How are you living with your mental illnesses?

[BurnedOut]

What are you suffering from?
Has therapy helped?
What started all this?
How are you coping today?

 

[ZenRaiden]

1} Nothing unusual, I can sort it out eventually
2} In a way yes, but not beyond what it can do... so as expected
3} Being born
4} Its hard to tell, but its not something you can measure.

 

[computerhxr]

It's gone and I miss it.

 

[Yellow]

I had GAD and a panic disorder when I was young. GAD at 19, which resolved around 20, and then a panic disorder around 21 that resolved the same year.

The GAD resolved with Citalopram and behavioral changes. I was able to get off the meds within a year. The panic disorder resolved with CBT and behavioral changes.

I experience minor relapses from time to time, which basically serve as reminders that I need to refocus on lifestyle stability

 

[Deleted member 1424]

Do sleep disorders count?
Not that I'm diagnosed, it's just obvious.

I'm so tired.

 

[Black Rose]

I am pretty sure by now I have OCD.

 

[Puffy]

I’ve never been diagnosed with anything so I suppose it depends on how we define mental illness.

I used to experience anxiety and panic episodes that made it difficult to function in certain aspects of my life so I consider that mental illness. I was anti-medication mostly as my parents have been on them most of their lives and I wanted to find a lasting solution.

I’ve been seeing a therapist for the last 3-4 years, that I resumed a short while ago after one of my close friends passed away. Talking therapy in Psychosynthesis school.

I’d say it’s helped. I no longer experience anxiety or panic episodes. I just get periods of feeling low from time to time, usually as a result of neglecting myself, that improve when I pay more attention to self-care. In retrospect maybe I was stubborn and chose to do it the hard way and that something like what Yellow said would’ve been sensible.

I’m unsure what started it. Not so great family environment. Difficulty fitting in with others and consequent isolation. Leaving religion and subsequent identity crises. Multiple suicides and loss of the most important people in my life.

Not been a fun ride, at the same time many have it worse and I’ve learned a lot and managed it well, so I consider myself pretty lucky and privileged overall.

 

[mikrokosmos]

I've suffered from GAD for at least six years (was diagnosed and prescribed generic Lexapro in 2016), but I've had worrisome anxieties/coping mechanisms/possible OCD since childhood. The past three years have been a steady escalation of panic disorder culminating in agoraphobia. Several months ago I dropped Lexapro and started a low dose of Zoloft, which unfortunately helped zip. Went to the doctor a few days ago and was taken off Zoloft, making me completely unmedicated now. Actually, I tapered the Zoloft off myself before going to the doctor, and during those 15-ish days (thankfully with no withdrawal symptoms), my mental health made a complete, utterly baffling 180.

To my amazement, the intense anxiety, agoraphobia, and all that other good stuff vanished in the course of... maybe three days? I can't really remember when I started feeling well again, but the change was tremendous. I haven't felt this well in years... and I can't explain it! My only guess is my genetically-inherited anxiety was being fueled by a vitamin deficiency. I began drinking Ensure because my appetite was so poor and the nausea/worry was overwhelming. After several days spent consuming mostly Ensure, my appetite came back and I started taking a multivitamin. I've been feeling incredible ever since.

And it's not just the anxiety being (for the most part) gone, but my self-destructive thought patterns are altered as well. I feel more confident and less hard on myself. I swear, it's the strangest thing. If this is a temporary "good" period, I'm going to take advantage of it as best I can -- start building good habits, coping mechanisms, taking care of myself, etc., so that when I'm met with the inevitable "bad" period I can handle it better and not sink so low.

 

[CuriousMonk]

I've never got myself diagnosed for a mental illness or disorders but I for sure have a handful of them. I suspect that I have the following:

Social Anxiety
Stress
Low self esteem
Maybe slight traces of autism
Maybe Narcissism
Maybe a slight trace of depression

Weird thing is that approaching a therapist is considered a taboo in India. So, there are a bunch of people who I know are outright insane hanging around in the society suffering themselves and creating trouble for others, but no body gets an idea that they're suffering. People either bear with them for a lifetime or just ostracize them here, period.

