Mota
Redshirt
So this seems to be the place of introductions. And i would like to talk about my self since I might start lurking/posting here more often.
My name is Matthew, I'm 24 years old And I'm from a far west suburb of Chicago. I found out I was an INTP about a year ago. After reading a personal on craigslist of a girl who believed she was an INTP. I was intrigued by how similar her style of writing was to mine. So I googled INTP and read up on it. I found out the description of an INTP was near exact to how i felt i was. So i took the personality tests on numerous websites and it always came back as an INTP. So ever since then, I have been thinking about myself more and more.
I've always had many friends and acquaintances. But I've never been very social around any of them. My nick name during my days in high school was silent Matt. And to this day I'm still known as such. I would never consider my self a loner since technically I wasn't, but I've always felt like one. I enjoy observing people and their actions. I enjoy lurking forums and chat rooms, since I really enjoy seeing people talk about whatever, since i have the inability to make small talk. So seeing and hearing people fascinates me.
During high school I was part of the popular/party cliche. I went to the big parties every Friday and Saturday and i would stay relatively sober during these. I enjoyed being there and just listening, and observing all the people. I was never much of a drinker and still am not, i never enjoyed getting really drunk and not being able to think. But i did alot of drugs during high school. I didn't do anything I would consider serious such (Meth or heroin). I smoked a mass amount of marijuana, and still do. I enjoy smoking pot because it stops me from thinking. I get overwhelmed with my thoughts and smoking pot allows me to sit back and just enjoy myself without thinking about everything. I did alot of shrooms, LSD, and ecstasy. I did ecstasy to get away from my thoughts. But i did LSD and shrooms to stimulate my thoughts beyond what I could sober. I still trip on acid once a month. It lets me view reality in a different light and really enjoy that. And I usually do it alone so i can just sit back and think. And When i feel like i need to do some serious thinking i stop all use of drugs and clear my mind. Don't bash me on drug use since i never do anything to the extreme and I always have complete control of myself.
What I really hate about being "me" is that my lack of ability to make small talk prevents me from meeting and getting to know many women. It's something i think about way to often and its one thing that i do not have an answer for. It's the only thing the really irks me about myself. its not that I'm not confident about who i am its just that I'm not willing to approach people that i dont not know and just start talking. Or if they approach me, i just don't know how to respond to them and i prolly come of kinda rude, cause I'm prolly kinda blowing them off. I still don't like calling anybody on the phone to see what's up and what they are going to do for that day. I always wait for my friends to call me. And i have no idea what my friends think about me but if they keep calling then they must enjoy my presence even though I don't say much when I'm around them.
As of right now I feel my life is at a breaking point. I recently moved out of my parents house. Which relieved alot of stress on my life. I moved into a house with a friend of mine and his girl friend. I've know both of them for a very long time. so I'm completely comfortable of where I'm at. And they kinda force me to get out of the house, which i believe is a good thing. But they also give me alot of space and respect me for whom I am. They believe I'm the best roommate they could of ever chosen and let me know that.
As many of other INTP's I'm a big PC gamer. I enjoy social games. As of right now I'm playing WOW, which i have been for the past 3 years, and i get alot of enjoyment playing with 24 other people 4 nights a week. I believe I'm pretty skilled at it, but I'm becoming a better player everyday, and most likely will continue to play until I believe I'm one of the best. I also recently started playing fumafia, which is also brings me alot of enjoyment since its very social and people who play it tend to make it personal since its tied to fubar social networking site. And the drama that come from it, always makes me laugh.
So yea, I think I'm done rambling for the moment. So if you read this. and I'm sure some of you will, since i personally really enjoy reading people ramblings.
Soo good luck and have fun. I love life and I hope everyone else does too.
I use one word frequently (prolly) and I know it's technically not a word, but I like it:')
My name is Matthew, I'm 24 years old And I'm from a far west suburb of Chicago. I found out I was an INTP about a year ago. After reading a personal on craigslist of a girl who believed she was an INTP. I was intrigued by how similar her style of writing was to mine. So I googled INTP and read up on it. I found out the description of an INTP was near exact to how i felt i was. So i took the personality tests on numerous websites and it always came back as an INTP. So ever since then, I have been thinking about myself more and more.
I've always had many friends and acquaintances. But I've never been very social around any of them. My nick name during my days in high school was silent Matt. And to this day I'm still known as such. I would never consider my self a loner since technically I wasn't, but I've always felt like one. I enjoy observing people and their actions. I enjoy lurking forums and chat rooms, since I really enjoy seeing people talk about whatever, since i have the inability to make small talk. So seeing and hearing people fascinates me.
During high school I was part of the popular/party cliche. I went to the big parties every Friday and Saturday and i would stay relatively sober during these. I enjoyed being there and just listening, and observing all the people. I was never much of a drinker and still am not, i never enjoyed getting really drunk and not being able to think. But i did alot of drugs during high school. I didn't do anything I would consider serious such (Meth or heroin). I smoked a mass amount of marijuana, and still do. I enjoy smoking pot because it stops me from thinking. I get overwhelmed with my thoughts and smoking pot allows me to sit back and just enjoy myself without thinking about everything. I did alot of shrooms, LSD, and ecstasy. I did ecstasy to get away from my thoughts. But i did LSD and shrooms to stimulate my thoughts beyond what I could sober. I still trip on acid once a month. It lets me view reality in a different light and really enjoy that. And I usually do it alone so i can just sit back and think. And When i feel like i need to do some serious thinking i stop all use of drugs and clear my mind. Don't bash me on drug use since i never do anything to the extreme and I always have complete control of myself.
What I really hate about being "me" is that my lack of ability to make small talk prevents me from meeting and getting to know many women. It's something i think about way to often and its one thing that i do not have an answer for. It's the only thing the really irks me about myself. its not that I'm not confident about who i am its just that I'm not willing to approach people that i dont not know and just start talking. Or if they approach me, i just don't know how to respond to them and i prolly come of kinda rude, cause I'm prolly kinda blowing them off. I still don't like calling anybody on the phone to see what's up and what they are going to do for that day. I always wait for my friends to call me. And i have no idea what my friends think about me but if they keep calling then they must enjoy my presence even though I don't say much when I'm around them.
As of right now I feel my life is at a breaking point. I recently moved out of my parents house. Which relieved alot of stress on my life. I moved into a house with a friend of mine and his girl friend. I've know both of them for a very long time. so I'm completely comfortable of where I'm at. And they kinda force me to get out of the house, which i believe is a good thing. But they also give me alot of space and respect me for whom I am. They believe I'm the best roommate they could of ever chosen and let me know that.
As many of other INTP's I'm a big PC gamer. I enjoy social games. As of right now I'm playing WOW, which i have been for the past 3 years, and i get alot of enjoyment playing with 24 other people 4 nights a week. I believe I'm pretty skilled at it, but I'm becoming a better player everyday, and most likely will continue to play until I believe I'm one of the best. I also recently started playing fumafia, which is also brings me alot of enjoyment since its very social and people who play it tend to make it personal since its tied to fubar social networking site. And the drama that come from it, always makes me laugh.
So yea, I think I'm done rambling for the moment. So if you read this. and I'm sure some of you will, since i personally really enjoy reading people ramblings.
Soo good luck and have fun. I love life and I hope everyone else does too.
I use one word frequently (prolly) and I know it's technically not a word, but I like it:')
(never trusted the look of a simply smiling emoticon. It's too ingenuous to not look disingenuous.)
. Nice bio by the way, could really relate to it.