Have you ever thought about writting a book or something simmiliar?

[Drvladivostok]

Assuming finance and time wasn't an issue, would you write a book? What would it be about? Of course you'd still need effort to write and research assuming you had some data to collect.

I've had an idea a few years back that I wanted to write a novel set in the 65' Indonesian Communist Genocide when somewhere between 500k to 1 million communists were killed, my maternal grandma witnessed this event and saw some gritty stuff, she described it as pure chaos, soldiers hauling entire vilages on trucks and shooting them down, national fanaticism, religious mobile death squad, all that fun stuff. She had a Chinese Strore-owning Family Neighbour that was targeted and nearly killed, but since my grandma's dad was an avid customer there he bassically assured the local millitary that they weren't communists, some other families weren't as lucky and got hauled by millitaty trucks and dissapear.

I think systematically interviewing her and re-writting the events on a format of a Novel would be pretty interesting, since an academic and non-fictional book on the event would be pretty boring on my part, I think a fictional take based on real-life eye-witness report would be something interesting.

I had this interest to show my family's side of history to the world, since this Genocide isn't well known, I wanna explore the reason how people could devolve to fanatical mindset and how they confront it.

 

[birdsnestfern]

oh my goodness, yes, it seems like you want to write that! It sounds important.


And, yes, I want to. But I have just everyday things to write about like it might be a romance novel, a childrens fantasy, a book for teenagers about self esteem, or simple things to know about the finance world, or maybe a how to class. How to sew, how to do a process at work, how to do therapeutic massage, something like that.

 

[EndogenousRebel]

Essentially you ask yourself "what is stopping me?". If you take out finance and time, then not a lot of things would be stopping you besides how you feel about what you are doing.

I have found that if you keep intellectualizing what you are doing, the raw emotion will remain because you're personal experience has imprinted something into your emotional responses to certain tasks. Like: I have started a bunch of things before, but I never finished those, so I will just be proving myself as someone who doesn't start what he finishes, therefore I shouldn't start at all.

Something like that for me. If there is no consequence for me doing something at the last minute or at all, it is a lot harder for me to do things. I can slowly condition myself to make certain habits rewarding, or I can convince myself that without doing the certain task, I will have lived a useless life or something.

Living on the edge is dangerous, and garnering control over yourself is monotonous. What is worse? Pick your poison/antidote and do something I guess.

Me personally, have always been a creative, but that doesn't really come in handy when it comes to being organized and getting large projects done. I need a "sugar daddy" to make that path as the least resistive I can or I need to painstakingly change my ways at the potential cost of my creativity.

I have yet to prove myself to anyone and have no desire to do so in the media landscape of today to be some ones creative on a leash. So I am doing things the hard way. Fml

 

[Black Rose]

I published a childrens book in 2014 based on my school project in 2005.

My publisher edited it so it was not as original as the one I made but it is available on Amazon and was introduced to the Smithsonian.

I thought about making a new book based on my blog but I do not know how to organize my ideas into a coherent format. Too many random ideas that I do not know how to make into one complete whole. But I could hire someone I bet and then work with them to get published.

 

[Drvladivostok]

oh my goodness, yes, it seems like you want to write that! It sounds important.

I want to but I have time and financial considerations .

Assuming I don't have those there's alot of Social and Political dis-incentives here exist to not be 'Communist Sympathizer'. And my family have strong Government ties so they discourage being a narrative dissident.

If I was really determined I suppose I could make the book a reality.

 

[Drvladivostok]

Something like that for me. If there is no consequence for me doing something at the last minute or at all, it is a lot harder for me to do things. I can slowly condition myself to make certain habits rewarding, or I can convince myself that without doing the certain task, I will have lived a useless life or something.

I have the same affliction. If there's no apparent negative consequance or deadline for me to do something I sort of subconstiously put a mental wall to continously idle or delay on those tasks.

The mental process that I use to mitigate this is to convince myself that if I don't have a certain routine, or don't grow my ability or carrier I'm a useless terrible human being. I also was able to utilize the feeling of being left out and slight jealousy to compare myself to other's sucess and have the motivation to not be a potato couch.

I need a "sugar daddy" to make that path as the least resistive I can or I need to painstakingly change my ways at the potential cost of my creativity.

Same, I have always have a hard time to make internal motivation.

 

[onesteptwostep]

That sounds like a great idea. I think you have the political winds at your back, since the Indonesian president did acknowledge publically about the massacres.

I personally want to write a history about Korea, for the younger generation. I feel like the younger generation has no perspective on how much the elderly went through in the country, and a lot of the Korean diaspora are woefully misinformed about the rise of South Korea and its societal and cultural development.

 

[EndogenousRebel]

I do think that Jordan Peterson has a good approach to this. (one of my friends cracked me up when he said: why does it go back to this guy all the time?)

Create a future scenario where your life is the ideal you have in your head, and setup an alternative the is less ideal. You obviously want to pick the more ideal choice (right?). That way you are running away from something in a sense.

The problem with me, and probably you, is that culture has done a bad job at assigning what we should value. Also, subjectivity makes this an issue when communicating with each other in general because we all place emphasis on different things.

Again you can only do so much before you have to just sit down and regulate the feeling of unease you have by beginning. Once you build momentum on something is when you make a lot of progress, stopping is a death hold because the resistance to starting probably becomes greater the more altruistic your intentions have to become. I think a lot of this comes down to skill of managing this variables in multiple situations.

You have to want it, I agree.

 

[Old Things]

Yes, I plan to self-publish a book I am in the process of editing. Currently, I have a bit over 50,000 words. Editing is a pain in the butt, and I hate doing it so I am doing it slowly.

My book is basically about my faith as someone who has a psychotic mental illness. The primary topic covered is God's sovereignty and free will, of course, from a Christian perspective.