People don't go to the therapist here because it's a taboo!

Also, how I am dealing with my mental illness:

I took to and read about spirituality and religion for years. When it didn't work out completely, I abandoned them. Now, I simply observe my self, my actions, thoughts and behaviour, their cause and effect. It has done a great deal in liberating me from suffering.

However, in severe cases I think it's best to consult a professional therapist.

 

[CyranoTheLeprechaun]

I have a serious case of ADHD with a touch of Schizoid which will probably turn into schizophrenia soon enough. Oh yeah almost forgot, I've just been diagnosed as clinically depressed too. Not forgetting the time immemorial case of social anxiety.

But like I just smoke alot and drink alot of redbull as well. It's unhealthy but it works for me.

 

[CuriousMonk]

I have a serious case of ADHD with a touch of Schizoid which will probably turn into schizophrenia soon enough. Oh yeah almost forgot, I've just been diagnosed as clinically depressed too. Not forgetting the time immemorial case of social anxiety.

But like I just smoke alot and drink alot of redbull as well. It's unhealthy but it works for me.

You've to work out your own freedom. Never get demoralized. One day we'll see light ✌️. Just be patient, clear headed and gradually work it out.

 

[CyranoTheLeprechaun]

I have a serious case of ADHD with a touch of Schizoid which will probably turn into schizophrenia soon enough. Oh yeah almost forgot, I've just been diagnosed as clinically depressed too. Not forgetting the time immemorial case of social anxiety.

But like I just smoke alot and drink alot of redbull as well. It's unhealthy but it works for me.

You've to work out your own freedom. Never get demoralized. One day we'll see light ✌️. Just be patient, clear headed and gradually work it out.

Thanks dude.

 

[Black Rose]

I have this weird sensation where I try to grab myself projected from my right amygdala. I call it ocd because I don't know what else it is. I feel all contorted inside and outside. The doctor knows nothing about it.

 

[Daddy]

I was diagnosed with some form of Depression at one point. But after experimenting with supplements and herbs, I found out I had a magnesium deficiency that was causing me to be overly-tired with fibromyalgia. It's made me pretty skeptical of psychiatry, especially when they give you drugs that interact with your brain, but can't scientifically verify what's supposedly wrong with your brain to begin with. It's like being experimented on, especially with all the crazy side effects.

 

[BurnedOut]

GAD taking the lead was not surprising for me. However, I am surprised by the prevalence of Personality Disorders. Anybody here who has voted for that mind sharing your stories? Is it OCD?

 

[scorpiomover]

GAD taking the lead was not surprising for me. However, I am surprised by the prevalence of Personality Disorders. Anybody here who has voted for that mind sharing your stories? Is it OCD?

Anxiety doesn't do much by itself. It just means you're a scaredy-cat. It doesn't change what you do by itself.

If you still do things anyway, the anxiety doesn't affect you. If you don't do things because of GAD, then you're not doing much with your life, and are suffering from Depressive Disorder.

Likewise, if your GAD causes you to double-check things all the time, you've also got OCD. If not, then your anxiety doesn't change your life, and so has no real significance.

So normally, GAD doesn't make any difference and so no-one would be diagnosed with it, not unless it causes other problems that mean you have an additional disorder.

 

[BurnedOut]

So normally, GAD doesn't make any difference and so no-one would be diagnosed with it

I have been diagnosed. Depression was, unsurprisingly, comorbid for a long time.

 

[scorpiomover]

So normally, GAD doesn't make any difference and so no-one would be diagnosed with it

I have been diagnosed. Depression was, unsurprisingly, comorbid for a long time.

So you were diagnosed with GAD AND depression?

That is the point, that you don't get GAD without any other consequences, and that if you do get GAD, it usually comes with something else, and usually GAD + Depression.

 

[BurnedOut]

@scorpiomover

Yeah, you may be right. I did not have anxiety as a child. It developed in my late teens. So I suppose depression was a good mom to her child of anxiety

 

[Daddy]

Has anyone tried Fukitol? I'm thinking it would work wonders for me.

 

[Geauvoir]

What are you suffering from?
Has therapy helped?
What started all this?
How are you coping today?

