Have you ever realized a negative pattern in yourself?

[Thales]

Well, have you? I definitely have had such revelatory thoughts, but to be frank I haven't done much when I've had these realizations. I know I need to change my behavior to achieve success in a variety of areas. Any thoughts in general?

 

[nanook]

there was a time when i thought i was a hero, because i am pretty immune to a disease called society. that was before i found out about a major bug:
i have a personality. disorder. actually two.
i have done drugs, to get over myself. to some degree it works.
but the shit is resilient and keeps bouncing back into existence.

i intended to dive into systematic shadow-work for years now, but i still lack the 'systematic work' skill. it's not my fault. it's my state of consciousness. drugs are one attempt to change that. (referring to entheogens)

 

[Puffy]

No. I'm fantastic.

(;

 

[Lot]

I some times go into paranoia fits, where I start thinking that all the authority figures around me a plotting to get me some how. I even have gotten to the point where I though room mates of mine wanted to trap me in an evil web where they can use me to make them self feel better or use me as a trapped resource. This usually spurs from me getting angry at something they say or something some one said they said. I get really caught up in my Ti and and I'm to scared from the paranoia to go and ask for out side advice. So until I finally talk to some one about my thought then I can't get over my fits. On the other side I have gotten better at nipping it before it goes any where. The last fit only lasted 3 days, where as the one before that was almost 2 months on and off of switching blame between two people. So I would say this is a negative pattern.

I also find myself getting into depression. I'll feel good about myself then usually it's a girl I'm interested in that I make an ass of myself around, and then I kick myself around for it. I project my thoughts about myself onto the girl, then I start to think that all girls feel that way about me. Then I start to feel lonely and think I'll never get to have a family. The next step is a festival of me beating myself up on all my perceived negative qualities. Just like the paranoia I won't leave my room unless for work, or to keep the illusion that I'm alright. Eventually I end up seeing what I'm doing to myself and call my counselor or a friend that I trust and talk the issue out until I finally get to the root of the problem.

 

[brieze]

A few. I notice sometimes that people I strongly dislike can mirror some patterns or traits in myself that I'm not down with. Not always the case though. Sometimes I just don't like people because they suck

Like automatically writing off bible thumpers. I have to catch myself and remember that religion doesn't always define someone, and that they might not be so different from me.

 

[AlisaD]

No. I'm fantastic.

(;

You too? I thought I was the only one.
We can sing this as our anthem:

Spoiler

Gogol Bordello - God-Like (with lyrics) - YouTube

 

[elusivepeanut]

The negative pattern in myself is over-thinking and not acting. Indecisiveness. Procrastination.

It's all about balance. We have some great strengths with INTP but they often result in weakness if overused. We're fortunate to be learners who can identify the disconnects and develop systems to avoid failure.

I had a breakthrough coach help me identify last year that one of my biggest strengths is problem solving. However, it's often a weakness because I end up wasting time improving/fixing things that have a low return on the investment of energy... like spending 5 minutes on my digital camera at the beach making sure to turn off all the annoying button beeps and shutter sounds. I should be enjoying the beach, not being a dork. :-/

 

[EyeSeeCold]

The negative pattern in myself is over-thinking and not acting. Indecisiveness. Procrastination.

It's all about balance. We have some great strengths with INTP but they often result in weakness if overused. We're fortunate to be learners who can identify the disconnects and develop systems to avoid failure.

I had a breakthrough coach help me identify last year that one of my biggest strengths is problem solving. However, it's often a weakness because I end up wasting time improving/fixing things that have a low return on the investment of energy... like spending 5 minutes on my digital camera at the beach making sure to turn off all the annoying button beeps and shutter sounds. I should be enjoying the beach, not being a dork. :-/

haha lol

I know what you mean about spending concentrated energy on low returns. I tend to go out of my way to fix/improve things that people don't really care about or are not of much relative importance.

I know I have some other patterns, but besides the one I just elaborated on, there's also the depressive cycle. Every time I think I'm out, I fall right back in.

 

[Thales]

School has always been a challenge for me, I've always coasted by, excelled in some cases, but I can't help thinking I have an undiagnosed learning disability, besides ADHD.

