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Am I on the autism spectrum?

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Since the condition is unique in each person. What about me seems to give it away?
 

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I think almost everyone here is on the higher end of the autism spectrum but not clinically autistic, you're definitely not clinically autistic.
 

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I agree. He's too self-aware for an autistic
 

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Since the condition is unique in each person. What about me seems to give it away?
Absolutely nothing gives me indication of you being autistic other than you telling me.
Sometimes I take a guess or speculate about people on forums.
If I had to guess Id say you have some mild case of hypochondria given that you tend to talk a lot about your illnesses. Even that assuming you are truthful and I do think you are truthful, because why lie about it.

That being said there is the case of Tony Attwood a world expert on autism who did not know his own son was autistic and only found out when he was already an adult that he was autistic. Oh the sad irony in that.

Anyone telling someone a diagnosis over internet is just guessing and speculating, unless he or she is absolute expert and knows how to analyze text on internet.
Even if they are very well trained they would still be guessing just with higher confidence than professionals who never trained to analyze text.

Generally speaking you can visit a professional have him look at you and give you tests and still easily misdiagnose you if they fail to be thorough or fail to make proper observations, which happens a lot more than people might imagine or be comfortable to admit.

 

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I think almost everyone here is on the higher end of the autism spectrum but not clinically autistic, you're definitely not clinically autistic.
Do you know him personally and have seen him interact with people in real life to make that assessment? Have you seen his job history and relationship history and asked him question pertained to that issue to make a assumption like that?
Do you even know what qualifies for clinical?

Why would anyone here be on higher end of autism spectrum?
 

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I agree. He's too self-aware for an autistic
Talking about things does not always indicate awareness of the things.
We can talk about alien life forms, but unless we ever encountered them we can hardly say we are aware of them.
Words carry only meaning if we understand the meaning behind the words.

Does being autistic really mean being not self aware? Pretty sure autistic people have self awareness, and there are lots of other psychiatric labels that have lack of self awareness attached to it.
No one, not even healthy person can be aware of everything. We all have blind spots.
Autistic people often have blind spots and they tend to manifest most in social situations that are more than complicated and require more independent understanding of context etc.
 

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I see autism as your genes/brain forgetting to update it's "social firm/software" and instead doing something else with the space that is used there.

Some ASD, those lucky enough to not be so ill affected or are just smart, know they are different from everyone else by the time they are in high school, and by the time they are in college, they can be quite comfortable with this, even some situations you'd think they would not be comfortable with. They don't necessarily have the stereotypical adverse fear and thoughts to social situations, and they may actually have a lot of emotional intelligence. It's just more challenging to correctly keep up in real-time with how social situations and relationships develop. They might also have the emotional age of a 5 year old their entire lives, which is really resilient to callousing unlike most adults.

Don't take advice from almost perfect strangers. If you do have social aversions/deficiencies they could be caused by anything, or may be intercepted by a different condition that makes things more complicated. So many symptoms of certain conditions are shared with each other there is no way to tell, especially when we likely don't know the questions to ask. We might be really informed on one illness, but get it completely wrong because we don't know how to eliminate the possibility of other illnesses. Social anxiety disorder for example could ostensibly lead other people, and afflicted people to believe they are on the spectrum.

When in doubt, and broke, just write down the things you think are relevant down, especially the negative. Make a list of all the things that bother you. Put it away and don't look at it for a while, then come back to it and reference your notes to a list of conditions that most sensibly matches these worries.
 

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Aspergers has been placed under autism spectrum. Basically in autism, the mind in the baby is like oatmeal. They do not look at faces or socialize because everything in the brain is just mush. In Aspergers, only some of the brain halfway develops in this way. Parts get stuck. This leads to uneven functioning. Hyperfocus in single directions.

In my old videos, I am both stuck and mushy. I called it being shut down.

So I guess that is the reason I ask if it is noticeable.

My brain is partly struck mushy oatmeal.
 

