Feeling Down

[Black Rose]

Usually, people hang out with people like themselves.

Being lower class is hard.

No one cares about anything.

They always do things the wrong way.

They always get taken advantage of or take advantage of others.

 

[SteppeWanderer]

I’ve really struggled with this a lot, people who have lower class backgrounds typically have a lot of problems that I don’t really have the patience for anymore, but then I don’t know if simply attempting to associate with those from different backgrounds is really any better, because it feels like a world apart to me and I don’t expect them to be very understanding.

 

[ZenRaiden]

What do you exactly expect of people?

 

[birdsnestfern]

Yes, but its nobodys fault, its part of societys doing. Don't take it personally, see that the system causes it, not you.

 

[Black Rose]

I cannot be responsible for other people's mistakes and stupidity anymore.

 

[EndogenousRebel]

I find that the more emotionally damaged someone is, the more they have to oursource their emotional regulation.

A coping strategy is better than none, so can't really blame you for it, but with people in my life, I feel bad enableing them by telling them how to feel. I'm not a cop nor a gaslighter. I just pose questions they should already be asking themselves and see how their thought process is flawed.

This process is way slower over text. You need someone in your life who understands this, but most people don't like playing the training wheels on your tricycle.

 

[Black Rose]

You need someone in your life who understands this

That takes money

government programs do not support this for certain groups without money

A coping strategy is better than none

I spend all my time on the internet

for 15 years

because most of life is boring

I do not have anything that matters to me that other people care about as I do

if they cared I would not have been put in the group home or be on welfare

my sister and brother used drugs, my mom likes tv

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I am not sure if government medications are the solution to psychological damage and poor relationships.

 

[ZenRaiden]

Can you think of any changes in life that would benefit you?

 

[Black Rose]

I helped the old lady fix her bed

does not help with the emotional blunting I have

that was a good way to stay away from my problems in the past

 

[Black Rose]

emotional blunting helps me get away from other peoples emotions

 

[Cognisant]

Having human connections is important but I think it's necessary to be highly selective, there are very few healthy minded people these days.

 

[ZenRaiden]

I spend all my time on the internet

for 15 years

Do you think there is something about your internet life, like reducing few hours on line and replace it with something more fun?
Maybe just something that is outside of internet for sake of it being something more real?

 

[birdsnestfern]

See if there are nearby fitness clubs offering free trials. Find the good fitness clubs - with treadmills or bikes or step stairs or classes. The hard exersize would be good for releasing some frustrations.

 

[EndogenousRebel]

The proposed solutions will only work if you have the bare minimum capability to manage your time. Hell, most solutions will.

Can you tell yourself "I will do X at 12PM" and actually do it?

 

[Black Rose]

I think it is the post-shock of realizing I did not take care of my house that well.

I had it 10 years and no one cared about how it was even though I helped them.

No one cares about me in my life (except some social workers) because they all have mental/cognitive deficiencies. They barely take care of themselves like I do.

I never left my house because every time I did bad things happened.

And I had nowhere to go, I don't party and I did not go to school,

I do not drive a car,

I am 36 yo now so I am not stupid anymore like at age 26 -

My plans are to fix my house and go back to school.

But my roommate needs to leave first.

I cannot do things when stuff is in the way all the time.

 

[EndogenousRebel]

As someone who is 26 now, I can tell you I deeply regret not getting things together and depending on other people's availability and motivation in my late teens to mid twenties. So much time wasted with my head up my own ass. So, I can't imagine the awkwardness and distress you feel not having your shit together.

What you start doing now, will be what you will be doing in 10-20 years from now is the perspective I've taken. What do you want to do right now for that period of time. Life is a marathon.

That being said a couple mid-life crisis happen to everyone in life. Not harm or shame in it. I quit my comfortable job to pursue things I'm passionate it. I might suffer more for it, but the alternative was hell.

 

[birdsnestfern]

One goal you could set is to give away or sell or toss some of the stuff you don’t need. One thing each week just slowly find ways to downsize.

Bad things happened safety wise?

if you were sick the low energy can be your body is depleted after being sick. usually after a few weeks energy should return. try to eat fresh veggies and salad and soup.

 

[Black Rose]

I do not have that great a social awareness.

That is why people say I am autistic.

But I do not know?

It could be depression and no life purpose.

In 7th grade, I got bullied and decided not to interact with people anymore.

It was safer to just read books and do my homework.

But after highschool they put me in a group home.

I tried to go to the university when in the group home but dropped out from the pressure. I had a scholarship for 4 years. But I do not know how to do essays and no one told me that the SAT was important. Most of the time in class they just gave us worksheets and not real books explaining what math actually is. My mom never told me to do schoolwork, she did not care about stuff like that. She let me and my brother and sister do what we wanted to do. I was in "gifted" classes but I think my mom did not care because she is a potato (IQ 80). I was in foster care for the first two years of high school because I fought with my brother before then (in middle school) and my mom called the police too many times.

At the end of high school, I had a project I never finished. I try to think about how to finish it all the time. I am not sure I can. School would help but that is just a means to an end. To get money to higher people to do my project. I do not see anything else that is important.