1. I have been diagnosed with anxiety
2. Well...I didn't go to therapy. I made do with meditation and self-hypnosis.
3. It was triggered by a period of massive change. I moved from my childhood home, stopped competing as an athlete, changed classes into a much more hostile one, and the biggest one - I started having severe chronic migraines. It could be a chicken and egg thing though. Was the anxiety caused by the migraines or were the migraines caused by the anxiety? Ans: both.
4. Today I occasionally feel it but I can manage it well.

 

[scorpiomover]

What are you suffering from?

GAD, depression, relationship avoidance.

Has therapy helped?

Somewhat. I don't feel as bad.

What started all this?

A messed-up childhood, and being given the impression that men are dangerous and we need to avoid relationships and doing things, unless we're sure that we won't harm any women or children or pollute anything or invent something that becomes used to make WMDs.

How are you coping today?

Still alive.

See people socially, at least once a week, but not every day.
I work, but part-time, and for minimum wage.
I'm not in a relationship, and haven't been in one for 8 years.

 

[kittyfranklin]

I suffer from general anxiety and depression most of the time, since I was a kid (also complex post traumatic stress disorder--CPTSD). Social anxiety too.

I have had bouts of relief from time to time throughout my life. And I definitely feel much worse in the morning and feel better and better throughout the day, relatively speaking.

I also struggle with codependency which is probably the main cause of my anxiety and depression, and my childhood is the cause of my codependency.

I have a theory that anxiety causes depression (at least I think that's the cycle for me most of the time). Anxiety is overactive, depression is tired. Overactivity in the brain/body/stress hormones being released causes inflammation. The tiredness and inflammation causes depression. I don't know why there is a feeling of hopelessness that comes with it though. It's like exhaustion but with the added awesomeness of an existential crisis. And then the lack of productivity just makes me sink even deeper into depression. So it takes a very long time to come out of it.

I have done therapy 3 times throughout my life. It was great as a venting session, but never really got any tools from that. I'm sure different therapists/type of therapy might have helped me more long term. Maybe things like EMDR, CBT, etc.

I happened upon PSTEC (a tapping thing). That helps me. I have done it only on like 2 or 3 things though because I keep forgetting about it. I actually have been in a hardcore Ti-Si loop the last few months and I just remembered PSTEC, so I'm going to do that on this situation. Mostly relational stuff/self-worth stuff.

After a particularly traumatic event 8 years ago, I joined 12 step programs that are relevant to me. I was given tools. Lots of them. I use them, and it helps. The more I use the tools of the program, the less anxiety and depression I have. But when I start to feel better, I get distracted from my program and self-care starts to fall to the wayside. Then the cycle begins all over again. I think I just get bored and want different routines and not to be responsible (to myself) all the time. I think it's that extraverted intuition in me. I can never stick to a good routine. There are too many things I feel I need to do, so there is really not enough time to do each self-care activity every day, or even every week sometimes.

I'm always trying to figure out the perfect formula, but with only 24 hours each day, I think the perfect formula is impossible. I think I could come up with a complex schedule, but I think it would be ridiculous and there would be something that would end up being neglected, I'm sure. I also think that being an INTP, I'm not aware of my feelings right away. I realized it takes me weeks or months to realize I am feeling a certain way, and by the time I realize it, it's too late to nip it in the bud. I'm way down in the hole and have to climb back out. I wish I could be more aware to catch things sooner and be more proactive when I start to slide just a tiny bit. Even with trying to stay aware, I still think there is always just too much to process.

 

[Puffy]

Sorry to hear about that kitty, sounds like a lot to be working through. I relate to what you mean on self-discipline and working out a good routine. I definitely notice the difference in the periods I'm too lethargic to do my routine. I can get a bit perfectionistic about optimising it as well.

With anxiety for me I've found it's a physiological thing to a certain extent. When I'm stressed out my breathing pattern becomes shallow and I start stiffening up. I'm rushing through things and the pace of thoughts speeds up so I can't focus on anything. This was my default state for so long I thought it was normal. A part of my daily routine is basically in slowing down my mind and staying grounded in my body.

