intp_xp
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Due to "right-sizing" a year back, I volunteered to take on some duties that, for most of my career, was hoping I would never get but with natural progression, a foregone conclusion. It is more project manager oriented but with developers in another department that I have no direct control over. I was already managing a team of my own developers which I could give or take also.
I'd like to go back and focus more on programming but I'm worried it would just blow my manager's mind if I asked to relinquish those duties. She is a just do it and do whatever makes your boss happy to get ahead type. I am an ask questions to really understand the problem and come up with a competent solution type and I just need enough money to get by. I don't know if it's just me but I truly want to help people and make things better. It seems some other people just want to get the problem off their shoulder as soon as possible with a shoot from the hip solution. So either way, I still can't get away from that.
I have been looking for another spot in the company but nothing interesting has showed up yet but I may just go for anything soon. Of course, there is always the anxiety of interviewing. Also, the grass isn't always greener and I could end up worse off.
I originally thought I was done programming and wanted to move up but I am starting to wonder if my loss of interest in everything started when I started moving up. I really should take notes as my past seems mostly a blur of high level disjointed points. The best thing was probably joining these forums so I can go back and see what the hell I was thinking from one day to the next. I have thought of keeping a journal many times but it has remained just that.
I'd like to go back and focus more on programming but I'm worried it would just blow my manager's mind if I asked to relinquish those duties. She is a just do it and do whatever makes your boss happy to get ahead type. I am an ask questions to really understand the problem and come up with a competent solution type and I just need enough money to get by. I don't know if it's just me but I truly want to help people and make things better. It seems some other people just want to get the problem off their shoulder as soon as possible with a shoot from the hip solution. So either way, I still can't get away from that.
I have been looking for another spot in the company but nothing interesting has showed up yet but I may just go for anything soon. Of course, there is always the anxiety of interviewing. Also, the grass isn't always greener and I could end up worse off.
I originally thought I was done programming and wanted to move up but I am starting to wonder if my loss of interest in everything started when I started moving up. I really should take notes as my past seems mostly a blur of high level disjointed points. The best thing was probably joining these forums so I can go back and see what the hell I was thinking from one day to the next. I have thought of keeping a journal many times but it has remained just that.