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You're implying you have Asperger syndrome? A lot of them would call you a dumb ass if they read what you just wrote. I don't know if this just because it's the best way to explain yourself in a short period of time or what, but someone with Aspergers would not feel comfortable writing like this.
  • "the mind in the baby is like oatmeal" mind can mean anything, from consciousness to psyche, and then you metaphorically compare it to oatmeal without any direct reasoning as to why.
  • "Parts get stuck" There is no elaboration
  • "They do not look at faces or socialize because everything in the brain is just mush" this isn't an adequate explanation, are you implying that they are smooth-brained or what? Again, there is no direct reason for the comparison and why.
  • "In my old videos, I am both stuck and mushy" You say you are stuck and mushy, like your brain? Please link or dm a video.
  • "I called it being shut down" Maybe there is a connection between shut down and stuck, but certainly not mushy. This is usually what people with traumatic coping mechanisms describe themselves being.
  • "So I guess that is the reason I ask if it is noticeable." Everyone here said no/doubted it and you are completely dismissing it.
  • "My brain is partly struck mushy oatmeal" You're just trying to say that you think your brain is poorly functioning and a low quality.
If I had Asperger I would probably be offended and sad that your lack of self respect made you belittle my existence. One thing for certain is that your are clinically depressed my good sir.

If the learned helplessness has already kicked in please seek solutions if not outright medical help. Something that I know might help is nuero-feedback. If you are this stuck, this will help you get our of negative thinking patterns and emotional self-emulation. It's a shame that's what makes you comfortable... But no, it literally almost teaches you to feel differently. I HIGHLY recommend it for you. Meditation is power on it's own, this gives you a device to measure your performance and feel good about progressing. Please be well.
 

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Do you have a need to tell things as they happen? Or is it more important to make a tale?
 

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Do you have a need to tell things as they happen? Or is it more important to make a tale?

I've done both but on the fly, I just report the facts.
 

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define autism and what traits you have that make you suspect you have it. bold it if you can.
 

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define autism and what traits you have that make you suspect you have it. bold it if you can.

From what I gather it is how the brain uses the eyes and ears. The brain matures a lot slower. Slower crystalization. Slower pruning of unnecessary connections. Sensory data cannot be taken in. Aspergers is the same but crystallization is distributed such that normal development is sparse. The brain is speckled with dense spots.

I have always had tightness in my head and unevenness in how my brain works. Like cracks in cement. For a long time, my brain was like jello. I was all droopy. My eyes are what I think gives it away. I think it begins there.
 

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Being on the internet for most of your waking hours is a pretty well telling sign that you're slightly autistic. Being on the computer for a notably extended period of time means your social world is nonexistent. This means you have handicapped interpersonal relationship skills, or lopsided EQ.
 

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I think it's possible for someone to look like they might be on the autistic spectrum but for that to be an appearance attributable to other factors as a result of nurture. Chronic isolation might make someone develop traits associated with autism, where the underlying issue could be anxiety, for example. When they start treating and resolving that their behaviour might change and you might be less inclined towards seeing them that way. Whereas my understanding is that autism is neurological and who that person is by nature.

I'd be hesitant to say if you're on the spectrum for that kind of reason AK. You come across like you've been isolated for many years, which is easy to appreciate given some of your personal difficulties you've described before. I guess, why do you ask, what do you feel would change for you if you were diagnosed as being on the autistic spectrum?
 

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I guess, why do you ask, what do you feel would change for you if you were diagnosed as being on the autistic spectrum?

I am trying to grasp my situation. I was told I was schizophrenic. I was told I was Autistic. But what do those terms really mean? I can't tell yet and that is what bothers me because I need to know. Because I still have problems. I have a lot of negative feelings that won't go away. I'm walking on eggshells all the time. Never a moment to relax. Now is this mood problem connected to autism or schizophrenia. It's important because if it can't be distinguished it can't be treated properly. When Generalized Anxiety Disorder is compounded by autism or schizophrenia a very distinct difference should emerge. What is anxiety and Autism? What is anxiety and Schizophrenia?

Anxiety would induce stress and hallucinations/delusions. Autism is just being stuck, with extreme frustration. There different.

Now nanook said my doctors may not realize I am schizoid a little. Because I could be neither an autist nor schizophrenic. But it is more than just generalized anxiety disorder. Something is off about me, people notice.

The bottom line is my brain is stuck, I don't know why and the doctors do not know what to do either. I need to get unstuck somehow.
 

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I think generally you need to be active outside your own house. You need to go to restaurants, (I mean, when corona is down), relax and be able to eat, have some chit chat with passerbys and be able to enjoy and soak in nature a bit. Typing things on the computer and wondering what psychological condition you have isn't going to better whatever handicap you have. Understanding doesn't lead to solving problems. Living life does.
 

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I guess, why do you ask, what do you feel would change for you if you were diagnosed as being on the autistic spectrum?

