hey folks.

[Exolution]

Just discovered this INTP thing a few days ago. I am still processing the impact.

So... I realized I was a little different at a young age. I can still recall a close friend telling me the reason I had difficulties with girls was the fact that I was "weird". I was a little upset until I realized what he meant to say was, "too awesome for understanding". It took a few decades to realize that though.

I have always had issues with the norm. I see things as they are, but for some reason, I am not comfortable until I exhaust all possibilities for improvement and analyze exactly why something is how it is. I believe this line of thinking is an innocent attempt to make the world better for humanity, however, it sometimes seems to others as if I am some cocky asshole who thinks he can come up with something better than everyone else. It seems most of society thinks that I think these thoughts (which are mostly the OPPOSITE of how I really think, mostly)...

All the brilliant achievers out there who have made up the whole of human success were but children to my supreme intellect.

I have the power to improve upon anything that is less than perfect, and sometimes things that you thought were perfect prior to my improvements.

I have no need to sit down and speak with you about mundane tid bits of your life. Frankly I am bored thinking about the prospect of such.

I do not say hello to you, because I have better ways to expel my breath.

I stare blankly into groups having conversations because I cannot fathom the stupidity coming from their mouths.

I do not have a social life because I care not for mortals and their intermingling with one another.

I eat lunch alone most of the time, because humans disgust me when they eat.

I do not accept invitations for outings because I have far more important things to attend to. Even though I always say I will "try and make it".


In real reality, outside the thoughts of others, I feel way small and insignificant most of the time, which is a real mind blower to those who get to know me. I am a 6'2", 200 lb. carpenter with tattoos and a scraggly beard. I've had a chain wallet since childhood. I get told by those who do take the time to get to know me, that they thought I was a real intimidating guy, scary almost. This sucks and does not help my social game at all! It's like I'm some damn ogre sometimes... And what's crazy is I don't know why I even care at all!

My brain contradicts my brain. Can I crave social interaction while completely repelling it? I feel like my discovery of this INTP thing and this forum will help me at least gain some social and mental peace.

Anyway... (<--- my nearly exclusive segue.) Hey folks. Its good to be here and I am very, very glad yall exist.

 

[Minuend]

Hey, welcome to the forum. I'm one of the human shits you hate.

 

[Czech Yes or No]

Welcome, you sound INTJish though, especially with all of that self-confidence.

 

[Ex-User (5841)]

Just discovered this INTP thing a few days ago. I am still processing the impact.

Anyway... (<--- my nearly exclusive segue.) Hey folks. Its good to be here and I am very, very glad yall exist.

There's this process of self discovery that new people go through, which uh... we'll help you through I suppose.

:smiley_emoticons_mr

 

[Ex-User (5841)]

Welcome, you sound INTJish though, especially with all of that self-confidence.

"I am a 6'2", 200 lb. carpenter with tattoos and a scraggly beard. I've had a chain wallet since childhood."

If we're pidgeonholeing him out of the INTP label, at least pidgeonhole him into ISTP ffs....

 

[Exolution]

I really like other people! I mean, for the most part, I really do. Did yall not get the part where I think the OPPOSITE of the thoughts listed???

My introversion invites others to believe I am this super confident a hole. Even my appearance and occupation are misnomers for how I actually feel inside my head. People have this vision of me that prevents them from any meaningful discourse. Which is completely understandable, because I guess, in a way, I have designed myself that way. I get so uncomfortable that I would rather scare people off than deal with them on a traditional human level. I guess thats the rub. I crave interaction with others but just really, suck at it. I lack the confidence to even speak most of the time. Especially with strangers. I tend to stutter when even making a wise crack. I have to think about what I say over and over and over before spitting it out, for fear of sounding dumb or pissing someone off. I am only smart enough to know I am never the smartest guy in the room, ever, even though i pretend to always know what folks are saying.

I tend to be an ear piece for big scary dudes. I always found this odd, these tough guys bleeding their hearts out to me, even though I am always secretly intimidated by them. Its like they feel the same way I do, and they can shed their thick skin around another they perceive as "tough". Sometimes, they latch on to me, like I am their only friend. But it's because I listen I guess. But where they tend to really be self centered most of the time, I dont gain anything myself from the relationship. As are most of my relationships...

I do love to listen to folks, truly. I just dont have many people who love to listen to me. I'm so damn awkward I think my words just confuse people even further than my appearance as to who I really am.

Apparently my inability to accurately represent my true self bleeds over to forums as well. Awesome. I've a lot of work ahead.

oh, and I wasnt being sarcastic when I said I am glad you folks are here.

 

[lucky12]

Well well.

Another one of us. You thought you were confused before with those regular people, eh?
Prepare yourself, within this forum lies many a persons like yourself. One must keep in mind that we are all uniquely weird, therefore you may/not also perceive us to be confusing.

Ah I'm just teasing. Lot's of good folk, never be shy to ask a question that's for sure.

