Warning / 40 Watt Sun

[Ex-User (9062)]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSCgqOGFiH8

It's all in the lyrics.

Watching from a Distance
Sometimes when I watch you, you seem like the same person that I once knew, and watched from a distance, but never able to do more than I ever would. Looking at you, I find again I am starving in your mystery; so far away, and some kind of helplessness. And then I remember that I know you love me, I know you do. Sometimes when I listen to your fearless voice, it's the voice I once heard. I want to know you, and understand you, more than I think I do; to keep the wonder the moment you seem like a stranger to my heart and me. And all at once in an instant I see you perfected again, though you've never changed; please remember when you ever think of me.

Footprints
I am not feeling the green burning flame,
As I gaze back along footprints you have made.

And I am not dreaming of more than you have shown.
You are not a foundation,
You are not a stone.

But I'm afraid of the way that I'm feeling,
Afraid of this new understanding now;
Afraid for the beauty within me,
And that which I hold within my hand.
And this is the ultimate secret
That many before me have ever known.
So capture me while I am weakest
I want to know,
I want to know.

Here I am wide open, surrendering to your side;
I have laid down my armour,
I have no sword at my side.
I leave behind me the ruins of the fortress I swore to defend;
I leave behind me foundations;
I'll leave you a man I'll need you to mend.
And through all the battles around me
I never believed I would fight.
Yet here I stand a broken soldier,
Shivering, naked, in your winter light.

Bridges
In the darkness I unravel new truths I have suffered for so long to embrace, they will change me from here on. But I can't share it with anyone; I wish you were with me tonight. When I am not alone I sever silent memories; building bridges with meaningless words, but only feel the distance further. Remember being happy in our silence? I wish you were with me tonight.

I don't need a reason, there's nothing to explain. I can't reproach your leaving to justify my pain. But can I really understand? I wish you were with me tonight.

I read over all you wrote me; the words mean so much more these days. They echo in my soul. They sting me like a burn. Can someone feel too much? I wish you were with me tonight.

(for David)

Faces
I want to be master of my own emotions with a fire that fills me. But I don't understand myself, and I don't know what my heart is anymore.

I don't want to be standing in this war through pity and responsibility. So come into my life with your violence and pain, because I feel the depths of a love I've never known.

Take a hold of my life, make it into one that I want it to be.

Make a whole of my life, make my faces one that I want you to see.

I can't stand to see confusion in your eyes when I drift away sometimes; could I ever be more faithless in my life for all the hope that I've found in these days?

It's always frightened me how some things lose their meaning, how some things change direction with a breeze. Don't ask me where I am - I am trying to come home, but I can't keep myself from drifting.

And sometimes it makes me feel feelings that I never hoped to find.

And sometimes it makes me feel like I'm living out of time.

Echoes
I think of mornings we might spend if I came home to find you there; both talking freely of ourselves, or sleeping through the break of day. And so much honesty - that's why I'd never feel the pain, and in my weakest moments, I'd often look that way again.

I think of evenings we might spend if you stayed home to find me there; reaching across our distance with all the hurt that's in our lives. And if it came to be I would not understand the pain, and in my darkest moments I want to feel that way again.

And I know that I'm wrong, I know that I'm wrong; but casting shadows there's a light that shines on; but when I look into your eyes I know I'll find it there, so I don't understand the pain I thought was never there.

And when I see you smile I know there's something stronger yet than any dream I ever placed at someone's feet.

 

[Ex-User (9062)]

Re: Warning

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kH_M0Z2oIPw

Restless
I can’t see my way when shame is covering my eyes.
Carry a flame for me that I might make it;
Faltering forward as the time.
I can leave no traces
Or I can move the stars in space;
But I can say nothing for the weight of the action that lies like scars upon my face.
But I will say for you anything you need to hear –
I mean it;
Take the longing from these restless eyes
And keep it for as long as you need it.
I mean it;
Take the longing from me.


I won’t see you changing should you remember me somehow.
What in the world would make me feel that way
When nothing on earth would make me now?


