Difficult to say, don't think I can identify that feeling very well. I think I might say that my drive to do stuff has been superhigh and that has enabled me to create motivation. I used to have a lot of energy and had difficulty sitting still, so I'd use GAY WEED IN ORDER TO REV UP MY ENGINE AND GO VROOM VROOM VROOM
...ok, so my bf was apparently here while I was making tea.
What I was saying was, that before I got sick, I used to have a lot of drive which I used to my advantage. I might not be motivated to learn about x subject, but since I had a high drive I could use other techniques to motivate myself to learn about subject x.
I always relied on getting into "a mode" to do stuff. I guess there are some things I can kinda enjoy doing, though I wonder if its enjoyment as much as a obsession. Like, I do get a certain type of satisfaction from completionist feel or organized feels, but sometimes they do feel more like obsessions/ hangups, rather than actual enjoyment. Still, I've taken advantage of it and used those feelings to finish stuff like my homework or assignments in college. Like, if I focused on putting everything into a neat order, that would be my motivation. I'd read a chapter and make organized notes. Then I'd rewrite those notes in a better handwriting. Often I'd end up reading the first few chapters and rewrite notes to "perfect" it, to make it more organized. And that was how I got through school.
That being said, if I did go into studying now, I'd want to focus more on understanding something as a whole, rather than memorizing it by using these techniques that allowed for neat notes. I've def changed to where I'm able to take in information and evaluate it, in contrast to being dependent on pure memorization. Not sure how relatable that difference is to others. To me it's significant. Memorizing is something entirely different than understanding something.
I'd say my motivation is highly dependent on my techniques and my ability to put things into a perspective where I in some form is rewarded by doing it.
It's also difficult for me to start doing things I know I'll enjoy. Like when I spent an entire saturday playing 10 hours of witcher 3, then woke up the next day it would always be difficult to pick up the game again. Like, it takes a lot of effort. When starting a new game, I sometimes go to youtube and watch footage and try to get motivated to play that way
I am concerned with treating those around me with some decency, respect, and kindness given they are not a complete lost cause.
One must recognize that there are both good and evil people in the world and knowing the difference between these people is of critical importance. Giving people the benefit of the doubt before you have any information on them is generally well conductive for cooperation and mutual respect. We can learn from each other. Some people are foolish though and their priorities are either accidentally or purposefully for the cause of evil.
So basically I am interested in treating people more than fairly and connecting with people for the benefit of mankind. I am also concerned with living a generally wise lifestyle, but that comes after people.
As I get older I'm being to feel more and more conflicted about what my lifelong goals are.
On the one hand, at the level of day-to-day life, I can't think of anything worse for me than having children. But on the other, I can't think of anything more important to have as a lifelong goal. Everything else (at least things which I consider achievable) are superficial in comparison.
Not sure what the topic means by intrinsic motivation; (I'm guessing things which you really want to do?). I guess that'd be something like listening to music, eating good food, getting together with my SO, and uh... not sure what else. I like writing and playing the guitar too. Chatting up with family members is up there too.
My life goals are to be who I was made to be and to serve whatever purpose I was created for. (watered down version for our atheistic friends ;])
i have no potting clue either, genuinely, i just get lost in thought anytime i attempt to figure out what "winning" as far as it relates to the game is.
i assume there are some hardset prequisites to "winning"
- pick something to work at that matters, roughly translates to something you care enough to learn to do well even if you start off doing it badly.
- have a partner
- have child/children
- elevate the generation that came before you
- setup the next generation to elevate your own generation
at it's most basic this is it, it's what happens with every sport so at some meta level it must be true. i'm likely missing a few things but whatever.
the necessity of child bearing is up for debate but i've seen enough winning athletes with undocumented children to give it a pass, and i accept that the child could just as easily be replaced by a struggling family member with which there's a genuine loving connection for, certainly needs to be unconditional.
that too, love, truly the one thing that supersedes logic in our brains or perhaps it is a higher form of logic(?), certainly an older function than logic if the marine mammals have anything to say about it.
i don't think one can win at the game without discovering love, i would also say one can't win at the game without creating life cause i'm pretty sure those are where the most valuable truths of existence are found.
this can perhaps be replaced with something else of equal value if possible.
it's something like realising your own infinite potential by creating something with infinite potential.
and note that the result of successful creation is always +1 of whatever your current infinite is.
as for "the game" itself, we have constructed a game that is predicated on truth, we have to because we have potential to manipulate reality to our whims. so the only way to keep that in check is to mandate that we tell the truth, and seek the truth.
when we lose at the game our manufacted reality comes undone, all the lies fall away and all that's left is the truth.
when we win at the game there are no lies to fall away.
but of course reality is complex and what is considered to be the truth is always changing, at least from our perspective because we don't actually know what the truth is, we're just bumbling along trying to find it with our unique instinct equipped.
it's very likely that meeting all the prerequisites requires telling the truth, but i have yet to investigate how this works in crime families so i can't be certain.
i am otherwise convinced our instinct is truth.
can you imagine, being there at the primordial soup where life began and picking out the instinct of "truth?"
the other single celled organisms would laugh at you, "what use is that thing boy? at least get an instinct to kill, that one's always useful especially when hungry"
well who the fuck is laughing now.