I am trying to grasp my situation. I was told I was schizophrenic. I was told I was Autistic. But what do those terms really mean? I can't tell yet and that is what bothers me because I need to know. Because I still have problems. I have a lot of negative feelings that won't go away. I'm walking on eggshells all the time. Never a moment to relax. Now is this mood problem connected to autism or schizophrenia. It's important because if it can't be distinguished it can't be treated properly. When Generalized Anxiety Disorder is compounded by autism or schizophrenia a very distinct difference should emerge. What is anxiety and Autism? What is anxiety and Schizophrenia?

Anxiety would induce stress and hallucinations/delusions. Autism is just being stuck, with extreme frustration. There different.

Now nanook said my doctors may not realize I am schizoid a little. Because I could be neither an autist nor schizophrenic. But it is more than just generalized anxiety disorder. Something is off about me, people notice.

The bottom line is my brain is stuck, I don't know why and the doctors do not know what to do either. I need to get unstuck somehow.

I'd take people on the internet's diagnosis with a pinch of salt, I don't know how much clinical experience nanook has for example. Likewise, I don't really feel I can say whether you're schizophrenic, autistic or not.

When my ex developed hallucinations and delusions she was diagnosed with some kind of adjustment disorder. Which, as I understand it is where the hallucinations/delusions develop as a result of the build up of acute stress from life circumstances. I don't know if that's true or if she'd have been diagnosed with something else if they'd observed her for longer. But I don't see why the build up of stress and anxiety couldn't cause breakdowns like that to happen. I've at least seen it happen to members of my family (who recovered afterwards.)

If you've been isolated for a long time, or were deprived of developing social skills growing up, then it makes sense your social skills might not be as developed as others who are more socialised. As a result everyday people might find interactions with you to be strange or a bit off. That doesn't say anything bad about you. That could happen as a result of autism or scizhophrenia, I'm just saying I'm unsure you have to be autistic or schizophrenic for that to be the case.
 

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You shouldn't waste your energy interacting with AK. Words on this forum is just data to him, not an actual, organic interaction. People who had issues on this site and have gone off I feel are doing much better in their lives I feel.

Anyway, living this forum as a social arena while giving up the one within his physical locality is a huge no no. He needs to be with people, not think alone off on his computer.
 

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You shouldn't waste your energy interacting with AK. Words on this forum is just data to him, not an actual, organic interaction. People who had issues on this site and have gone off I feel are doing much better in their lives I feel.

Anyway, living this forum as a social arena while giving up the one within his physical locality is a huge no no. He needs to be with people, not think alone off on his computer.

How would you know if they're not here anymore? :curl-lip:

I understand what you're trying to say but AK doesn't come across as a bad person to ignore him. I basically agree with you I can just appreciate that it might be quite hard for AK to do that based on what he's shared on the forum before.
 

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You shouldn't waste your energy interacting with AK. Words on this forum is just data to him, not an actual, organic interaction. People who had issues on this site and have gone off I feel are doing much better in their lives I feel.

Anyway, living this forum as a social arena while giving up the one within his physical locality is a huge no no. He needs to be with people, not think alone off on his computer.

How would you know if they're not here anymore? :curl-lip:

I understand what you're trying to say but AK doesn't come across as a bad person to ignore him. I basically agree with you I can just appreciate that it might be quite hard for AK to do that based on what he's shared on the forum before.

AK isn't a bad person, with that I definitely agree, but coddling his purposeless curiousness (which is just a want for attention, actually, some social interaction) isn't going to better him. Just tough love.
 

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Getting out more is not that simple. I only know my family. I have no friends. For the longest time, I was too tired to get out of bed. Practically speaking the only solution is different anxiety meds to what I have now. I need to stop sleeping during the day.

Practical things relevant to me.
I can socialize but not many places are open, I do not know many places.
The only places I go to are with my mom.

I have a philosophy. If you feel fine it does not matter your situation. What causes me anxiety is cognitive, it is not being able to think. I miss school. It is nice to socialize but without thinking I get anxious. Socializing distracts me from it but I would like some friends to think together. To unblock what hangs up our blind spots.

Blocked thinking is what causes me not to be calm. It is because it feels like I have nothing to do. This makes physical sensations worse. Like in my philosophy all feelings must be fine to be calm. So I want to be calm but I also want to think. It is a struggle keeping calm.

I feel I need to do something this causes anxiety but the anxiety means I am unable to do other things. A vicious cycle. the breaks are on and the gas is on. Uncalmness.

