Histrionic - Avoidant

[TheManBeyond]

I was reading stuff in celebrity types.
ESFJ were strongly linked to histrionic personality. I thought sometimes and specially with closer people i can become histrionic once a while.
My father who's a clear classic example of engineer ISTJ told me i was clearly an histrionic guy.
I started explaining him how it was his Si-Te attitude what provoked me to act like that. Is like if you don't shake them they won't wake up from their Si-Fi loop.
So i was feeling low contemplating the option of being a shitty ESFJ when i entered in the ENFP page and saw: strongly linked to histrionic personality.
I thought it was a Fe trait. but then i saw this today:

Ne: “The Mind Jumps” - NPs

• They seemingly jump from one topic to another without obvious connection, or interrupt you to say completely unrelated things because something you said reminds them of something else. (Note: this is easier for me to recognize because my Ne is quite strong and I can understand connections behind the ‘mind jump’ other Ne users do.)
• Some NPs are aware of this and will start with “This is completely unrelated, but…”
• They see multiple possibilities and tend to talk in terms of possibilities and use hedging even if they sound confident: “maybe…”, “it’s probably…”, “usually…”, “pretty much”
• They act younger than their age and come off as playful, childlike, and silly.
  (i'm fucking 25, believe it or not)

Indeed i relate 100% to it.



Fe: “The Warmth” - FJs

• Usually very smiley and pleasant throughout the conversation.
• They feel ‘warm’ and accommodating when you interact with them.
• They naturally show socially appropriate non-verbal behaviors, e.g. laughing at a joke because someone told a joke, even if it wasn’t that funny; saying “aww” or make sad faces when you share your disappointment at something, etc.
• They tend to reciprocate actions, mood, and tone of the person they’re interacting with.
• Likely to be uncomfortable with silence because they don’t know what to mirror.

And finally found a place where to lay confortably. Fe you suck.
The only thing that made me doubt was its last trait.
I don't feel unconfortable, but i may think the other person (if i the person is SHE and we are dating, and she's like blablablal) might get unconfortable if we i don't have anything to say. So sometimes, specially with girls i might try to force it. When i do it usually goes worse, it gets really ankward.

I have a friend who's a Fe dom and he just can't stop talking, blablabalabla and i'm like uh yeah, then after some minutes uhh yeah, "what do you think about...." uh yeah, "i already told you" uhh yeah.

So what is this mental problem i have that sometimes i feel like jumping through windows and kicking barrels of wine, morphin into the definitive alpha specimen and licking girls fruits .... then suddenly i'm the most antisocial, out of time and space guy on earth.
It explodes, it doesn't have a constant flow.
I wish i had a more steady inner fire.

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[OrLevitate]

Nah just no one likes u, u could be a lobster and be affed the same by rejection