How introverted are you?

[mu is mu]

Lately I've been becoming increasingly aware of just how introverted I am, and I'm beginning to feel concerned about this. I'm wondering if any of you can identify or offer insights pertaining to this situation.

At my job, social interaction often comes naturally to me and most of the interactive situations don't seem to expend my energy resources. I can even be outgoing and spontaneous around some of my coworkers at times, although my dedication and task-orientation often isolate me from people spatially and, consequently, socially. And I hold a somewhat similar attitude towards school: speaking up in class is no problem for me, and I'm usually one of the most participative students; group projects are usually no problem either, and I'd venture to say that I meet up with the professors during their office hours more than anyone else--although, of course, never for mere chit-chat.

I suspect that the above instances of social interaction do not deplete my energy resources because my self-discipline and work ethic sway me to categorize those interactions as necessary components in the completion of those tasks (i.e., work and school), particularly for the crucial process of information exchange. But it seems that almost all other types of social interaction drain the life out of me--quickly and intensely. I recognize that I have virtually no social life, and frankly I don't want one. I also realized sometime over the past few years that while I've made friends in my life, including close ones, I've never "made the first move" or asked anyone to be my friend.

But on the other hand, conversations with iNtuitive individuals tend to energize me. However, this is an extremely rare occurrence--nearly all the people I work with are SPs and most of my classmates are SJs with a few SPs--and it will probably remain rare until I attend a four year university next semester and pursue a more iNtuitive-friendly major (i.e., sociology and psychology).

I could go into a lot more detail, but I'll spare you guys the read. Do any of you relate to this situation/attitude?

 

[noksve]

Well, I used to be more participative in work environments, like you, but then I took a bully to my self-esteem. Since then I started to become a little bit more skeptical with other people, but still managed to make friends in high school and going to parties was ok. Now I've been having more and more trouble socializing. It's weird because I'm not even sure if I want to or not. For example, the other day I was invited to a 'great party', and I thought, why not, it could be nice. Once I got there I had yet to realize how great the party was. There was people everywhere, and the more people arrived, the better the idea of sitting in a corner with a glass of water sounded to me. I didn't even wanted to touch the alcohol, which, in my case, helps loosening up a little. I left very early and feeling awful and tired, even though I didn't really talk with a lot of people.

It must also be that I moved to another country and my grasp of the local language is... not good. And that it was spring, springs depress me, and now it's summer, summers I don't like because of all the people walking on the streets simultaneously and you can't go to a park to chill because all the benches will have people and their dogs and little children running around and bumping with you and it doesn't help that all your clothes are black, which must look kind of ridiculous with this heat. Oh yeah and you are not even short, you tower above other people so there's no way you can just melt with the crowd.

So yea I think I relate a little bit, but perhaps in a different way of sorts.

 

[EnigmaticMan]

In all best self-defence, I am very, very introverted, yet fairly socially observational. The reason I like to socialize of course is because I need a distraction from those emotional aches and pains that do me little service. I am aware of my inability to make friends. Another thing I have observed over the years is that my introversion is negatively affecting my marks in school; i.e. this year, a group of three, TJ (mystery personality type, quite eccentric), Taylor (ISTP???), Shea-Lynn (i am sad to say, she is useless as cruel as it may be, i think she has down syndrome). Anyhow, we all could not function as a group whatsoever. We did our own little things here and there and never made any progress as none of us has any leadership skills. I also dread being in group projects with people that I am not particularly fond of. Now I think I've made my point clear and I'm now tired of typing.

I understand perfectly.

 

[mu is mu]

I appreciate the comments. It seems that all of us have had similar experiences, then. I wonder how life would be for us if the distribution of Sensors and iNuitives across the general population was reversed.

I also identify with the ambivalence that noksve describes here regarding social interaction:

It's weird because I'm not even sure if I want to or not. For example, the other day I was invited to a 'great party', and I thought, why not, it could be nice. Once I got there I had yet to realize how great the party was.

 

[Architect]

Yes what you describe has been the case for me increasingly into my mid 40's. My entire life, with the exception of my INFJ wife, has been around Sensors. Well except for a brief stint in graduate school. So at this point in my life I've realized I've fucking had it with Sensors and the casual assumption that you think like they do, act like they do, want the things they want, and when you don't you must just be weird or off.