For me I have to do a daily yoga routine with slow, belly breathing and remind myself to belly breathe when I can to keep my mind in an optimal place. I try to take a bath after work or sit with my feet in the river nearby as well as I find being in water helps. I'm accustomed to walking fast which also tends to speed up my thoughts and get me into my head. So I have to remind my self to walk slowly, 4 step inhale, 4 step exhale.

I think we all find out what works for ourselves and doubt there's a one size fits all solution. There's so many therapies out there though that I'm inclined towards thinking there's something out there for most people.

 

[kittyfranklin]

Sorry to hear about that kitty, sounds like a lot to be working through. I relate to what you mean on self-discipline and working out a good routine. I definitely notice the difference in the periods I'm too lethargic to do my routine. I can get a bit perfectionistic about optimising it as well.

With anxiety for me I've found it's a physiological thing to a certain extent. When I'm stressed out my breathing pattern becomes shallow and I start stiffening up. I'm rushing through things and the pace of thoughts speeds up so I can't focus on anything. This was my default state for so long I thought it was normal. A part of my daily routine is basically in slowing down my mind and staying grounded in my body.

For me I have to do a daily yoga routine with slow, belly breathing and remind myself to belly breathe when I can to keep my mind in an optimal place. I try to take a bath after work or sit with my feet in the river nearby as well as I find being in water helps. I'm accustomed to walking fast which also tends to speed up my thoughts and get me into my head. So I have to remind my self to walk slowly, 4 step inhale, 4 step exhale.

I think we all find out what works for ourselves and doubt there's a one size fits all solution. There's so many therapies out there though that I'm inclined towards thinking there's something out there for most people.

I relate to basically everything you said. Fast thinking, fast breathing, tightening of muscles, fast walking, etc. I didn't realize until I was like 30 that most people's minds aren't going a thousand miles a minute. Recovery has helped me and through that I have utilized tools like meditation. It is sticking to a good routine that I have trouble with, and like you said, being perfectionistic about an optimal routine. When something starts working, I usually only stick to it for awhile longer and then my routine will start to change because I don't feel I "need" it so much any more. Of course, I do, but I start to get "shiny object syndrome" where my priorities start to change, partially because I finally have the energy and motivation to get on top of other things in life that I was neglecting because of, first, depression, and second, self care.

The other day I stopped to meditate for 3 minutes every hour, simply focusing on my breathing. That was helpful, and kept me more in awareness all day. Of course I only stuck to it for one day, lol.

I did yoga a lot one year, almost every day. That was super helpful, especially since I have a lot of physical effects from the anxiety of my whole life, the tight muscles. I've been having back pain the last few years (I think mostly caused from tight muscles in my lower back), and the last few months some excruciating neck pain that doesn't even go away when I'm asleep, so I've been having bad nights of sleep because of that (and physical pain is also definitely a precursor to depression as well). I am a stomach sleeper for the most part, but when my back started hurting I couldn't sleep on my stomach anymore. So then I started sleeping on my sides more, but now my shoulders hurt from that. I have always had trouble sleeping on my back because I don't feel physically secure when I'm on my back. I almost feel like I'm falling backwards. Sleep is really important for overall physical and mental health. I have to spend a lot of time doing lame things like rolling around on a tennis ball to massage my back and that barely makes a dent in the tight muscles, but does provide some slight relief where it's not quite excruciating, but still too painful to sleep on my stomach.

Sorry for the rant.

 

[Puffy]

Sorry to hear about that kitty, sounds like a lot to be working through. I relate to what you mean on self-discipline and working out a good routine. I definitely notice the difference in the periods I'm too lethargic to do my routine. I can get a bit perfectionistic about optimising it as well.

With anxiety for me I've found it's a physiological thing to a certain extent. When I'm stressed out my breathing pattern becomes shallow and I start stiffening up. I'm rushing through things and the pace of thoughts speeds up so I can't focus on anything. This was my default state for so long I thought it was normal. A part of my daily routine is basically in slowing down my mind and staying grounded in my body.