I like to listen to radio shows on the internet. Only listening calms me be watching video does not. The problem is finding the shows. I like good content, not much of it is around.

I guess I just need for now is to go more places with my mom and change my meds. Those are things I can do.
 

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Be proactive. There are options, you just don't feel confident enough to acknowledge them.

I think exercising your verbal skills will help greatly with this, even if it's just online. Get into discord channels, or voice speak apps. There is an infinite amount of them.

Form any type of connection you can, be grateful for the good ones, even if it is one-sided. Remember that you are valuable and can provide value to people, and that you can manifest value to yourself and others.

Don't fall into conspiracy rabbit holes as those attract many of the ill-minded and program them for general chaos. Idk bro, just think of some people as demons meant to sway you the wrong way, because you might meet up with someone who is as or more ill than you who will push buttons on you.

I think you are, but just to be safe, don't assume you are too smart for them. I always get stressed when I see what I think are lost souls, especially those with similar experiences as me. I don't know. When all hope is lost, just remember that you are strong, or whatever effeminate thing I have to say.
 

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You shouldn't waste your energy interacting with AK. Words on this forum is just data to him, not an actual, organic interaction. People who had issues on this site and have gone off I feel are doing much better in their lives I feel.

Anyway, living this forum as a social arena while giving up the one within his physical locality is a huge no no. He needs to be with people, not think alone off on his computer.

How would you know if they're not here anymore? :curl-lip:

I understand what you're trying to say but AK doesn't come across as a bad person to ignore him. I basically agree with you I can just appreciate that it might be quite hard for AK to do that based on what he's shared on the forum before.

AK isn't a bad person, with that I definitely agree, but coddling his purposeless curiousness (which is just a want for attention, actually, some social interaction) isn't going to better him. Just tough love.

Yeah, in retrospect you're probably right, whatever he can do in this area is probably what I'd say to. Good cop, bad cop? :curl-lip:
 

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Be proactive. There are options, you just don't feel confident enough to acknowledge them.

I think exercising your verbal skills will help greatly with this, even if it's just online. Get into discord channels, or voice speak apps. There is an infinite amount of them.

Form any type of connection you can, be grateful for the good ones, even if it is one-sided. Remember that you are valuable and can provide value to people, and that you can manifest value to yourself and others.

Don't fall into conspiracy rabbit holes as those attract many of the ill-minded and program them for general chaos. Idk bro, just think of some people as demons meant to sway you the wrong way, because you might meet up with someone who is as or more ill than you who will push buttons on you.

I think you are, but just to be safe, don't assume you are too smart for them. I always get stressed when I see what I think are lost souls, especially those with similar experiences as me. I don't know. When all hope is lost, just remember that you are strong, or whatever effeminate thing I have to say.
this is good advice
 

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As it turns out, I was talking to my insurance provider who looked at my chart and it said I was diagnosed on the spectrum in 2004. I do not know what it is though. I'd say for me it is feeling stuck and anxious. It is some sort of asymmetry in brain function. Or the network is connected up so that function is offset somehow. Like the network seizes up or is lax in the wrong sequential order.

If the spectrum is a type of network functioning. There should be a way of tweaking it to change the dynamics. Network dynamics need to be looked into.
 

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It turns out that the brain in autism has an unbalanced distribution of cells and higher density than normal. This leads to sensory-motor problems and shutdowns from anxiety and overwhelmingness. They just can't handle the noise.

I can see many of these traits in myself. I am always trying not to be overstimulated so I do not shut down. Also what I describe it as is getting stuck where I just can't think. Being unable to think makes me even more overstimulated. It is like solitary confinement which sucks.

The best I can do is not balance the neuron's distribution but the network functioning.

That is the only way I can stop being overwhelmed and overstimulated by things.
 

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At one time i studied the term. The history. Very intersting. Hans Asberger reqogniced some schitzofreniq patiens didn't fit the hysteric ones. That is a long time ago. Before drilling holes in the brain. Please remain sceptical of what you are told. Psycology, cool as it is, is not excact sciense.
 

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Autism is stuckness. Schizophrenia is too much fluidity. Both produce problems in self-regulation.

My self-regulation is stuck.

Now there is a different form of autism that has to do with the theory of mind.

When theory of mind is impaired they call it autism. But when you are stuck they may or may not call it autism.

Too many things are involved and that is why they call it a spectrum.

That is what Autism is an unbalanced distribution because that produced the variety of results we see.

Some autists have super reflex vision but not the ability to understand people. Some have super imagination to simulate technical systems. Basically Data from Star Trek.