I wouldn't call myself socially isolated however. I have people I see and interact with at work every day, old friends I see very occasionally, family obligations, and all the casual interactions you get by being a parent. Surprisingly we have friends who really like us and try to get together socially (and occasionally succeed). I have to spend some effort fending people off or my calendar would inadvertently fill up with other peoples need to feel warm and fuzzy mammalian camaraderie with me. Oh and I do have one very close friend (who happens to be an SP oddly enough) that I see a few times a week (we work together), and an INTP friend at work I don't see enough.

Ultimately I wish my social obligations to be strictly controlled. I know that I should have some normal relations, and I do want some, so I try and maintain them, but at a very core level I don't want them to go beyond the bare minimum. Coupled with this is a midlife crisis worry that I'll die an old lonely man (unless the Singularity gets me first).

I understand Herr Einstein didn't let anybody in close and took part in few social obligations.

 

[nexion]

I was told that when I got into university I would gradually become more extroverted but it seems that the opposite has happened. Apparently my thoughts, the conclusions I come to from those thoughts, and the core of my personality, revolves around my becoming more and more introverted. But at the same time, I can see breaks every so often, when my thoughts turn back around and I see their implications. Truly, the overabundance of one thing will result in its opposite. It seems that one day I will understand the relevance of being around other people, if I'm not already starting to now. It is an awesome development. I suppose three steps forward followed by two backs is still progress. The same may be true if inversed. How fascinating.

 

[pjoa09]

Y U NO TALK?

Introversion grew for me too.

As I started to live in a less socially forced environment.

School is a socially forced environment and no one ever gets to be truly alone. Which is actually a good thing.

 

[Hadoblado]

I'm introverted, but not unusually so. I'm quite gregarious among friends, and parties are usually a positive experience if I've had enough to drink. I try not to be around people as I recharge, as I am often quite irritable during this phase. As a result, a few people don't realise my introversion and are often left confused when I need to gtfo.

 

[mu is mu]

Yes what you describe has been the case for me increasingly into my mid 40's. My entire life, with the exception of my INFJ wife, has been around Sensors. Well except for a brief stint in graduate school. So at this point in my life I've realized I've fucking had it with Sensors and the casual assumption that you think like they do, act like they do, want the things they want, and when you don't you must just be weird or off.

...

Architect, although I'm only 22, I identify so strongly with almost every statement you typed it's hard to believe. Seeing those words come from another INTP who is at a later stage in life than I am is very encouraging to me.

I also appreciate the other comments from everyone else. This is actually proving to be much more informative and helpful than I initially anticipated.

 

[snafupants]

Lately I've been becoming increasingly aware of just how introverted I am, and I'm beginning to feel concerned about this. I'm wondering if any of you can identify or offer insights pertaining to this situation.

At my job, social interaction often comes naturally to me and most of the interactive situations don't seem to expend my energy resources. I can even be outgoing and spontaneous around some of my coworkers at times, although my dedication and task-orientation often isolate me from people spatially and, consequently, socially. And I hold a somewhat similar attitude towards school: speaking up in class is no problem for me, and I'm usually one of the most participative students; group projects are usually no problem either, and I'd venture to say that I meet up with the professors during their office hours more than anyone else--although, of course, never for mere chit-chat.

I suspect that the above instances of social interaction do not deplete my energy resources because my self-discipline and work ethic sway me to categorize those interactions as necessary components in the completion of those tasks (i.e., work and school), particularly for the crucial process of information exchange. But it seems that almost all other types of social interaction drain the life out of me--quickly and intensely. I recognize that I have virtually no social life, and frankly I don't want one. I also realized sometime over the past few years that while I've made friends in my life, including close ones, I've never "made the first move" or asked anyone to be my friend.

But on the other hand, conversations with iNtuitive individuals tend to energize me. However, this is an extremely rare occurrence--nearly all the people I work with are SPs and most of my classmates are SJs with a few SPs--and it will probably remain rare until I attend a four year university next semester and pursue a more iNtuitive-friendly major (i.e., sociology and psychology).

I could go into a lot more detail, but I'll spare you guys the read. Do any of you relate to this situation/attitude?

Lubricious innuendo? Dirty dog.

 

[Dapper Dan]

First of all, Introversion isn't a scale. Spending more time alone doesn't mean you're more Introverted. That depends way too much on outside factors, like who you're surrounded by and how draining your job is.

... a more iNtuitive-friendly major (i.e., sociology and psychology).