For me I have to do a daily yoga routine with slow, belly breathing and remind myself to belly breathe when I can to keep my mind in an optimal place. I try to take a bath after work or sit with my feet in the river nearby as well as I find being in water helps. I'm accustomed to walking fast which also tends to speed up my thoughts and get me into my head. So I have to remind my self to walk slowly, 4 step inhale, 4 step exhale.

I think we all find out what works for ourselves and doubt there's a one size fits all solution. There's so many therapies out there though that I'm inclined towards thinking there's something out there for most people.

I relate to basically everything you said. Fast thinking, fast breathing, tightening of muscles, fast walking, etc. I didn't realize until I was like 30 that most people's minds aren't going a thousand miles a minute. Recovery has helped me and through that I have utilized tools like meditation. It is sticking to a good routine that I have trouble with, and like you said, being perfectionistic about an optimal routine. When something starts working, I usually only stick to it for awhile longer and then my routine will start to change because I don't feel I "need" it so much any more. Of course, I do, but I start to get "shiny object syndrome" where my priorities start to change, partially because I finally have the energy and motivation to get on top of other things in life that I was neglecting because of, first, depression, and second, self care.

The other day I stopped to meditate for 3 minutes every hour, simply focusing on my breathing. That was helpful, and kept me more in awareness all day. Of course I only stuck to it for one day, lol.

I did yoga a lot one year, almost every day. That was super helpful, especially since I have a lot of physical effects from the anxiety of my whole life, the tight muscles. I've been having back pain the last few years (I think mostly caused from tight muscles in my lower back), and the last few months some excruciating neck pain that doesn't even go away when I'm asleep, so I've been having bad nights of sleep because of that (and physical pain is also definitely a precursor to depression as well). I am a stomach sleeper for the most part, but when my back started hurting I couldn't sleep on my stomach anymore. So then I started sleeping on my sides more, but now my shoulders hurt from that. I have always had trouble sleeping on my back because I don't feel physically secure when I'm on my back. I almost feel like I'm falling backwards. Sleep is really important for overall physical and mental health. I have to spend a lot of time doing lame things like rolling around on a tennis ball to massage my back and that barely makes a dent in the tight muscles, but does provide some slight relief where it's not quite excruciating, but still too painful to sleep on my stomach.

Sorry for the rant.

No worries, it's no less a rant than my previous post!

I definitely found I learned some useful things from talking therapy. It reached a point where I could only afford to continue with talking or physical therapy so I went with the latter. I work with a physio-therapist every couple of weeks and we've been gradually adjusting my posture and breathing patterns. I'd say it helps, areas of sustained tension can release with ongoing effort and anxiety is less of a factor if you're more grounded as we're describing.

I'm not as familiar with depression. My issue in the past has been more with dissociation and feeling numb, which physiotherapy helps with as well in terms of connecting with the body and the emotions. In times I've felt depressed it's usually been as there's a strong emotion of sadness that I'm pushing down. Once I feel the sadness and it moves through me the depression usually gradually stops. I don't know very much about it as a long-term condition though.

 

[kittyfranklin]

Sorry to hear about that kitty, sounds like a lot to be working through. I relate to what you mean on self-discipline and working out a good routine. I definitely notice the difference in the periods I'm too lethargic to do my routine. I can get a bit perfectionistic about optimising it as well.

With anxiety for me I've found it's a physiological thing to a certain extent. When I'm stressed out my breathing pattern becomes shallow and I start stiffening up. I'm rushing through things and the pace of thoughts speeds up so I can't focus on anything. This was my default state for so long I thought it was normal. A part of my daily routine is basically in slowing down my mind and staying grounded in my body.

For me I have to do a daily yoga routine with slow, belly breathing and remind myself to belly breathe when I can to keep my mind in an optimal place. I try to take a bath after work or sit with my feet in the river nearby as well as I find being in water helps. I'm accustomed to walking fast which also tends to speed up my thoughts and get me into my head. So I have to remind my self to walk slowly, 4 step inhale, 4 step exhale.

I think we all find out what works for ourselves and doubt there's a one size fits all solution. There's so many therapies out there though that I'm inclined towards thinking there's something out there for most people.

