Extremely confused lately

[Nofriends]

In the past 4-5 months it has felt as though my reality is all that exists, I keep finding subtle and obvious patterns which lead me to believe this, sometimes I worry that by inquiring to deeply into this thought will lead to my exposure to a true, non-hallucinatory reality, I worry that I am a character in a story, and if I embroil myself in such thoughts the story will no longer be entertaining... and ofc exposure



it feels like the content I collectively receive from this world is used to play with my experiences/understandings/beliefs, etc.

this existence is so cruel, but okay.

 

[Black Rose]

same here
it began last summer
i think i am in a simulation
things have happened that can only be explained,
by the supernatural or by the virtual reality
i know psychic people exist, i know they read my thoughts
it seems the friends i have cannot give me the advice i need
they are not shallow, i just have more experience in metaphysics and A.I.
I understand how the computer works mostly
I have come to accept that this has happened to many people
again I know that it has happened, the apocalypse
i was going to make a thread titled "My Apocalypse"
the only way to change a corrupt world is to be made clean
impures thoughts will not give you peace
letting go is the difficult part,
because then you must admit you are no good
but really you are good, you just think you are bad
you are not bad, you feel bad that you did bad things
inside you don't want to do bad things
that is the only way to make your thoughts pure
don't put the blame on others,
only be yourself the way everyone should be:
goodness, love, acceptance, dignity, joy, hope, respect.
don't give evil for evil, have peace in your heart, have the intent to love

 

[Grayman]

Egocentrism?

Probably a consequence of too much time in your thoughts and not getting outside and building relationships. The world seems unreal because you dont build experiences in wich to connect and relate to it.

 

[Not Anyone To Care For]

Egocentrism?

Probably a consequence of too much time in your thoughts and not getting outside and building relationships. The world seems unreal because you dont build experiences in wich to connect and relate to it.

This is very true, I had a similar problem one summer and I felt like I was going crazy and it just made me more antisocial and the problem got worse. It can be very hard to dig yourself out of that rut. Good luck OP

 

[Nofriends]

Egocentrism?

Probably a consequence of too much time in your thoughts and not getting outside and building relationships. The world seems unreal because you dont build experiences in wich to connect and relate to it.

I associate myself with men of good quality because I esteem my own, as it is better to be alone than in bad company.

 

[EditorOne]

I associate myself with men of good quality because I esteem my own, as it is better to be alone than in bad company.

Now, see, that's where you went off the rails. What you say is true, but begs the question of why you aren't out in the world interacting with OTHER people of good quality. Greyman nailed it, you're just in your head too much and need to communicate with other humans just so little bits of outside, real-world data stick to your fuzzy sweater and give you something to contemplate besides your navel.

 

[Nofriends]

What you say is true, but begs the question of why you aren't out in the world interacting with OTHER people of good quality.

Such are but a rarity.

 

[Ex-User (13503)]

This will probably be uncomfortable for you, but you should intentionally go out of your way to share experiences with others and undertake new experiences (*cough* these are not mutually exclusive *cough*). You are both the character and the novelist. Becoming too engrossed in either role carries very real risk, because you lose awareness and start living a one dimensional existence. Both manifest in nonproductivity: apathy in the former and analysis paralysis in the latter.

 

[Nofriends]

This will probably be uncomfortable for you, but you should intentionally go out of your way to share experiences with others and undertake new experiences (*cough* these are not mutually exclusive *cough*). You are both the character and the novelist. Becoming too engrossed in either role carries very real risk, because you lose awareness and start living a one dimensional existence. Both manifest in nonproductivity: apathy in the former and analysis paralysis in the latter.

Depends on the character, as certain characters are good towards certain ends, that of which would be of my desire. To become the novelist is to gain deep insight into the world around me, whilst enabling me to write my own story.

 

[Ex-User (13503)]

Oh dear. Okay. Some misunderstanding and miscommunication. I like your definition of novelist better because it transcends the character suite, incorporating the environment and other plot elements. What would it be like for you, and what would it take for you, to be able to incorporate all characters into a single dynamic one that you become, so that you have all of those attributes in a single identity?

This is what I was trying to get at by recommending sharing experiences with others. Initially, the shared overlap might even increase the perception that they're just extensions of your reality as well, but eventually you'll identify divergence in experience between yourself and others, and that will in turn open up the notion of other realities and perspectives, and give you areas that are new and more exciting to explore. The influence of sending and receiving content between yourself and the world becomes much less one-sided and no longer feels scripted or dissociative.

I know I'm not giving you much evidence to go on here. You'll just have to trust me, try it for a while, and see if it works.

 

[Terran]

I felt exactly like this when I was 16-18, then when I had to get a job and survive, I grew up, had a huge personality shift. That and experiences I have had (such as reading my brothers diary...) have made me realise that this is very much a delusional immature mindset.