I believe Soc and Psych actually have a reputation for attracting some very non-iNtuitive types of people. It probably depends on the school, though.

 

[Hadoblado]

They certainly attract the ladies. My classes are usually in the range of 2-5 girls to every guy, even psych statistics.

I would think that psych and sociology attract intuitives, I know I really enjoy the conceptual side of psych.

That said: I dropped out of sociology because it was very non-conceptual. It seemed more like the lecturer would give you a whole bunch of history then conclude with his informed but controversial opinion. I walked away after an entire year with only a faint understanding of modernity and it's associated concepts, yet somehow rockin' a distinction average. It just felt very bullshit to me, with a relationship between understanding and marks yet to be confirmed.

 

[Dapper Dan]

That said: I dropped out of sociology because it was very non-conceptual. It seemed more like the lecturer would give you a whole bunch of history then conclude with his informed but controversial opinion. I walked away after an entire year with only a faint understanding of modernity and it's associated concepts, yet somehow rockin' a distinction average. It just felt very bullshit to me, with a relationship between understanding and marks yet to be confirmed.

I felt the same way in my (admittedly, 100-level) Soc and Psych courses. The subject matter was almost interesting, but it was always presented in a "here's what happened" sort of way. Very much like history is typically taught.

Also, they spent like 10 minutes total on typology, which really irked me.

 

[MichiganJFrog]

I took Psych 101 at the University of Maryland 100 years ago. I sat in a massive lecture hall way in the back. If it was at the beginning of the week, all the girls from Long Island would talk about what they did over the weekend. Any other day of the week, they'd be talking about what they were going to do over the weekend.

When I did manage to hear the speck on the stage who happened to be our professor, he made absolutely no sense at all. All I remember is one day he talked about the ommatidia of horseshoe crabs, and another time he had a student come up on stage, stick his hand in a bucket of water, and tell the class what it felt like.

That is the extent of my formal psych education. But I wish I had stuck with it, because I'm really into it now. So, introverted or not, I'd say stick with it if you're really into it.

 

[Hadoblado]

Yeah typology doesn't seem like that big a deal outside of the internet or job interviews. I'm going to take a personality unit sooner or later so I'm hoping it'll be represented more heavily there. I'm surprised by your bad experiences with psychology, the psych department of my university seems great (tho I do have some problems with them). Comparative to other departments they are really on the ball and provide a lot of interesting material. The assignments are a bit droll, with emphasis on empiricism and demonstrating understanding of their completely arbitrary referencing and format system, but the lectures and pracs are very interesting.

 

[redbaron]

Very introverted.

But I've grown up in a very loud and highly intuitive family. I'd say that my family has a greater amount of NT/NF types than SP/SJ. So it's led to me being very opinionated and talkative simply because that's how my family is. It's never personal, we just like to debate topics and everyone really seems to enjoy the back-and-forth.

I come across as opinionated and confident with people I'm comfortable with, but always keep them at arms length. I don't feel comfortable socializing with large groups, and I become quite reserved at large gatherings unless talking to people I know or if I find someone with similar interests and ideas.

I think that having the Fe and Ne functions can make a lot of seemingly introverted individuals come across as extroverted, because they can make you talkative and outwardly emotional at times. However I definitely keep all but a handful of people at arms length, and rarely attend social outings. I would call myself a confident and self-assured introvert.

 

[mu is mu]

Very introverted.

But I've grown up in a very loud and highly intuitive family. I'd say that my family has a greater amount of NT/NF types than SP/SJ. So it's led to me being very opinionated and talkative simply because that's how my family is. It's never personal, we just like to debate topics and everyone really seems to enjoy the back-and-forth.

I come across as opinionated and confident with people I'm comfortable with, but always keep them at arms length. I don't feel comfortable socializing with large groups, and I become quite reserved at large gatherings unless talking to people I know or if I find someone with similar interests and ideas.

I think that having the Fe and Ne functions can make a lot of seemingly introverted individuals come across as extroverted, because they can make you talkative and outwardly emotional at times. However I definitely keep all but a handful of people at arms length, and rarely attend social outings. I would call myself a confident and self-assured introvert.

Interesting... Thanks for the detailed response.

 

[opheliaesque]

Not as introverted as I used to be. Though I still sometimes envy the extroverts who seem to have never-ending social energy.

I just.

Stop, and deflate.

I felt the same way in my (admittedly, 100-level) Soc and Psych courses. The subject matter was almost interesting, but it was always presented in a "here's what happened" sort of way. Very much like history is typically taught.