 

[Lydia]

Welcome

 

[EyeSeeCold]

Welcome, you sound INTJish though, especially with all of that self-confidence.

Agreed.

Regardless, welcome to the forum.

 

[Exolution]

I think it's awesome yall see a tangible amount of self confidence in my posts. Maybe I am more confident than I feel? Could someone lay it out for me please? What is it about my words that lead one to that conclusion?

 

[Czech Yes or No]

I think it's awesome yall see a tangible amount of self confidence in my posts. Maybe I am more confident than I feel? Could someone lay it out for me please? What is it about my words that lead one to that conclusion?

First off, your sense of humor in your humorous intro (assumed to be satirical) leans more towards a sense of self confidence in addition to your self providing characteristics (chains, etc.).

It also seems that you have a sense of confidence that you are right, hidden within you, rather than a sense of confidence that is rarely opened up (and only in severe situations) as is seen in INTP's.

 

[Czech Yes or No]

I do find it very interesting that you are a "southern INTx" as well. (We still haven't completely narrowed you down yet.)

 

[Exolution]

Intx? New to all these darn terms.

 

[Czech Yes or No]

INTx is either an INTP or an INTJ. The "x" is just a placeholder just as it is in something like a math problem.

Also, how did you choose your username? Was endolution already chosen? I kid, I kid.

 

[Exolution]

An old sn from aol red dragon inn about 15 years ago. Dont get the joke btw. A common occurence im afraid...

 

[Czech Yes or No]

An old sn from aol red dragon inn about 15 years ago. Dont get the joke btw. A common occurence im afraid...

Exo- as in exoskeleton, endo- as its opposite. General sarcasm that abounds on this forum.

 

[Exolution]

A thought. I wonder if the sense of confidence you say may be hidden inside is really there at all. I mean, I have grown up around a bunch of overly confident rednecks who always seem very sure of themselves. It would be much harder to survive if I was seen as weak. maybe I put that forth to avoid being picked on? Or maybe the confidence is in there and I just cant get a good grip on it.

 

[Czech Yes or No]

I am not completely sure, but after reading more of your posts, I will return you to the most likely classification: INTP. You also display an interest in others problems, something that is less likely in INTP's. My bad on trying to lead you astray earlier, I believe that I had just misinterpreted some information.

 

[EditorOne]

Welcome aboard.

Clearly you're INTP because you overthink things to death and never are sure which outcome is the "good" one. Just accept it.

A lot of people judge on appearances, so if you're muscular, hard to fathom, and wear a chain wallet, a lot of people are going to assume you're dangerous. You can lose the wallet and wear t-shirts with bunny rabbits or cats on them if you want to change the visual signaling, or experiment with it. I have found that neckties are cheap respectability and now wear one for work, but it, like any choice of clothing, is really a disguise. If you want to go for "total harmless nerd," do the sleeveless sweater thing like Rick Santorum is doing, only add a bow tie. A bow tie just screams "nice-guy nerd".

INTPs come in all shapes and sizes and have made all kinds of superficial adaptations to function in the world of what I choose to call 'Muggles,' like in Harry Potter. Yeah, that makes us all wizards or something.

You'll find a lot of friendly help here and occasionally confusion, but outright rancor is pretty rare. Have fun.

I was a "real" carpenter for one year. Gave it up for journalism. Big mistake.

 

[Ex-User (5841)]

I am not completely sure, but after reading more of your posts, I will return you to the most likely classification: INTP. You also display an interest in others problems, something that is less likely in INTP's. My bad on trying to lead you astray earlier, I believe that I had just misinterpreted some information.

Out of pure curiosity, attempting to verify your own type by typing others?

And I disagree with red. Another's problems are yet another puzzle to be solved and series of questions to be answered.

 

[Exolution]

Thanks man. I am an over analyzing son of a gun. I hear ya on the appearance thing. I've never lost a wallet and dont plan on starting anytime soon. I quit the disguise thing in my early 20's. I just thought I was too lazy to care much about my appearance anymore. It's amazing how much more comfortable I am, in general, after understanding my personality a little. Crazy.

 

[Czech Yes or No]

Out of pure curiosity, attempting to verify your own type by typing others?

And I disagree with red. Another's problems are yet another puzzle to be solved and series of questions to be answered.

Dangit, you found out my master plan!

 

[Exolution]

I like the idea that others problems are a series of questions that need to be answered. I feel that way as well. Seems a logical explaination for compassion. At least compassion for non family members. Those get a seperate kind of compassion I think, stemming from the biological need to protect your lineage.

 

[Raquelio]

Welcome to the club!

 

[Raquelio]

At least you are confident in yourself.

 

[Czech Yes or No]

Welcome to the club!

And to you as well! Now you must make a choice, will it be the blue pill or the red one?

 

[Exolution]

I always take both. Nothing ever happens though...