Vykaus
Noshirt
Sorry about the unfinished post but I have an extreme tendency to throw my sleep schedule into chaos all the freaking time and it's already late for me. Also sorry about the many holes and uncompleted trains of thought but I gotta go. Try and fill in the blanks . Posted because I'm under time constraints to receive replies and I value your opinions even though I've only been here like 4 days. Thanks!
(I was intending to add more about why I want to go into computers rather than psych)
Dramatic title for a dramatic topic... So, I'm due (overdue) to go to college in 2 days and I'm having doubts about my choice of major, as I'm sure many of you can relate. I feel like I already know what answer I'm going to get based on how I'm feeling right now when I write this. I was just crying about the tragic idea of living my life working with computers vs helping people. I haven't cried for myself or my family in a long time so this actually meant something a bit more substantial, at least it seemed so at the time. I usually cry because of beautiful ideas, not people!
quick edit before i go to sleep: i was helping my dad get through some of his issues
Okay, so I feel that I am really good at understanding how people think and temporarily inhabiting the minds of others even if they are like ESFJ's or have strange disorders, perhaps very dull minded or blinded by irrational ideas or insane or basically any kind of reality I can think of. This is largely in part by already personally inhabiting many of these realities, but even if I haven't, I feel like I can create them in my mind. Anyways, I kind of feel like my brain was built to handle this kind of information. Despite this, I feel I can be much more successful (money) using my other talents, maybe happier as well. I wonder, " I can easily not care about people, even my own family.
I feel like I'm choosing between the red and blue pill here. I desperately want the blue pill and I feel selfish about it. A fitting metaphor as I have been wanting to work in virtual reality after some software development work. Also fitting because in the case of working in some sort of psychology profession, I imagine it being a painful, yet possibly rewarding path. I can easily shut this selfish feeling off.
I feel computers give us incredible power.
When helping people with their issues I get a sense of clarity and become calm. Social unease is incredibly lessened, I actually think about this while I'm talking and trying to help someone, which is weird because normally that thought would make me anxious.
So, here are my path choices as I see them:
Work in psychology trying to help people. How many people will I actually help? Will this be a painful path? Will I regret not choosing to get into computers? Will I be happy? Will my pain outweigh my suffering? Do I even care more about other random people than myself?
Work with computers trying to help people/make people happier somehow. How much creative control will I have? Will I regret not getting into psychology?
I absolutely love creating new ideas and new realities. I feel that computers can be an amazing force to help me be successful in this regard. After writing this post, I also realized a possibility of why I enjoy helping people with their problems, because I'm creating their reality in my head. Although this is nowhere near as stimulating as creating completely novel ideas.
I don't want people to need me. I don't want to feel!
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(I was intending to add more about why I want to go into computers rather than psych)
Dramatic title for a dramatic topic... So, I'm due (overdue) to go to college in 2 days and I'm having doubts about my choice of major, as I'm sure many of you can relate. I feel like I already know what answer I'm going to get based on how I'm feeling right now when I write this. I was just crying about the tragic idea of living my life working with computers vs helping people. I haven't cried for myself or my family in a long time so this actually meant something a bit more substantial, at least it seemed so at the time. I usually cry because of beautiful ideas, not people!
quick edit before i go to sleep: i was helping my dad get through some of his issues
Okay, so I feel that I am really good at understanding how people think and temporarily inhabiting the minds of others even if they are like ESFJ's or have strange disorders, perhaps very dull minded or blinded by irrational ideas or insane or basically any kind of reality I can think of. This is largely in part by already personally inhabiting many of these realities, but even if I haven't, I feel like I can create them in my mind. Anyways, I kind of feel like my brain was built to handle this kind of information. Despite this, I feel I can be much more successful (money) using my other talents, maybe happier as well. I wonder, " I can easily not care about people, even my own family.
I feel like I'm choosing between the red and blue pill here. I desperately want the blue pill and I feel selfish about it. A fitting metaphor as I have been wanting to work in virtual reality after some software development work. Also fitting because in the case of working in some sort of psychology profession, I imagine it being a painful, yet possibly rewarding path. I can easily shut this selfish feeling off.
I feel computers give us incredible power.
When helping people with their issues I get a sense of clarity and become calm. Social unease is incredibly lessened, I actually think about this while I'm talking and trying to help someone, which is weird because normally that thought would make me anxious.
So, here are my path choices as I see them:
Work in psychology trying to help people. How many people will I actually help? Will this be a painful path? Will I regret not choosing to get into computers? Will I be happy? Will my pain outweigh my suffering? Do I even care more about other random people than myself?
Work with computers trying to help people/make people happier somehow. How much creative control will I have? Will I regret not getting into psychology?
I absolutely love creating new ideas and new realities. I feel that computers can be an amazing force to help me be successful in this regard. After writing this post, I also realized a possibility of why I enjoy helping people with their problems, because I'm creating their reality in my head. Although this is nowhere near as stimulating as creating completely novel ideas.
I don't want people to need me. I don't want to feel!
As a