bronto's floppy ego frustration and neurotic vexation outlet

[Brontosaurie]

i will nag and overanalyze events that somehow invite typological consideration here. pending further definition.

yesterday i was speaking with someone who told me about burglars and how they "mark" potential targets. my immediate and adamant reaction was "lol how stupid, why not just scribble down the address" but of course said person was talking about putting something scarcely noticeable and see if it's changed so as to determine if someone is home. like placing a little rock or whatever.

intense shame ensued and i felt stupid. i felt that all my intellectual aspirations and my self-image are a charade devised to conceal the stupidity that is my real core.

or does it make me an NFP? or an S? does it prove that i have autism? does it mean i have to accept that i'm not perfect or something? how is that possible?

these are basically all the thoughts of this thing.

 

[Perfectly Normal Beast]

sometimes you encounter idiocy with such frequency that it becomes habitual to assume that it pervades everywhere.

think for a moment to be sure you're not mistaken before pointing it out.

does it mean i have to accept that i'm not perfect or something? how is that possible?

i feel your pain.

 

[nanook]

it's probably the enneagram five, intellectuality, regardless of how immense and truthful or mediocre, is used to experience yourself as a master of existence, when in reality it's a strategy of avoiding a complete participation in the challenge of existence. on some level you know, without fully understanding, that the illusion of mastery through intellect is a fraud, so you can easily be shaken out of the illusion. your knowledge may even be true, but if it's still useless or meaningless in real life, then you have nothing and are nothing. and having nothing is an existential truth in life. you can't be a master of life. life is doing you. in a different perspective it's not true, that you have nothing or are nothing, because you have and are life, but you are think that it's nothing because your mind labels it that way. if life can't be 'known' it doesn't count to you mind. but to participate in life in authentic manner, you have to face 'unknowingness'. that's just the enneagram theory and a rhetoric "you" form od address.

 

[The Gopher]

I think the way I dealt/deal with it was to understand I don't know everything but maintain the illusion or reality of being able to find out anything I want to. I don't know all the events of childbirth nor the ways robbers *that aren't pickpockets* find and mark targets. But I try to satisfy myself with the knowledge that I could know that if I ever require to. Part of the problem I had was growing up and completing a degree only to know what seemed like less at the other end.

*insert something intelligent about the more you know the more you realize you don't*

Either my ego is massive or small/quiet enough to realize when I don't know something/when realizing I'm not as smart as I think doesn't matter.

I think it just means your self worth is tied up in your intelligence and you are after perfection. If you can learn to self depreciate in a positive manner it might help? *hug*

 

[Reluctantly]

I think it proves that the universe is flat and Michael Jackson was really an alien.

 

[Brontosaurie]

I think the way I dealt/deal with it was to understand I don't know everything but maintain the illusion or reality of being able to find out anything I want to. I don't know all the events of childbirth nor the ways robbers *that aren't pickpockets* find and mark targets. But I try to satisfy myself with the knowledge that I could know that if I ever require to. Part of the problem I had was growing up and completing a degree only to know what seemed like less at the other end.

*insert something intelligent about the more you know the more you realize you don't*

Either my ego is massive or small/quiet enough to realize when I don't know something/when realizing I'm not as smart as I think doesn't matter.

I think it just means your self worth is tied up in your intelligence and you are after perfection. If you can learn to self depreciate in a positive manner it might help? *hug*

thanks! oddly enough roughly these same perspectives are already in place. especially the first idea resonates a lot. the problem is not my lack of knowledge (i don't care much for knowledge), but my sluggish deduction and poor awareness. anyway it's good to hear it from someone else and in other words.

I think it proves that the universe is flat and Michael Jackson was really an alien.

i take it you call far-fetched? probable for sure.

 

[paradoxparadigm7]

The title says it all. Think you've nailed it. I was devastated to find out I'm not perfect A little compassion for yourself can go a long way after you sooth your ego and find a more 'real' you.

 

[EyeSeeCold]

yesterday i was speaking with someone who told me about burglars and how they "mark" potential targets. my immediate and adamant reaction was "lol how stupid, why not just scribble down the address" but of course said person was talking about putting something scarcely noticeable and see if it's changed so as to determine if someone is home. like placing a little rock or whatever.

