Name: To the public Michelle
Age: Not
Gender: Female
Discovery of INTP:
In a college child care class way back in 1987 the teacher asked all of the parents to take an MBTI.
I did not know her intent was to discriminate against some types though. She regarded the extroverted feelers with favoritism there after and the introverted thinkers with disregard. It was a lesson that the MBTI is a tool for some to discriminate against you with and wasn't pleasant to learn.
Discovery of this Forum:
I belonged to an aimoo forum for highly sensitive persons and started to feel the odd person out since most were INFP and INFJ, but I had sensitivities that were physical, environmental, intuitive and energetic sensitivities. I started searching for INTP forums to see if I fit better and found INTPCentral in around 2007-8 and was on that forum for 3 or 4 years when it first formed. I am not sure if I actually fit in better, but I liked thinkers in general for their approach to logic over emotion because logic is so much more calming to me than value judgements. Straightforwardness is a value I like.
Partner/Lover.
Nope, not now. In my teen years I was active and met people easily, and had a few long term boyfriends, an ENFJ the longest of them. I married in 1983, quickly learned that was a mistake, did my own divorce. Single parent ever since. Two other relationships after that. True hermit here.
Offspring:
Yes, two grown and flown boys, ISTP and INTP
Pets:
Yes. I was a bird person most of my life, loved Macaw Parrots, Canaries. I was then a Cat person and had several Siamese adopt me as their parent. I got cat scratch fever from feral kittens and can't be near cats now. Now I'm a dog person and have one mini schnauzer since 2009, who is my best friend and more like a person than a pet.
Hobbies:
Love and Freedom. Favorite things: Birds, Dogs, Earth, Nature, Stars, Wildlife, Plants, Beautiful Wood grain, Natural Health and I follow Dr. Mercola advice, usually distrust most medicine a doctor can prescribe, love natural cures, Antiques, Geology, Crystals, Numbers, Good Literature, Ebay, Amazon, Technical problem solver, Computers, Spreadsheets, Statistics, Tax accounting, payroll, Accounts Payable, Accounts Receivable which I excel in, Math, Catalog Sales which I won awards in, Charts, Electronic Funds Transfers, Certifying Payments, and bill collector in accounts receivable. Prior life was an Electronics QA Inspector in Silicon Valley, I like to analyze and get to the root of something. Nasa standards, component reading, electronic systems, Write some stories and songs, design homes, appreciate art and architecture and Design, Marbles, Glass, Things from the 1800's, Crystals, geology and Rock collecting, Stained Glass, Cooking, Food, Massage Therapy, Healing, Botanics, Herbals, World Religions Knowledge, Philosophies, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Brain Wave States, Healing, Louise Hay, All things Oriental, Zen, Tibetan Sound Healing, Reiki, accupressure, Traeger and Swedish Massage Certified Massage Therapist, Enjoy Nicherin Shoshu Buddhism, Craftsman Bungalow Homes, Cherries, Salmon, Schnauzers, TCM Movies and Old Hollywood, Outlander, Astrology, Archery, Kitchen Gadgets, Tools, Poetry, Haiku Poetry, Piano, Guitar, Music, Jazz, Blues, Classic Rock, Bob Dylan, Who, Classical, 60's, Motown, Flute, Museums, Botanical Paintings, Lithographs from the 1800's, and on and on. Dislikes: Fear Based thought, exclusion mentality, bullies, social injustices, violence and drama queens and kings, too much social interaction, any attempt to control freedom of thought, life or speech of another = not healthy and usually this means most religion, social institution, or relationships. I find no value in the trappings of most of these. I find pure value in free thought, originality and wholeness of the individual and those that uphold the same values. Most roles, I do avoid because they insult my intelligence. I can not fully be a daughter, mother, aunt, wife, family member, student, employee, lover, etc, its just not really inclusive of the depth and dimensionality of spirit and life which can not be reduced to a role or an act or confined because everything changes. The only stability is to be let go - be flexible and balance the whole universe within and without and to learn self reliance. I resonate best with other Earth signs, Chinese year of the dog, horse, rabbit and tiger, & Indigos, & sensitive Intuitives and healers but I am very business oriented in career so I am well rounded in many subjects and topics. Awkard Geek, Peaceful Warrior, Hermit, Thinker Perceiver. Capricorn, Scorpio Rising, Gemini Moon. Enigma, I walk on the metaphysical side without committing to anything but my experience and awareness. I do not do performances or entertain anyone but myself - not much into social interactions, but I enjoy discussions and philosophies, as long as everyone is self contained and whole in themselves and has nothing to gain from anyone else but the exchange of ideas. I see other people as somewhat alien to me. I'm a single parent of two sons that I love and miss, who have flown the nest. I spend my free time cooking, learning and collecting knowledge and antiques. I am intuitive and six sensory, and enjoy psychic topics and dreams and lucid dreaming very much. I love learning from Regina Meredith, she is a fantastic teacher of esoteric knowlege. I am life path five, which needs its freedom above all else.
