TBerg
fallen angel who hasn't earned his wings
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You may be in a situation much like mine. You may have found yourself painted into a corner, and you might not see yourself ever coming back. You may have made so many socially damaging mistakes and blunders that your reputation serves as no credit to your advancement. You may have no ability that garners the investment of the community. But there is a way out of your predicament.
It involves a lot of pain and suffering, but it is preferable to letting your capacity atrophe and become rancid. I call it leading the life of an insurgent, meaning that you realize you have stacked the deck against yourself, but you realize that you also have the will to survive that will use your strengths to subvert your weaknesses. When you realize that you have strengths, you can employ your strengths to develop your own passions. People have a way of respecting or fearing people who have passions in their life, so it is only a matter of course that your strength-training will bring you rewards beyond those inherent to the strengthened capacity itself.
But the will has become corrupted. Your passion has been lost by a deluge of life events and influences that have mangled their brilliant form. In order for you to find it again, you will have to learn to evade those things that have told you Yes or No. You will have to abandon those voices that have pushed you into your perilous predicament. You will have to learn the fine art of sincerity, a master category that was much revered in classical China.
Sincerity, in this tradition, meant that your will was not jostled by impure influences but assiduously worked its course to its appropriate destination. You know that you used to have a childlike drive to accomplish whatever it was that you wanted to accomplish, without even thinking of what others were telling you to do. But this drive has been vanquished from the field of battle too many times. You have known too many dead ends and people taunting you on your journeys. Now you try not to fall asleep in the same train everyone else takes to work. Or you have ended up digging the same hole in the same gutter. Or you have made your peace living in subsidized housing. But you have forgotten to keep looking, for as long as you keep venturing into new territory, you may be quite lost, but you will always find something that you have never seen before. You will learn something.
You must have the inner peace to find it, though. You must be able to channel your qi. How else will you be able to ouch yourself out of the box you have painted yourself into?
You can play with the box once you are outside.
Afterwards, you might even be able to eschew the train for your own car and pay your own rent.
https://libercolumbia.wordpress.com/2016/05/03/become-a-life-insurgent/
It involves a lot of pain and suffering, but it is preferable to letting your capacity atrophe and become rancid. I call it leading the life of an insurgent, meaning that you realize you have stacked the deck against yourself, but you realize that you also have the will to survive that will use your strengths to subvert your weaknesses. When you realize that you have strengths, you can employ your strengths to develop your own passions. People have a way of respecting or fearing people who have passions in their life, so it is only a matter of course that your strength-training will bring you rewards beyond those inherent to the strengthened capacity itself.
But the will has become corrupted. Your passion has been lost by a deluge of life events and influences that have mangled their brilliant form. In order for you to find it again, you will have to learn to evade those things that have told you Yes or No. You will have to abandon those voices that have pushed you into your perilous predicament. You will have to learn the fine art of sincerity, a master category that was much revered in classical China.
Sincerity, in this tradition, meant that your will was not jostled by impure influences but assiduously worked its course to its appropriate destination. You know that you used to have a childlike drive to accomplish whatever it was that you wanted to accomplish, without even thinking of what others were telling you to do. But this drive has been vanquished from the field of battle too many times. You have known too many dead ends and people taunting you on your journeys. Now you try not to fall asleep in the same train everyone else takes to work. Or you have ended up digging the same hole in the same gutter. Or you have made your peace living in subsidized housing. But you have forgotten to keep looking, for as long as you keep venturing into new territory, you may be quite lost, but you will always find something that you have never seen before. You will learn something.
You must have the inner peace to find it, though. You must be able to channel your qi. How else will you be able to ouch yourself out of the box you have painted yourself into?
You can play with the box once you are outside.
Afterwards, you might even be able to eschew the train for your own car and pay your own rent.
https://libercolumbia.wordpress.com/2016/05/03/become-a-life-insurgent/