I relate to basically everything you said. Fast thinking, fast breathing, tightening of muscles, fast walking, etc. I didn't realize until I was like 30 that most people's minds aren't going a thousand miles a minute. Recovery has helped me and through that I have utilized tools like meditation. It is sticking to a good routine that I have trouble with, and like you said, being perfectionistic about an optimal routine. When something starts working, I usually only stick to it for awhile longer and then my routine will start to change because I don't feel I "need" it so much any more. Of course, I do, but I start to get "shiny object syndrome" where my priorities start to change, partially because I finally have the energy and motivation to get on top of other things in life that I was neglecting because of, first, depression, and second, self care.

The other day I stopped to meditate for 3 minutes every hour, simply focusing on my breathing. That was helpful, and kept me more in awareness all day. Of course I only stuck to it for one day, lol.

I did yoga a lot one year, almost every day. That was super helpful, especially since I have a lot of physical effects from the anxiety of my whole life, the tight muscles. I've been having back pain the last few years (I think mostly caused from tight muscles in my lower back), and the last few months some excruciating neck pain that doesn't even go away when I'm asleep, so I've been having bad nights of sleep because of that (and physical pain is also definitely a precursor to depression as well). I am a stomach sleeper for the most part, but when my back started hurting I couldn't sleep on my stomach anymore. So then I started sleeping on my sides more, but now my shoulders hurt from that. I have always had trouble sleeping on my back because I don't feel physically secure when I'm on my back. I almost feel like I'm falling backwards. Sleep is really important for overall physical and mental health. I have to spend a lot of time doing lame things like rolling around on a tennis ball to massage my back and that barely makes a dent in the tight muscles, but does provide some slight relief where it's not quite excruciating, but still too painful to sleep on my stomach.

Sorry for the rant.

No worries, it's no less a rant than my previous post!

I definitely found I learned some useful things from talking therapy. It reached a point where I could only afford to continue with talking or physical therapy so I went with the latter. I work with a physio-therapist every couple of weeks and we've been gradually adjusting my posture and breathing patterns. I'd say it helps, areas of sustained tension can release with ongoing effort and anxiety is less of a factor if you're more grounded as we're describing.

I'm not as familiar with depression. My issue in the past has been more with dissociation and feeling numb, which physiotherapy helps with as well in terms of connecting with the body and the emotions. In times I've felt depressed it's usually been as there's a strong emotion of sadness that I'm pushing down. Once I feel the sadness and it moves through me the depression usually gradually stops. I don't know very much about it as a long-term condition though.

Yeah, depression just may be unresolved issues/sadness, and I also link it to a lack of self-worth. I think there are many variables, and different people may have depression for different reasons. And it is usually not just one thing causing it, which is probably the reason it is hard to solve for some people. I do think it is helpful to work through something, rather than push it away.

 

[kittyfranklin]

I realized I would like to add that I take supplements for various mental health issues.

GABA for anxiety. It mostly takes away the physical symptoms of anxiety for me. I never knew what it was like to not feel that way before taking GABA. It does not work on everyone. Some say GABA does not pass the blood brain barrier. I guess that would mean I have what is called a "leaky brain". Which is a whole other issue in and of itself.

L-phenylalanine for frustration. It is a precursor for dopamine. Low dopamine is related to frustration. I tried L-tyrosine for this exact same reason, but that one did not work.

Lithium orotate (the supplement, not the prescription). This helped me with depression. After starting taking lithium orotate, I had my happiest care-free year ever. It has since seemed to recalibrate. I'm not sure exactly what it is but most things seem to lose their effectiveness over time. Three years after starting taking lithium I went into a period of paranoia, which had never happened before, so I knew something was wrong. I stopped taking it for awhile after my husband mentioned it could be the lithium. I started taking it again at 3/4 the amount I was originally taking and haven't had any problems since. I would say it would be good to get lithium levels tested regularly.

I also just started taking Reishi mushroom and that seems to have lifted my mood, energy and motivation. I also happened upon Lion's Mane mushroom which I just started taking today. It is known to repair neurological damage, among other things. Both of these mushrooms have anti-inflammatory effects, which as I stated before could be a cause of depression.

