DelusiveNinja
Falsifier of Reality
I believe that I have elevated to a even higher level of understanding of my psyche. To classify myself with the theories of personality I would be an INTP with an enneagram of 5w4 and a socionics type of LII denoted by INTj. The newest addition to the information about my psyche would be that it's highly possible that I experience periods of hypo-mania and/or, although less frequent, major depression. My question is if it would be reasonable to make connections between disorders and the cognitive functions. For instance, could I use hypo-mania to explain these alleged periods of highly active Ne (and questionably Fe) or depression to sharp periods of Fi, causing my enneagram to lean more toward me being 5w4. Generalized anxiety and my skeptical way of thinking sprinkled on top of all this just makes everything worse.
I also question how these problems with my psyche will affect me in the future and if I should ask for some antidepressants or some other medication. Then I think what if I did get rid of the depression and ended up with increased mania? Then again, thinking about and living with this kind anxiety could make all of this go even further into hell all on it's own. Right now, the hypo-mania isn't a problem and I actually enjoy the feeling of having my mind race at speeds of 'OVER 9000' miles per hour! I'm just worried about these steep periods of major depression. If antidepressants were to cause me to have a even higher form of mania would I still be able to think logically?
In the long run it make more sense for me to develop the other functions so that way my thought process doesn't become too clouded with possibilities or to simply focus my Ne onto a breadth of information to interpret and understand. As usual all of this is pure speculation. I tend to get lost in the possibilities or in my baseless theories when they spur up.
I don't want to end up like those people who spend there lives trying to prove some completely illogical theory, living in a world of delusion.
I am the Delusive Ninja though
. Sometimes I wish that I hadn't stumbled upon this personality stuff because when I experience something or see something in the real world I always try to make a proof or connection.
I also question how these problems with my psyche will affect me in the future and if I should ask for some antidepressants or some other medication. Then I think what if I did get rid of the depression and ended up with increased mania? Then again, thinking about and living with this kind anxiety could make all of this go even further into hell all on it's own. Right now, the hypo-mania isn't a problem and I actually enjoy the feeling of having my mind race at speeds of 'OVER 9000' miles per hour! I'm just worried about these steep periods of major depression. If antidepressants were to cause me to have a even higher form of mania would I still be able to think logically?
In the long run it make more sense for me to develop the other functions so that way my thought process doesn't become too clouded with possibilities or to simply focus my Ne onto a breadth of information to interpret and understand. As usual all of this is pure speculation. I tend to get lost in the possibilities or in my baseless theories when they spur up.
I don't want to end up like those people who spend there lives trying to prove some completely illogical theory, living in a world of delusion.