Also, they spent like 10 minutes total on typology, which really irked me.

I study history in highschool atm, and we are never just given the dry details. You have to learn and memorize that by rote yourself. It's always about historiography, and ultimately, how to do well in tests.

Isn't that education?

 

[RedN]

i used to be very introverted but now im as extro as can be!!!

 

[mu is mu]

Not as introverted as I used to be. Though I still sometimes envy the extroverts who seem to have never-ending social energy.

I just.

Stop, and deflate.

Lol, I totally know what you mean.

i used to be very introverted but now im as extro as can be!!!

Oh? So you're... not an INTP?

 

[Ninjamanda]

I am a bartender and I have to spend a lot of my time pretending I enjoy talking to people. Socializing comes easy now after years of practice behind a bar. But the second I leave that environment, I close down and I hate talking to people. I don't like going places because for some reason I get harrassed everywhere I go.

After work and when I am not out doing the tasks necessary for life, I prefer sitting in my room and not talking to anyone. If it were up to me, I wouldn't speak to another person for as long as I could.

I feel bad because a lot of my friends get personally offended when I don't want to do anything.

 

[Fallenman]

I'm introverted and loathe it. It's funny because I obsess over socializing and yet rarely am I able to connect with people on a meaningful level that would inspire a lasting friendship. At least on my side of the table, I tend to be a people pleaser in my social interactions because that was the persona I've learned to adopt over the ages, my most successful tool for social interactions.

I'm a philosophy major. I wonder why there aren't more of my brethren in my field, or perhaps I haven't been astutely observant for the quality in my peers. I certainly believe we are much more qualified for the field than most, but in my opinion I consider philosophy majors to be quite more thoughtful than most, but sadly contrary to my point, not quite as sociable as others. So I guess that point is moot.

We are social creatures. We thrive off of social interactions, and I call bullshit on anyone who would try to claim otherwise. Certainly introverts regain their energy on their own time, but to claim or to be proud of the claim that we need no one seems to be ass backwards in my opinion.

To be fair, most people don't get it, I grant that. Most people aren't interesting enough to really try with when it comes right down to it in other words. But that in no way means to me that I would be proud of my independence, or venerate my uniqueness. I seek connection and desire it, perhaps too much for my own good, but for good reason in my opinion.

I've tooted this horn before on this forum, but I don't know... I see these threads about competitions about who can claim to be the most solitary and I shake my head in sadness. This is a competition I want no claim in. But eerily enough, I have very much a right to be in this debate, and that saddens me.

5 years later of strenuous effort and I still identify entirely too closely with the solitary individual.

 

[Architect]

I'm comfortable with my introversion. I don't have a huge need for people, but they are there for me when I need them. Nothing easier than making a new friend or seeing an old. I think the difficulty is managing to keep them from taking up all your free time.

I do get tired sometimes of the fact that nearly everybody around me is a S. I happened to grow up and live in an Intuitive black hole apparently. I spend too much time fending off S requests to go to a sports event or eat some greasy food, and too much time educating them (many of them at least) on things that come easy to me.

There's a definite asymmetric relationship with S's - usually.

 

[EyeSeeCold]

We are social creatures. We thrive off of social interactions, and I call bullshit on anyone who would try to claim otherwise. Certainly introverts regain their energy on their own time, but to claim or to be proud of the claim that we need no one seems to be ass backwards in my opinion.

I disagree, because this requires a broad generalization of what being social means. People who amass networks purely for superficial gain or communal principles are not seeking the same social content as people who cultivate a small number of people to build a circle around or to sustain themselves through individual contacts.

There are not just different degrees of being 'social' but different contents and contexts. The universal mainstays are perhaps intimate spousal relationships and platonic bonds, as in humans may naturally have a desire to connect and be affirmed but beyond that you have a wide range of very different approaches, expectations, values, and wants.

I do think we are interactive creatures but definitely not all social.