I am starting to feel a bit more like a normal person this week, which is wonderful. I have motivation and I actually feel like doing things and getting things done and not in a paralyzed funk. Depression and anxiety is complex and it seems it is ever changing. A lot of things can affect our mental health. Obviously events, but also just our overall health and wellness, patterns of thinking, etc.

I think if I could be really organized about it, I would like to take breaks from every supplement regularly so that I can get the effect from them again. I think the last week I forgot to add L-phenylalanine and GABA to my 7-day pill organizer. Yesterday was the first day I started taking those again and last night I felt super relaxed and carefree before going to bed. My problem is that usually I forget things and they fall to the wayside until years later I look to see what's in this box and realize it is a bunch of supplements, some of which helped me that I stopped taking for whatever reason.

Vitamins and minerals help too. If you are someone who is fine with going to the doctor, I would highly suggest getting all levels checked. I have anxiety about going to the doctor (of course), so I simply experiment on myself.

 

[kittyfranklin]

Update:

Jesus took away a depression demon from me on August 18, 2022. It is a long story, but I came across old posts and I needed to add that update. If anyone is interested in hearing more, I will explain what happened. I have not been depressed since. I have also been freed of other demons since as well. I am not talking about metaphorical demons. I'm talking about literal demons in the spiritual realm.

 

[Old Things]

Update:

Jesus took away a depression demon from me on August 18, 2022. It is a long story, but I came across old posts and I needed to add that update. If anyone is interested in hearing more, I will explain what happened. I have not been depressed since. I have also been freed of other demons since as well. I am not talking about metaphorical demons. I'm talking about literal demons in the spiritual realm.

Send me a PM. Let's talk.

 

[peopestillsuck]

like this:

 

[Eben Yblod]

What are you suffering from?
Has therapy helped?
What started all this?
How are you coping today?

Clinical depression .
Zero medication because of issues with the tablets

 

[kittyfranklin]

Send me a PM. Let's talk.

Hey Old Things, I went to your profile, but I don't see how to PM. I don't spend a lot of time on these forum things. I'm not sure if I'm just not able to PM you...

 

[birdsnestfern]

Anyone that wants to, try this light language, its amazingly healing. At about 27 minutes in it starts with breath of fire, then she downloads arcturian light language into you, and it literally makes you tingle with energy.
I can have seasonal affective disorder, hormonal imbalances, some anxiety, especially social anxiety, but I don't take anything except supplements on occasion if its bad, such as ashwaganda, tulsi holy basil extract, or vitamin B complex. Those seem to help.

 

[Black Rose]

Anyone that wants to, try this light language, its amazingly healing.

I have a one-month-old puppy that has lots and lots of tension inside it. If I rub it in certain spots it relaxes but in others, it starts biting me. If I massage it in the medium tension spots and let it bite down on my palm then I can get rid of its tension. Most tension is in the back, neck, and front arms. I move both of its arms until it relaxes. I do not move fast because it will jerk away and bite. It is important to rub it in two spots at the same time. the puppy really needs to bite a lot so I let it bite my fingers (not hard) to relieve some stress. It is very much like a cat. Going to its most relaxed spot and moving causes it to bite less. it is all about grounding the medium tense spot with the most tense in a balanced way. After that, I have to hold it like a baby and cuddle it. look it in the eyes and give it treats. It needs to shake it out. pets like to be petted and played with. The spots where it relaxes changes all the time so I have to move fast.

"Reiki"
"channeling"
"Light language"

I am practicing tai chi. I relax and stretch my body to become limber. start with the tension areas first. then I move my body that feels the most natural well being in control and in the body. I have not relaxed my body and mind to do the above three but I believe that Jesus was highly advanced in this way. Healing by touch. Following the energy in his body and others.

 

[Black Rose]

@birdsnestfern

When I held my hand against the puppet's heart I discovered she has a weak throat chakra. That is why she bites so much.

 

[birdsnestfern]

Ah, also try a light small circular motion with your fingers, as if you are drawing a mini tornado motion clockwise on different areas that are tense. Also on the whole belly. Helps release tension in muscles.