I've heard of a similar one: Slipping $5-10 in a secluded spot to see if it'd be ideal for growing marijuana (or doing anything else).

 

[TheManBeyond]

Bro yu must not fear.
It happens everytime i read some architect post, i get depressed. I think i'm definitely stupid, I wish I wasn't
Also why the N vs S debate? I have to open a new page on my internet browser to traduce your weird words, so probably N.

 

[RaBind]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NaiRK5sLEE

The infrequency in which you find yourself wrong/mistaken might be the cause of whatever you're having. Plus there's no shame in being wrong, it's being willing wrong and unashamed that should be avoided at all costs.

 

[Hadoblado]

Being right may feel great at the time but compared to failure it is nigh stagnation.

 

[Ex-User (9062)]

http://www.worldpath.net/~minstrel/hobosign.htm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQkyB1-Qe-s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DI0XfWTzJCM

It just means that the persons you thought of as being stupid may have indeed had more information than you did/do.

On another note:

[bimgx=650]http://www.bilderberg.org/msteps1.jpg[/bimgx]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNBjDFH7QLc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1i2S8GAJgg

 

[Brontosaurie]

my s.o. told me "you have a good memory but you're bad at interpreting things normally". does this mean i am Si dominant? or just light autistic?

can't shake the feeling that the natural polarity of those things, coming from someone who isn't very familiar with MBTI, is kinda telling.

 

[OrLevitate]

it means you have rabies, sorry.

 

[Brontosaurie]

that makes no sense

 

[cockroach king]

I find that, at least for me, Fe is a supporter of Ti. That is, my ultimate task to gather information and categorize it to determine what exactly the universe is is connected to my emotional state.

Your Fe could have simply exploded upon realizing that there are flaws in the matrix that is your Ti.

Remember that Fe remains below the conscious mind for much of your waking hours, it sneaks up on you when you aren't paying attention.

OR you could just be an INFP. Doesn't seem likely to me however.

 

[Bock]

"but you're bad at interpreting things normally".

I don't see the problem. Not that i agree with it either, your posts almost always contain clarity far far above average (normal?). Then again i know that social situations IRL are quite different... It's like most of my processing power gets stolen by "crap" like body language interpretation and extreme self-consciousness/awareness, it has always been like that.

Feels (pun might be intended) like an emotional issue more than anything else though.

 

[Jaffa]

It happens everytime i read some architect post, i get depressed. I think i'm definitely stupid, I wish I wasn't

This. New signature - thank you.

 

[k9b4]

I am perfect.

 

[Direwolf]

I am perfect.

As am I. Well i think im perfect everyone else i know just thinks im up myself. To be fair im perfect so i have good reason.

Bronto, mate, dont worry happens to the best of us, if its really bad you could try and pass it off as sarcasm or a bad joke. But from what ive read of your other posts you seem like a pretty intelligent person so yeah dont worry about it.

 

[Brontosaurie]

hello people,

when i talk in my sleep, it's always panick-ridden nonsensical glossolalia. does it mean i'm a sensor.
?

 

[Pyropyro]

hello people,

when i talk in my sleep, it's always panick-ridden nonsensical glossolalia. does it mean i'm a sensor.
?

No. However, you might want to have that checked though. Experiencing night terrors means something's wrong.

 

[TBerg]

I have had night terrors off and on ever since my mom found out that she has a huge mass next to her ovaries. Even now that she is fine, I still have them sometimes.

 

[Yellow]

hello people,

when i talk in my sleep, it's always panick-ridden nonsensical glossolalia. does it mean i'm a sensor.
?

Don't be silly. It means that you are preoccupied with something. Night-terrors, night-talking, and night-walking happen during non-REM sleep. Remember, people dream in both REM and non-REM sleep.

REM dreams:
You are paralyzed during REM sleep, and you have crazy dreams. These dreams are surreal, disjointed, and illogical (to the waking mind). These dreams are thought to be unconscious/instinctive preparation for theoretical situations. When we're children, there are monsters to evade and wild forests to escape. When we're older, the dreams adjust to more modern concerns like oral reports and public toilets.

