I would do anything to be able to escape my own thoughts, I exhaust myself everyday, and leave myself with a headache every night.
Meditation does't come easy to me when there are distractions, whether it be my laptop or people. I can sort of get a break when I'm out in the woods, or relaxing in the bath.
I require more conviction.
I was in the living room with my ESFJ and ESFP friends last night.. The ESFJ requested both of our attentions so she could read out some long ass, supposedly humorous post from her facebook feed. I was on the laptop and deep in thought doing some things, so I was rolling eyeballs. I semi payed attention for the first 2 minutes, then she sort of became a blur in my peripheral vision as my eye's diverted back to what I was doing, and then I couldn't hear her at all.
But a minute later she tapped me for attention and I had to listen for another minute, fake laughing at the appropriate times. I wondered why the ESFP wasn't coming to my rescue by taking an interest and drawing attention away from me.. I looked over, and she had bloody fell asleep!
I had to feign interest then for another minute or too. The whole while wondering why ESFJ's are so fucking... Naive when it come's to reading people.
Oh and the ESFJ accidentally killed her hamster the other day. I thought it died of natural causes, but when I inquired she informed me that it couldn't get to it's water and it over heated... Because the silly bint put the hamster on one side of a large cage, whilst leaving it's water on the other with an elaborate labyrinth to navigate.