And another is to try to imagine you are fluffing the skin, as if you are fluffing light soft pink clouds.
Repeat out loud, What could be lighter? What could be Freer? Soft pink healing clouds, fluff, fluff the skin and muscles up, just barely touching them, and imagine the body being held in those fluffy pink healing imaginings.

Another is to imagine your mind is now so light and free, ie, what could be lighter, what could be freer? Now try being the cartoon version of Jimmy Cagney when he says 'You Dirty Rat' (playful, not mean) and in the four syllables you say it, do a light shake holding just one toe at a time or one finger. You pick up one toe lightly, then shake it in the rhythm of 'you dirty rat' then let it drop. Its light and freeing and teaches a body to let go of tension, as they can anticipate the count of four and the release after, they know the rhythm of it now and let go.

 

[BurnedOut]

the puppy really needs to bite a lot so I let it bite my fingers (not hard) to relieve some stress.

That's a recipe for future trouble. The pup is teething. Don't entertain it biting you one bit and get some chewy stuff for it instead

 

[Old Things]

the puppy really needs to bite a lot so I let it bite my fingers (not hard) to relieve some stress.

That's a recipe for future trouble. The pup is teething. Don't entertain it biting you one bit and get some chewy stuff for it instead

I agree with this 100%.

 

[Black Rose]

getting outside the house has made me rather paranoid.

and my internet activity has not helped that.

I have no cereal or milk - the social worker has been telling me what to buy.

so I need to settle down or something - it is way too hot.

people have been fighting all around me and I ran out of cranberry juice.

on Thursday I get $10 and on Friday my food stamps renew.

 

[sushi]

i think the only way to cure mental illness is either mind memory wipe in a clean state, which can be abused by gov.

the other option is build a secondary brain.

 

[Black Rose]

i think the only way to cure mental illness is either mind memory wipe in a clean state, which can be abused by gov.

the other option is build a secondary brain.

The cause is instability. To reestablish connection is the aim.

You cannot cure homelessness but get rid of homeless people. you need to build houses instead. The mentally ill need an environment that helps, not one that disables them. The first thing to do is to get the right environment in place. Clean water, clean food. And the people in place that can be trusted.

 

[birdsnestfern]

Ok, hope all is well.

 

[Black Rose]

I am fine, I have enough to last a week which is all I need.

What is not fine is my delusions came back.

I had another rabbit hole moment. supper paranoid. had to delete my search history. 22,000 over 8 years. but that did restore the system. Over that time many people experienced the same development. I am sure that people were very scared like me because of the "algorithm". Several times the internet crashed. even though the modem light was on? went into the operating system to get updates.

several times the computer ran faster and several times it ran slower. The advertisements were weird.

Just really depressed right now because I cannot code. and I do not know what to do. feel useless. wasted my life. like how I was in 2007.

if I was not slow and could remember things maybe I could. all I have are ideas.

 

[birdsnestfern]

Maybe that just means you know there is something else you should be doing, but you haven't figured out what yet.
Ask without hesitation if you need something. Peace & Understanding.

 

[sushi]

getting outside the house has made me rather paranoid.

and my internet activity has not helped that.

I have no cereal or milk - the social worker has been telling me what to buy.

so I need to settle down or something - it is way too hot.

people have been fighting all around me and I ran out of cranberry juice.

on Thursday I get $10 and on Friday my food stamps renew.

i think you have good intelligence, just go out and exercise more.

handicapp people really need an AI helper and assistant.

 

[birdsnestfern]

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[Creeping Death]

1. ADHD, Paranoid Schizophrenia, Antisocial Personality Disorder, Sexual Sadism Disorder.
2. Lol no
3. Nature and nurture
4. I like to promote and enable promiscuity, drug use and all kinds of inappropriate mischievous behavior.. as long as it's done responsibly.

 

[scorpiomover]

Improving.

 

[kittyfranklin]

1. ADHD, Paranoid Schizophrenia, Antisocial Personality Disorder, Sexual Sadism Disorder.
2. Lol no
3. Nature and nurture
4. I like to promote and enable promiscuity, drug use and all kinds of inappropriate mischievous behavior.. as long as it's done responsibly.

#4 is kind of contradictory lol