Non-REM dreams:
It is pretty solidly theorized that non-REM sleep dreams are rapid, continuous loops of one or more sequence of events directly replayed from your memories (as is, with no mash-ups). This is the kind of sleep that does your problem solving, and is the conscious mind at work.

You are having issues in the non-REM sleep part of your sleep cycle. So, that would indicate that you are going to bed with something left unsolved, unsettled, or worrisome, which translates to restless sleep. Either that, or you're on drugs that fuck with your sleep/brain functions.

 

[J-man]

Well as long as you're hung up on this idea that your mind is defective in some way, your brain is going to be looking for the evidence to support that and you'll just feel like shit about it. You should play a different game. Might as well.

Edit: goddammit, old thread. Oh well.

 

[Brontosaurie]

Don't be silly. It means that you are preoccupied with something. Night-terrors, night-talking, and night-walking happen during non-REM sleep. Remember, people dream in both REM and non-REM sleep.

REM dreams:
You are paralyzed during REM sleep, and you have crazy dreams. These dreams are surreal, disjointed, and illogical (to the waking mind). These dreams are thought to be unconscious/instinctive preparation for theoretical situations. When we're children, there are monsters to evade and wild forests to escape. When we're older, the dreams adjust to more modern concerns like oral reports and public toilets.

Non-REM dreams:
It is pretty solidly theorized that non-REM sleep dreams are rapid, continuous loops of one or more sequence of events directly replayed from your memories (as is, with no mash-ups). This is the kind of sleep that does your problem solving, and is the conscious mind at work.



You are having issues in the non-REM sleep part of your sleep cycle. So, that would indicate that you are going to bed with something left unsolved, unsettled, or worrisome, which translates to restless sleep. Either that, or you're on drugs that fuck with your sleep/brain functions.

i think this panick happens during both the surreal and the real dreams. last time i can remember it was very mundane though. but it's also happened during the dark force occupying my being, i reluctantly become the villain, immortal all-permeating space pirate chases me into the garden of the reasonable talking moose, gay stalker copy of myself type dreams.

and my self esteem is really at rock bottom so i guess you're all right about the worry thing anyways.

 

[Yellow]

i think this panick happens during both the surreal and the real dreams. last time i can remember it was very mundane though.

I assume that everyone is at least slightly unique in this regard, but I've found that dreams about mundane life are a clear warning that I'm heading for a burn out.

 

[Brontosaurie]

I assume that everyone is at least slightly unique in this regard, but I've found that dreams about mundane life are a clear warning that I'm heading for a burn out.

damn

what's a burn out like when one is already ENCYSTED & DORMANT

 

[Yellow]

damn

what's a burn out like when one is already ENCYSTED & DORMANT

Like that.

Look, I don't know what you encounter in your daily life, but for me, every moment I spend outside of my squishy little world is a moment of torture. And I do it for a living. I don't get a break at home either because I have clients and employees calling me in between doing tasks for my ever-delegating INTJ. So either I have to say "fuck it" on my own terms, or my brain goes on strike. It just shuts the fuck off. I just sit there, unable to pull myself from my little thinky-coma*. The mundane dreams happen about 2-4 weeks before the crash. So I start taking a few hours off work when I can, I inform my INTJ that it's time to fuck off with the tasks and the nagging, I lock myself in my library, or go for a drive out to the wilderness, and I keep doing it until I'm better. I'm on the tail end of one of these periods now. It is simply self-maintenence.

*thinky-comas are when you cannot force yourself to attend to anything outside your own thoughts. You can't force yourself to be creative either. You just sit there, wondering why Neitzsche never saw fit to apply his philosophies to his choice in facial hair, while getting comfortable with the incomprehensible screaming voice in the back of your head.

 

[Brontosaurie]

Bronto's floppy vitriol confession and reboot declaration.

Hereby, upper-case and no harshitudes.

 

[Haim]

You were just in a state were you didn't have time to think then the auto drive(Ne?) give the answer without thinking.

 

[TheManBeyond]

Starke Jibbom...