trying to figure out who I really am, that's why I am here asking questions and shtaff like that. When I could have easily just made some shit up and pretended like it was who I am. I appreciate your guys' input.I guess I'll go to a doctor or something to check the apathy thing out later on.

 

[Black Rose]

I am no longer looking for the answer in personality tests. I am trying to figure it out on my own, and I noticed that am not making any progress that's why I came here.

the best place to go is the source but remember that this only presents the first stages of understanding. i myself need to review it several times again

http://psychclassics.yorku.ca/Jung/types.htm