For the people that are stuck but have not social issues, most are classified as Aspergers. The majority of people with real social issues are classed as autistic.

Stuck self-regulation will mean some areas of the brain get used more than others.

Meltdowns are a result of stuck regulation.
 

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I agree. He's too self-aware for an autistic

Actually, I am just meta ;)

But really, you can be self-aware and still be contorted inside.

I have psychosomatic problems that are similar to autism and might just be the same thing.

In fact, I feel numb all the time to my emotions. And being unaware of the inside of my body and head. Just recently I became aware of sound and music in 3D.

So now I pay attention to all of what I am doing at all times to get everything working the way it's supposed to.

The reason I am self-aware-ish is that I am dominant Ni. Brainwaves are uniformly synched up. I detected abstractions like moonlight reflected on a lake. And Te works with the causes behind things. Order to the world.

The thing is that at my center I am not aware.

I guess what I am saying is, "Have you seen any autistic INTJ before".

 

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If one thing stands out from all, it is the way I play with toys that is autistic.

Wikipedia

 

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The only funny thing I find about your assertion is that you keep thinking that you are an Ni-Te user and then you keep coming up with new justifications for the same like a Ti-Ne or Ne-Ti user.

If you have never seen how an INTJ / ENTJ behaves, you should try to find such people. Usually they are a combination of practicality and they are knowledgeable and quite innovative too. However, there reality is grounded in practicality.

Everybody in this forum is speculative, self-doubting and always second-guessing everything as if each mundane thing has grown a new trait every other day.
 

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You shouldn't waste your energy interacting with AK. Words on this forum is just data to him, not an actual, organic interaction. People who had issues on this site and have gone off I feel are doing much better in their lives I feel.
I admire your prudence. However people with depression usually find doing everything difficult. I had to cease a relationship with one of my best friends because his depression was getting in the way of our friendship and there was no self-growth at all.

I think AK should try therapy. I am sure he is already receiving it, however, this one should be more practical and should have him take initiative in little things such small talk, getting out more often or going to gym even for half an hour.

I have seen both kinds of people - recovered and non-recovered depressed. The former tend to be more practical and take initiative after the initial burn out. However, it is also a matter of personality. Usually, the proactive ones are able to get themselves back
 

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System overload causes functional development to be asymmetric.

Autism is a self-regulatory problem.

This is the cause of my odd manerisms.

asymmetric regulation.
 

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My spirits told me you have a form of schizophrenia, and your main issue is difficulty concentrating.
 

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The trouble with theory is that even if you understand theory the theory it self does not mean you have a solution. A doctor that amputates your leg does not have to have a solution for what type of prosthetic you need.
You need to find someone who can get you out of your constant cycle.
You should also tackle your issues one by one.
There is wealth of literature on how to tackle anxiety on the net.
You may find solutions how to reduce your anxiety at least by some small percentage.
Emotional regulation issues can also be tackled at least to some reasonable level.
Schizophrenia as far as I can tell has only two solutions and that is pills or reducing stress and mainly the type of stress that triggers the symptoms of psychosis.
So the best approach is to find someone who is not busy telling you what is wrong with you or figuring out what type of diagnosis you should have, but someone who can tell you what to do in order to live a better life.
You can actually do a lot for yourself too by creating reasonable objectives for yourself.
For example if you have anxiety you can make a list of things you like to do, but have some anxiety in them. First do things that create some level of anxiety, but no so much anxiety that makes you go nuts, but rather type of anxiety that you can handle at least for short period of time. That way you can do stuff for short periods of time eliminate anxiety and in case you feel too anxious you stop and try something different more doable.
Practical solutions are not glorious as theory, but they tend to have much better impact on life than glorious theory.
Also practical solutions take time and work and patience, but you have time and I think you are resilient enough and can work so why not do at least small things for your self in time, before you find someone that can give you advanced help.
Also note that even specialist and experts will usually give you advice that is pretty much almost same as you would have from normal people, only they will know how much you can handle and what really works for you objectively rather than based on raw and unfiltered feedback from people who don't know much.
 

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Autism is a sensory problem. There is extra grey matter. And neurons have extra spines. This means they are extra sensitive to noise signals.

Being sensitive they avoid overstimulation.

Self in autism, auto stimulation.
 

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You always struck me as on the spectrum, but a lot of people here do. If you have a diagnosis then my confidence in that conclusion grows. However, keep in mind that people are clueless about autism, and a lot of the feedback you receive is going to be skewed by valence and ignorance. I know enough to know I don't know enough (and that many people who act like they know don't really understand either).

