I have many things troubling me. I am 34 and not in grad school. I havnt been with a woman in 11 years because somewhere along the way I got heavily into Nietzsche and Paul bishop and jung and Goethe Schiller Marx marie louise von franz fritjoff schuon, herder mircia eliade and schelling. I remembered that I am an austrian citizen. Its easy to forget you are an austrian citizen especially when you are keenly fascinated by ifa obeah vodun and palo mayombe. I was african drumming and dancing. I was afro cuban drumming a bit. I know the most about ifa which is why i can say that i love ifa. Unsure if i will ever speak yoruba or travel in nigeria or live in nigeria. Sort of want to but i suck at life.
My professors and i alone have researched who is who. So for the summer i am reading stuart hall, paul gilroy, andrew apter, richard price, toyin falola, maurice bishop, maulana karenga, eric wolf, sidney hook, Todd Ramon ochoa, Jacob olupona, sylvia wynter, sidney mintz, and other academic books on black Atlantic sorcery, possession, earth mother cult in trinidad, palo, obeah.
Also have lots of books on European ideas. Egyptian religion. Gnosticism Sufism and Hindu studies.
Want to be a Caribbean folklorist. And learn from vodun people in haiti and obeah or ifa people in Trinidad
Huge African and Caribbean literature buff.
Crap gpa. My mantra is just do it and see where it leads. Looking for an outside perspective. Reading paul bishop right now.