RedsFan2000
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I'll try to make this brief, but I will probably fail.
Edit: I failed
I am a 21 year old college student, junior. I have always been socially, intellectually, and emotionally advanced than 95% of people my age. I taught myself to read at age 4 without my parents' help. I memorized the top 10 tallest buildings in the world at age 6 and the longest rivers in the US at 7. I am very intelligent, but my grades could be much better since I find it a waste of time to put effort into certain assignments when I could be learning a subject that is much more worth my time. I'm actually typing this during my computer science class.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm an INTP.
I often feel overwhelmed by being around immature college students who have lousy senses of humor, poor social skills, and uber-emotional tendencies. I thought people would grow up when they got to college, and I honestly think they have gotten more immature now that the parents are gone. I hate big crowds as the conversations become more immature and "small-talky" as more people show up. Especially with college kids.
I know I sound like an arrogant douchebag already, but I am actually a very humble individual. I am very accepting and willing to give people the benefit of the doubt. I never go out of my way to brag. I treat people who respect me with uber kindness.
You would think maturity and humility would be attractive traits that would draw a lot of people my age to respect me and look up to me. Spoiler alert: it's not.
Most people my age have not been good to me. A lot of people in the past have had a problem with me for seemingly no reason. I have been picked on for my entire life, partially because I'm small, but partially because I think I highlight the insecurities of most other people my age, and even some people older than me.
A lot of my classmates are not happy enough with themselves to give me the respect I deserve. Instead of looking at me and saying, "you know, that kid is awesome" they look and think to themselves (probably subconsciously), "this kid makes me feel bad about myself. I need to bring him down to my level to feel better about myself."
Textbook insecurity. I've put up with it my entire life and it is so unbelievably frustrating. I've gotten this from roommates, co-workers, flight instructors, friends, and so many others. Normally the people who pick on me are within a ~5 year age range of me, usually people that are still trying to figure themselves out.
I want to be socially accepted, but that would require me to be a different person so I don't inadvertently make anyone feel bad about themselves. Not gonna happen. I am already experiencing this a bit with my current roommates, and I am just so tired of it. I can tell some of them are a bit insecure (one in particular) and I can see some conflict on the horizon.
SO...
For those of you who have made it all the way down here after that fucking mouthful...
I am on a quest to be happy. I want to just live my life and be myself, but it is very hard when being myself results in so people having a problem with me. I am very self-conscious. I have a feeling other people on this forum have a similar experience to me, so feel free to leave your input. Thanks.
ok, BYE!
Edit: I failed
I am a 21 year old college student, junior. I have always been socially, intellectually, and emotionally advanced than 95% of people my age. I taught myself to read at age 4 without my parents' help. I memorized the top 10 tallest buildings in the world at age 6 and the longest rivers in the US at 7. I am very intelligent, but my grades could be much better since I find it a waste of time to put effort into certain assignments when I could be learning a subject that is much more worth my time. I'm actually typing this during my computer science class.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm an INTP.
I often feel overwhelmed by being around immature college students who have lousy senses of humor, poor social skills, and uber-emotional tendencies. I thought people would grow up when they got to college, and I honestly think they have gotten more immature now that the parents are gone. I hate big crowds as the conversations become more immature and "small-talky" as more people show up. Especially with college kids.
I know I sound like an arrogant douchebag already, but I am actually a very humble individual. I am very accepting and willing to give people the benefit of the doubt. I never go out of my way to brag. I treat people who respect me with uber kindness.
You would think maturity and humility would be attractive traits that would draw a lot of people my age to respect me and look up to me. Spoiler alert: it's not.
Most people my age have not been good to me. A lot of people in the past have had a problem with me for seemingly no reason. I have been picked on for my entire life, partially because I'm small, but partially because I think I highlight the insecurities of most other people my age, and even some people older than me.
A lot of my classmates are not happy enough with themselves to give me the respect I deserve. Instead of looking at me and saying, "you know, that kid is awesome" they look and think to themselves (probably subconsciously), "this kid makes me feel bad about myself. I need to bring him down to my level to feel better about myself."
Textbook insecurity. I've put up with it my entire life and it is so unbelievably frustrating. I've gotten this from roommates, co-workers, flight instructors, friends, and so many others. Normally the people who pick on me are within a ~5 year age range of me, usually people that are still trying to figure themselves out.
I want to be socially accepted, but that would require me to be a different person so I don't inadvertently make anyone feel bad about themselves. Not gonna happen. I am already experiencing this a bit with my current roommates, and I am just so tired of it. I can tell some of them are a bit insecure (one in particular) and I can see some conflict on the horizon.
SO...
For those of you who have made it all the way down here after that fucking mouthful...
I am on a quest to be happy. I want to just live my life and be myself, but it is very hard when being myself results in so people having a problem with me. I am very self-conscious. I have a feeling other people on this forum have a similar experience to me, so feel free to leave your input. Thanks.
ok, BYE!