 

[RedN]

I used to be an INTPish sorta type, but Ive been taking some strong meds and its really making me.... welll be THIS. and ive like turned to the other side like the opposite.

im outgoing, extroverted, hell i dance!!!!!! I wouldve been toooo shy to even try it. its hahahaha weird, really weird feeling its so new.



but ill admit its hard. the more i show out my feelings, the harder it gets too. the more i get rejections. the more people react to me in a bad way even. back thenwhen i just kept it all in, nothing is up. people tell me, heyyy say something geeeez or wow youre smiling thats WOW.

i dont know. sorry this post is just babbled up. i had a bit to drink last night and it just didnt go so well last night. ill admit im pretty sad right now uhm. hell see i wouldnt have said that before... hahahha

im an ESTP I believe

 

[Fallenman]

@ESC: Ok you carry a valid point, cultivating intimate friendships is a valid way to maintain your social interactions. I simply think that one shouldn't be so quick to forsake people, but I guess rarely a person would ever hold the position that they forsake all people, which makes my argument moot.

On another note there is a large benefit to developing social graces. I come from the perspective that technology is rendering humanity apart, causing us to replace social interactions with it, allowing us to live in bubbles isolated from others, allowing us to avoid mistakes and valuable lessons by giving us the time to edit and curtail our responses.

I don't think the internet can or should ever replace face to face interactions. I think people who do are disconnected rather than connected.

To bring it back, even if you hate the majority of people because they happen to be Sensors, that doesn't mean you should forgo hanging out with the few intuitive's that you do know, if they're the only company you can stomach.

I feel like this generation has forgotten how to speak to each other, how to communicate. I think it is one of the most tragic consequences of this new era.

 

[EyeSeeCold]

@ESC: Ok you carry a valid point, cultivating intimate friendships is a valid way to maintain your social interactions. I simply think that one shouldn't be so quick to forsake people, but I guess rarely a person would ever hold the position that they forsake all people, which makes my argument moot.

On another note there is a large benefit to developing social graces. I come from the perspective that technology is rendering humanity apart, causing us to replace social interactions with it, allowing us to live in bubbles isolated from others, allowing us to avoid mistakes and valuable lessons by giving us the time to edit and curtail our responses.

I don't think the internet can or should ever replace face to face interactions. I think people who do are disconnected rather than connected.

To bring it back, even if you hate the majority of people because they happen to be Sensors, that doesn't mean you should forgo hanging out with the few intuitive's that you do know, if they're the only company you can stomach.

I feel like this generation has forgotten how to speak to each other, how to communicate. I think it is one of the most tragic consequences of this new era.

It is probably a concern for the current time period that we're becoming more virtual and less physical in interactions, but it's not necessarily a bad thing. We are losing out on wisdom gained from real-time in-person interactions, but if we are becoming more virtual then isn't that wisdom becoming less important? The world is still evolving.

Right now it's mostly a first-world problem, it'll take some decades before the issue is a threat to all of humanity. Until then I agree that intuitives, and also introverts, instead of just shunning everyone, should at least meet with other intuitives and introverts.


**I want to point out that I do prefer face to face, but online communication is much more convenient.

 

[Puffy]

I'm pretty introverted, my last semester I probably got by on a meet up a week with friends and was content to study/ do my own thing for the rest of it. I think it taught me my limits though; like how you can't get by without a certain amount of food and water, I do feel like I need a certain amount of good (face to face) communication or I get agitated/ anxious.

I often give myself the excuse that I don't socialise because I can't relate to the majority of people. For myself, personally, I do feel this is an attitude I need to correct as I think it mutes me to qualities in people that I can click over that I wouldn't expect otherwise. I think there's a danger in my introversion and study that I can alienate myself, which is something I'm always guarding against. I'd hate to become too pretentious.

 

[Ninjamanda]

I agree that some social interaction is necessary. I just spend so much time talking to people at work that I get mentally exhausted and it does take me a long time to recover.

I enjoy hanging out with 1-5 people. I like a more intimate environment with intelligent humans who can talk about interesting things.

It's just hard to be around a lot of people. I get over stimulated because I feel like I can feel how everyone else in the room is feeling and I get overwhelmed and anxious.

But on days I work, I usually go home and try to avoid talking to people haha.

 

[Brontosaurie]

all the way man

well that's according to the MBTI tests. I don't feel like too much of an introvert; I experience the world as constituted by human interaction, I can't stand being truly alone, and any exhaustive systematic effort is completely useless to me unless shared. I gain no satisfaction from that which I do not sincerely believe to be universally valid.

my creativity is increasingly less about building internal landscapes in purpose of escaping from social reality, and more about expressing my values and beliefs in a subversive manner while finding common ground in aesthetics.

incoherent ramble over. seriously, though, can't believe I managed to convey those thoughts with anything resembling accuracy...

it has been fun and reassuring to read all of your tales.