I think it's important to ask yourself what you intend on doing with your conclusion. Are you going to get help or treatment or radically change your behaviour to compensate for autistic tendencies? You've spent a lot of time trying to figure out which labels to put on yourself, but if those labels aren't useful, then they're not worth pursuing further.
 

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1. I was called autistic and having a vague sense of what that was saught clarity.
2. Having found clarity I know understand how I relate to the spectrum.
3. I am now seeking treatment. I have a referral from my primary doctor and can now set up an appointment.
 

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One way to tell possibly is facial features. Take a photograph of yourself looking straight on with no smile and another while smiling. How symmetrical are your lips and eyes? If one side of the face is less symmetrical either while smiling or not, it means half of the brain did not develop all the way. If one side droops it indicates aspergers, and the other side, indicates autism. (I read that somewhere). Also, prominent forehead, wide mouth, short face between upper lip and bottom of eye. Also extra whorls on the scalp can indicate, ie, if you have hair that sticks up in several places.
 

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One way to tell possibly is facial features. Take a photograph of yourself looking straight on with no smile and another while smiling. How symmetrical are your lips and eyes? If one side of the face is less symmetrical either while smiling or not, it means half of the brain did not develop all the way. If one side droops it indicates aspergers, and the other side, indicates autism. (I read that somewhere). Also, prominent forehead, wide mouth, short face between upper lip and bottom of eye. Also extra whorls on the scalp can indicate, ie, if you have hair that sticks up in several places.

Actually, my ears are not symmetrical. One is lower than the other.

My brother's leg is shorter than the other one. Autism Run in the family?

What happens having an asymmetric brain?
What makes it function different?
 

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No, my face is not symmetrical either and I have the wide long philtrum. I can't find the article now, but half of my face is less responsive muscularly than the other, so I must be at least a little on the spectrum and I have those hair spirals/whorls. I tend to think I have aspergers, but if I do, its a mild form because I function well at work, just not that great socially. But, I am a native Californian trying to adjust to life in Georgia where the cultures are impossible to really understand if you didn't grow up in them and they don't love outsiders much. I'm an outsider except at work where I excel. I have never understood human emotional needs that much, but I'm good at taking care of the physical self, food, shelter, money, but not in conversing or getting the emotional aspect of interactions at all.
Its like I need a framework to even begin to enter that realm, or my framework is very different. Perhaps it doesn't feel safe to interact because most human interaction runs on a different framework? Anyway, no roleplaying for me, it feels fake, I can't do friend, wife, daughter, socializer, aunt, I can only be a free spirit. I like ultra kind people that are inclusive and free to say ANYTHING, ie, logic should win, but in kindness, ie, you can be kind and teaching at the same time, and use some kind of revolutionary framework - sensitive role model that can create that tight knit atmosphere where you feel safe and can reciprocate if you know the rules and feel them. I'm rambling, I don't really know.
 

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Now see, there are so many things that can affect symmetry in a face, but brain stem injury can affect weakness in one side or the other. The author was Forrest Maready. He believes that our vaccines which have heavy metals like mercury or arsenic likely do injure us and cause either aspergers or autism and that it is not so much inherited, but due to vaccines.

Crooked: Man-Made Disease Explained: The incredible story of metal, microbes, and medicine - hidden within our faces.​

Anyway, for more info, can find his books on amazon, youtube or facebook look for Forrest Maready and search for his video under aspergers + crooked face.​

This really just a theory but it seems it could be true?

Here is the video on this: Search for a picture of Bill Gates just to see his face too.
https://fb.watch/a3vIad-ojJ/
 

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The author was Forrest Maready. He believes that our vaccines which have heavy metals like mercury or arsenic likely do injure us and cause either aspergers or autism and that it is not so much inherited, but due to vaccines.

Everyone gets vaccinated.

This means 1 in 2 would be autistic not the 1 in 68 observed.

autism is a neurological problem, neural spine density is too high creating asymmetric development.

anything vaccines do is not autisms but a medical injury. heavy metals and spine density are not the same cause.

As a teenager, I had a very logical mindset. I still walk on my toes. many symptoms in the video I have.

I don't see how my symptoms would be vaccine-related.
 

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I get the report in January.

The test says I am not autistic.

I fluctuate between thinking and feeling. Can't make decisions. Am emotionally dependent.
 
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