Income: Retired Accountant on Social Security and Retirement Income
INTP difficulties:
I've come full swing to accept the limitations, maybe the hardest part for me is watching extroverts interact and laugh and be spontaneous and I feel left out cause I don't bond with them. Feeling like you've dropped off the edge of the planet maybe.
People misunderstand you.
First Memory:
I have memories of the Tennis court lights and walking at night, and of an old lady a few houses down, that gave me cookies. Her pathway had juniper type bushes that had a strong scent in the sun and her house had the smell of an old ladies house, a mixture of powders, musty smells but good. Also, Mom pushed me in a stroller down on a small street (Community Lane) and she met a lady there and bought an assortment of miniature antique baking utensils, like rolling pins, mini cake pans, small dishes, from a lady at one of the homes on that lane. She must have been talking and built up the excitement of the adventurous find. We lived across from a park and if the window was open, you could hear the sound of tennis balls softly hitting tennis courts and if taking night walks, you could see tennis court lights as we walked along. Dad from Hawaii, so we flew to Hawaii at age 2 and remember the sight of blue landing strip lights and smelling airline food and being left on the beach while parents were in a bar and a little girl told me to taste the old pork and beans in a trash so I did. Swirled worn hawaiian linoleum and a single bulb hanging from a celing with a long cord on it and an old man in an upstairs room. Remember Dad scuba diving, getting Octopus, Squid, Abalone, Sea snails, and pushing Octopus eyes around in their sockets and hearing the sound of the eye crunching as Dad ate it. He taught me how to eat raw fish and gather it at a very young age. So I could handle knives at age 4 and gather up limpets, while he scuba dived.
Belief:
Grandparents were Lutheran, Dads side was Catholic, Mom was atheist and from the start told me Santa and God were made up. So I grew up with only one experience of seeing my little brother get baptized in a beautiful Catholic church, I mean gorgeous! And seeing kids do an Easter egg hunt on an awesome lawn dressed in white shoes and Easter frills. This was from Dads second wife, my half brother. Otherwise, no religious up bringing. In high school kids were talking about Jesus, so I tried to test it out, but it didn't mesh with me too much, although I did become a believer for a short time. Then in my forties, someone talked about Nicherin Shoshu Buddhism, and I tried chanting and it instantly worked for me. It fit, but I don't practice it other than occasionally chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo and having a Gohonzon. I also love the idea of the Saints and Angelic Rhelms which I learned about in my 50s. I took a class in college called World Religions to get a taste of many so I feel just aquainted with many of them. Resonate best with Buddhism, and appreciate everything else.
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Life just gets tiring more and more. Only 24, and I know I've thought about suicide regularly for at least 12 years straight. Emo music was thriving when I was about 13 (the age music is scientifically proven to be best and meaninful for life), so, that's my favorite genre. In terms of depression sorta music, Bring Me the Horizon, I like a lot because the lyrics are spot on, not whiny (except one song i hate), and it's a good song too usually if you can get into it. The very title of the band I find poetic, describing an impossible task (beating depression), always gonna be chasing that light but never get to it. Also he's in the past been extremely passionate in his voice, screaming his little lungs out lol, which just sounds terrible to a lot of people, but that's one of my favorite things in music when it sounds like the passion behind the voice is exceeding the physical capabilities of the voice and the voice is starting to give out a little. Same reason I like 'Chandelier' by sia, which is less screamy lol. Well aware a ton of emo music is cringey 13 year old music (all music is really), but, it's more about memories and how it makes me feel anyways, the fact that it does make me feel is great, especially when you play along with a guitar, boi crei a lot when he does that lol, and it's great. Guess that's a hobby 
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