 

[m.love]

Either I have grown more introverted, or I'm in an environment where most people are extroverted, and my introversion is just such a blunt contrast to the others. I haven't decided yet.


My experience has been I am more interactive and participate in small groups (2-5), but anything more than that, I feel overhwhelmed with something like stage fright. I have to get away...I do better in structured environments like groups where I have a clear role , whether it's lead or participant. I get confused when I'm not sure which one and just shut down. Weird thing is, I don't have any problems with speaking in front of a large-ish group , say, 10-20 people, when I am giving a presentation for example. But unstructured, social interaction with large groups is just not manageable for me.


I consistenly test very strongly introverted on MBTI.

 

[Monty]

Introversion is a problem for me. A problem that has increased steadily since my mid teens which has now become a serious hindrance on my life. When I was younger I enjoyed being around people. I liked to be outgoing and emphatic and even rather funny on occasions. I don't know what happened in my mid to late teens but these days I despise social interactions. Even going to the local shop to buy my weekly dose of nicotine has become a scenario fraught with paranoia and... hate? I loathe people. I loathe the way they look, the way they talk, the way they move and the way I perceive them to think. I spend most of my time in my room reading and writing, among other things. Basically anything that will keep me from leaving this little hermitage I have created for myself. In fact it has got worse ever since I moved in to a house, for financial reasons, shared by two other people, whom I ignore with a vehemence that they - have admitted - find incredibly disturbing. Eye contact has recently become a problem, as has any form of conversation. The logical side of my psyche, which I have championed for years, is telling me that this is a serious problem that needs to be remedied. But even the very thought of actively attempting to cure myself of this introversion fills me with palpable dread, and I honestly don't know what to do.

I have considered going to see a Doctor for a while now, to see if any of this is medical or just me being daft. Can anyone recommend a solution?

 

[mu is mu]

Thanks for all the replies.

Introversion is a problem for me. A problem that has increased steadily since my mid teens which has now become a serious hindrance on my life. When I was younger I enjoyed being around people. I liked to be outgoing and emphatic and even rather funny on occasions. I don't know what happened in my mid to late teens but these days I despise social interactions. Even going to the local shop to buy my weekly dose of nicotine has become a scenario fraught with paranoia and... hate? I loathe people. I loathe the way they look, the way they talk, the way they move and the way I perceive them to think. I spend most of my time in my room reading and writing, among other things. Basically anything that will keep me from leaving this little hermitage I have created for myself. In fact it has got worse ever since I moved in to a house, for financial reasons, shared by two other people, whom I ignore with a vehemence that they - have admitted - find incredibly disturbing. Eye contact has recently become a problem, as has any form of conversation. The logical side of my psyche, which I have championed for years, is telling me that this is a serious problem that needs to be remedied. But even the very thought of actively attempting to cure myself of this introversion fills me with palpable dread, and I honestly don't know what to do.

I have considered going to see a Doctor for a while now, to see if any of this is medical or just me being daft. Can anyone recommend a solution?

Whoa! Listen to the logical side of your psyche. Maybe you could go see a counselor or social worker to begin with. Whatever you do, don't listen to that voice deterring you from taking action. I think it'll take you some time to alter the current of your thought processes, but I do get a good impression that this is something that can be changed. After all, you're clearly aware that whatever condition you currently have is a problem, and the other good news is that you were able to reveal it to someone. That's a start.

Definitely feel free to keep posting in this forum (or thread) about this.

 

[Adamastor]

Being introverted was a huge problem for me in the past.

I guess I was too imature.
After all, being thrown in a extraverted dominated environment from a completely introverted one (parents and siblings quite the radical introverts too) at a young age had quite the unpleasant consequences for a child who always felt "didn't quite fit in".
(As a matter of fact, I've post on this forum a few years before, how it bothered not falling in love with someone before...)

Now, I've understood a couple of things (which I call having matured a little bit) and I am comfortable with my introverted self.
I had to learn how to deal with people. And, boy, I am such an awful learner >< How difficult it was/is! I am still so bad at dealing with people

But I got better to the point where I do not have to suffer the consequences of being inept at something which is expected at our society. Now, I can pretty much do it after putting some effort to it. Although it doesn't please me to do so. (I pretty much hate it)

Fortunately, my current environment (college/work) is not demanding on the usual social relationship thing. So I can afford disregarding most social ettiquette.