 

[SkyWalker]

there was a time when i thought i was a hero, because i am pretty immune to a disease called society. that was before i found out about a major bug:
i have a personality. disorder. actually two.
i have done drugs, to get over myself. to some degree it works.
but the shit is resilient and keeps bouncing back into existence.

i intended to dive into systematic shadow-work for years now, but i still lack the 'systematic work' skill. it's not my fault. it's my state of consciousness. drugs are one attempt to change that. (referring to entheogens)

entheogens is psychedelics like ayahuasca right?

what insights does this give you? i am interested in the subject, never tried it though

 

[Artsu Tharaz]

School has always been a challenge for me, I've always coasted by, excelled in some cases, but I can't help thinking I have an undiagnosed learning disability, besides ADHD.

Learning is a habit.

If you're the type who just coasts by without putting in any effort, then you won't ever learn how to do school-work by putting in effort. Many so-called mental disorders are simply due to not having picked up a particular habit which is important and most people do pick up, e.g. how to socialise effectively, how to focus, etc.

 

[warryer]

Yea every now and then I will get into a negativity funk. Everything seems horrible and I criticize everything. I hate it.

I have been making progress. Sometimes I can step back and realize what is happening "Oh, I'm in this place again." I try to take the focus from inside to outside by immersing myself in something. My negative thoughts usually die off on their own without me feeding it.

One thing I noticed that sets this off is feeling like I'm not doing what I'm "supposed" to be doing. ie Social Pressure. This is remedied by being comfortable with making decisions.

 

[Glordag]

Lately my vice has been emotional attachment to people at an inappropriate juncture. I'm at a point in my life where I really value those 1on1 close, intimate relationships with people. Unfortunately, people that I can connect with on that level seem to be far and few between. As a result, whenever I begin to connect with someone, I grow sort of attached and needy. Sometimes this is ok, but I think it happens with me way too early, and when I read back on things I write to said person in this situation, it always sounds kinda creepy or ridiculous lol.

Something like...

I'm so glad I'm getting to know you. You mean so much to me right now, and I needed someone like you in my life. You really know how to make me smile.

That goes on for like 3 paragraphs or something, and then I'll follow up with a poem or something retarded. It's pretty awful. Stupid underdeveloped Fe!

 

[Jelly Rev]

, I grow sort of attached and needy. Sometimes this is ok, but I think it happens with me way too early, and when I read back on things I write to said person in this situation, it always sounds kinda creepy or ridiculous lol.

Something like...


Quote:
I'm so glad I'm getting to know you. You mean so much to me right now, and I needed someone like you in my life. You really know how to make me smile.
That goes on for like 3 paragraphs or something, and then I'll follow up with a poem or something retarded. It's pretty awful. Stupid underdeveloped Fe!

ha yes its a hard thing to control but its important to find the e-brake. if I go into my dreamy/abstract cycle(detatched cycle) and one of those dreamers show up in my life to talk to like an infp it can get bad.
its not a cycle like most people talk about as in depressive cycle also known as cyclomythia but more like schizoid cycle which goes from in reality to extremely internal, as if the external world is irrelevant.
when a dreamer shows up in this schizoid cycle normal it makes it even worse, by letting my super abstractness come out

 

[Glordag]

ha yes its a hard thing to control but its important to find the e-brake. if I go into my dreamy/abstract cycle(detatched cycle) and one of those dreamers show up in my life to talk to like an infp it can get bad.
its not a cycle like most people talk about as in depressive cycle also known as cyclomythia but more like schizoid cycle which goes from in reality to extremely internal, as if the external world is irrelevant.
when a dreamer shows up in this schizoid cycle normal it makes it even worse, by letting my super abstractness come out

Yes, agreed completely. In fact, my most recent ordeal was with an INFP. On the plus side, it was a great learning experience all around. Emotional pain for knowledge gained. I'll take that as a win .

 

[eifebiani]

I tend to try to socialise for a period then when I have burned all my energy I withdraw from society again going into a self isolation pattern until I get my energy back and then the show starts over again, it's been like that practically all my life!

 

[Dapper Dan]

My sleep cycle. It's currently 4:22am where I am.

I mention this one in particular because it manages to amplify some of my other problems, like trying to find a job.

 

[Fallenman]

Complacency. At first learning the skill was helpful, because it helped me get through stressful situations in which plan A through C went to shit and I had nothing left but to hold onto my ass until that time i could fully realize that the world was still moving forward.

Now a days though, complacency is causing me to just skip the plans and just go straight to holding onto my ass, at a time where implementation is most crucial. I'm standing still at a time i need to be moving forward the most, and its driving me towards depression .