All I ever wanted was something that I have never seen.
And all that I ever offered was something that I have never been;
But I will play for you any part you need, my love –
I mean it;
Take the longing from these restless eyes
And keep it for as long as you need.
I mean it;
Take the longing from me.


I can’t make things right, baby
But you know that I will try.
Say that I waited from now till forever;
Say that my tongue should never speak;
Say that I stayed here and lay down beside you;
Say that I buried my mouth in your hair.

Open My Eyes
The places we’ve been to these past seven years seem so far.
And the way that we came to be here, where we are, seemed so hard.
And maybe I’m not in my right to long for peace in your eyes,
But baby, I know you’re not right –
If only the love that you’d feel for me, you’d feel for you.


You made it easy for me to give myself up.
You waited,
You leaned out for me,
And you never changed, did you, my love?
And after the pain came a peace;
Then a happiness like we’ve never known.
So help me to help you and say for me,
After all that you did for me, what can I do?
I could find a way.
I would do anything;
And I would never let you go.
Open my eyes and let me see you shining.


And maybe, one move at a time, you’d learn to love yourself again.
I’d take you in my longing arms and try forever;
Please be happy, my love.
And all of the pain in your life, I’d make it better;
And all that you do, I’d make it matter;
Matter to me and to you.
And in my way I’ve only tried to love you more.
I opened everything –
Now open your eyes.
Can you see me shining?

Between Times
Listen, my love;
Sometimes I’ve never known silence of this kind
The silence of stars
Higher than we’ve ever flown
Carry me over between times.
In your red room on quilted blankets
Laying awake in the low light.
Nothing, I know, can ever be more than now
Gather me up here, between times.


Say for me now that you mean to wait for me
Say for me now that you’ll still be here tomorrow.


But all time is now, and time can do nothing else
Awaken your body beneath mine.
I may get it wrong
And maybe I’ll get it right
Warm and unclose me between times.


And all that I have is all that I’ve ever known
Carry me over
Between times
Between times.

Carry Me Home
Far away from home
And everyone I really know
All at once I find
I'm a stranger even to myself
And like the snow that's falling
I've never been so pure before
Christiania, before I leave you
You'll leave a mark on me

I like the way you smile
I like the way you try to hide
And in my hardest moment
I like the way you seem to read my mind

And what would I not say
To be in that room again
If only for one moment
That you would hold me
In your tiny hand, and I might say
Tomorrow I could find you, and you might take
Something that I thought I could never give away
If just to think I've something more to show

And as I touch the sky
I feel the space I've left behind
So carry me back home
Out on my own, I, like in a living dream
And all the lights of London
Are like a million reproachful eyes
Tomorrow I'll be walking a different city
Beneath a different sky

And what would I not say
If we were in that room again
If only for one lifetime
You would take me
In your tiny hand, to a place
Where I know that I can find you
To a place,
Where everything I've done and I've done has gone away
If just to show me something I don't know

This Alone
Turn your face to the moon;
Let me see you that way.
And the way you appear to me now you’d think the moon would hide for shame.
And though there is fire inside there’s a peace I have never known
As if all of the earth holds her breath underneath the weight of snow.
I’m watching you watch the water, wondering why with every deep happiness there’s some kind of pain.
And these last days I’ve let so much of me away;
But you will always be a mystery to me.
I know that nothing touches you;
Nothing has or ever will.
Like that moon you’re high and far away;
Hold my heart - This alone is heaven.
But it’s more than I can hide.
And the way I feel for you now is something I don’t understand;
Because sometimes, you know, even I feel so old
But you make me feel like I’m just being born.
You make me smile;
You make me know myself;
You make me feel like I’m someone else.
And I’ll hold you here in the back of my mind and I’ll let you go now;
I’m letting you go.
And the night rolls over us with no hesitation.
There’s so much life in me now,
Keep me here.
Hold back time - keep me here;
Keep me here.


If we were alone on this earth,
Or even away from here,
It would be easy to let myself go;
And God knows I want to.