hello, INTP friends :)

[GweNdZ]

hello.

I am an INTP, 20 and a girl
anyway, I am currently studying a BA in Visual Arts focusing on Visual Communication Design ( I also have philosophy as a subject sometimes, but studying for tests is a great struggle for me as is for any test ever o.O). I am an aspiring illustrator. I mostly draw and daydream or surf the internet in my free time. I become easily addicted to series and emotionally involved in fictional worlds, because it's so much better than the real world, amirite? And I loooove old movies

I am no architect or engineer. though I used to be great at maths ( before I started sleeping in all my classes o.O) I am more of an artistic INTP...

I did my first MB-test in high school, I was probably like 16, I can't remember my score, but it wasn't INTP...I think I was INFP come to think of it. I found, though, that I grew to know myself a lot better than I knew myself then...I guess. I was never really a hyper emotional person. I kept friendships at a distance and I was a really late bloomer, as in I'm not even sure If I have bloomed yet o.O I mean if blooming means to want a romantic relationship then I probably haven't. But I rather much fangirl over fictional characters and focus on my interests, like I always have.

I have always been a proud individualist. I only became self conscious (as in conscious of how I am and appear to be, not un-confident) when I was being bullied at the age of 11. It was brutal, but I am partly glad for it, because I learned that I embraced my differences rather than shaming them. The year after my bully left my school I always seemed to become a target for someone to pick on me. weird. I started to just adopt the "screw you all, I'm gonna be different, deal with it. and if you can't, then screw you" mentality. At the end of high school only did I learn that my class mates acknowledged me for my confidence and individuality, which is quite nice I was also always known for laughing (randomly?), nobody really ever "got" my humor most of the time and most of the time I can't really explain what I found funny in the first place. still today...

<---- hehe, I like that one

 

[Dr. Freeman]

Welcome!

 

[Lot]

Welcome to the forum.

I can relate with falling in love with fictional worlds. I also get very caught up in the relationship of characters. Possibly living vicariously through them. I also was weird and didn't give a shit in high school. And people respected me for it as well. I think you'll enjoy your stay.

Now we dance

 

[MsAnthropy_Indefatigably]

Welcome! I'm also an INTP girl... woman...whatever...
There aren't as few of those here as according to statistics.... But I COMPLETELY understand everything you went through. I am very passive and reserved around people I don't know and the people that I DO know think i'm "weird"... so all through schooling, I just assumed they were right but didn't know why. (never remembered taking an MBTI test til maybe last year!)
I LOVE being me and I decided I will not change for anyone, no matter what (even my mother thought I was destined for Lesbian-hood because my interests in "girly" things and regular emotional displays of affection and the like were very limited. She's ISFJ, which explains that...)

I too have a tendency to be the one in a group that gets "picked on", for my odd choices in.... well anything... and not even odd, just outside the box... GOD FORBID someone like something that isn't in line with social norms!! (Why can't I really want to own a skunk as a pet??!)

Again, Welcome!

 

[DeadonDreaming]

I identify a lot with sleeping in school, but alas it didn't keep away from math. I have very little drawing ability; I think I peaked at age 4, with my rendition of cat exploding (in watercolors).

I don't think blooming has anything to do with relationships. I go into them confused, come out confused, like a wilted flower of confusion and weirdness.

 

[Solitaire U.]

Welcome, fellow emoticon abuser!

 

[Architect]

Maybe we're enemies. This should be straightened out.

 

[The Gopher]

I was about to follow Architects line of thinking but EMOTICONS! Friends! How can I turn this down!

but seriously welcome.

 

[pjoa09]

Damn, only used the profile name Engineer, "Engineer Drei" and 0 posts.

That is new.

emoticon overload?

I draw alright, it's my form of expressing time to time.

 

[GweNdZ]

thanks everyone. some interesting replies

 

[Etheri]

Friends? Well... Perhaps. Why not, I guess.

(When did I get good at making friends? Ohwell.)

 

[GweNdZ]

I ask myself that often enough o.O

 

[SMO]

Welcome!...emoticons....you know you are using an emoticon approximately every 40 words! That is just excessive.

 

[GweNdZ]

let me put this emoticon abuse in context: I found that I am maybe way too blunt and honest to people sometimes and that if I don't add some kind of emoticon they actually think I'm being arrogant or rude or an "emotionless bitch" ( which is never really my intention) o.O I found that people respond better to added smileys... hmm... I guess I don't need to do that here. And also some of these smileys are super cute!

 

[Silphiums]

1st, Welcome.

2nd, who cares if people think you're rude or an 'emotionless bitch'? What other people think of you is none of your business.

3rd, you're right, some of these smileys are super cute.

 

[Dr. Freeman]

What would people who call you that say if they see your smileys?

 

[MsAnthropy_Indefatigably]

Welcome!...emoticons....you know you are using an emoticon approximately every 40 words! That is just excessive.

I think it's a nervous reaction. I do that a lot when I have to write in a forum setting or status update. It's my way of saying, "see, in text, I appear to have emotions, but please don't ask me to express them out loud". It's the only way I show emotion that can be interpreted correctly.

 

[GweNdZ]

"if they say your smileys"
I assume you mean, see? :P let's just say they respond more open minded as opposed to taking immediate offence.

Silphiums, I guess you're right about that, but I try to avoid unnecessary petty conflict. But still, I shouldn't. I have my moments though, sometimes I'm all "I don't want someone to think I'm selfish and cold" and at other times (most times) I sort of take pride in my detached nature and embrace it.

whatMsANthropy said sounds quite accurate aswell

 

[Dr. Freeman]

"if they say your smileys"
I assume you mean, see? :P let's just say they respond more open minded as opposed to taking immediate offence.

Silphiums, I guess you're right about that, but I try to avoid unnecessary petty conflict. But still, I shouldn't. I have my moments though, sometimes I'm all "I don't want someone to think I'm selfish and cold" and at other times (most times) I sort of take pride in my detached nature and embrace it.

whatMsANthropy said sounds quite accurate aswell

I did. Spelling error corrected. When I first saw your post (looked at the whole of it without reading) I thought, "Oh no, another feeler." After I read your post I was no longer worried.

About what MsAnthropy said, I only really get nervous around people who I find interesting (In almost any sense of the word, the primary exception being those who I find psychologically interesting, or those who are fun to analyze).

 

[Silphiums]

Silphiums, I guess you're right about that, but I try to avoid unnecessary petty conflict. But still, I shouldn't. I have my moments though, sometimes I'm all "I don't want someone to think I'm selfish and cold" and at other times (most times) I sort of take pride in my detached nature and embrace it.

In my vast experience, (I can say that because I know from your original post that I'm vastly older than you [insert smiley] , petty conflict won't arise just because someone thinks you're selfish and cold. Neither will it arise if you're detached.

Neither will it NOT arise despite your best efforts to be nice or show emotion.

People who blame you for their emotions (i.e. passive aggressively insinuating that something you did or said offended them) are still too immature to waste energy on trying to find ways not to offend them.

I must stop - having flashbacks to my 20s... I'm just exhausted thinking about it.