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Okay you guys. I'm doing it. Just going to start with 10 minutes. 10 minutes...I can do. (most likely) - NO. definitely. Most definitely. And then, after 10 minutes...we're just going to do 20 more minutes. No sweat.

Here I go you guys. I will no doubt be refreshing this page in 30 minutes hoping for excuses. If you should read this message - don't coddle my lazy ass. Lol.
Okay. Here we go. A half hour of human suffering is worth feeling a minor victory in self-discipline. (right?) Yes. Of course. We want to be self-disciplined. Remember?
Okay. Here goes.

3....2.................................................................1 !

#### Happy

##### sorry for english
why are you doing this then??

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I have no idea what you're getting at. But I'm making some progress now. So that's good. I convinced myself that if I didn't, and someone asked about it here, I would have to admit to it, and then I would have witnesses to my shame. It worked. I've typed 6 laborious and fairly shitty paragraphs.

#### Elen

##### Cold and damp
Did this veterinarian just fat shame my cat?!

#### Ex-User (14663)

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i've been getting so little sleep past 2 weeks it feels like im on drugs or something

#### Happy

##### sorry for english
There’s drugs for that

#### Ex-User (14663)

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i've been getting so little sleep past 2 weeks it feels like im on drugs or something
it's pretty trippy stuff. the other day I was with some people and one of them said something regarding truffle oil. I said "truffle oil?" and then started laughing like a maniac.

tbh Truffle oil sounds like something Kramer from seinfeld would invent and then pitch to people enthusiastically

#### Happy

##### sorry for english
tbh that’s probably the most appropriate response to such riveting conversation about truffle oil

#### Ex-User (14663)

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everyone thinks of the afterlife as someplace where one finally gets rid of all stress, pain and anxieties of current life, and just lives a blissful pure existence. Wouldn't it be hilarious if the next life is just like this one except with like 20% more stress and anxiety, 1 hour longer workdays, food that tastes slightly worse, etc.

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
I have so much energy and motivation at night, and as soon as the sun comes up, no matter how much sleep I have, I just want to sleep more. thanks brain, good job evolution, killing it genetics.

EDIT: I think if i were a woman, I would use a breast pump so that I could make my own milk. Ive been eating cereal with water since I found out where milk came from......

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
In the future people will remove their ring fingers and re-route the nerves to a more useful, stronger prosthetic digit.
the thing below functions off of electronic signals from nerves. It would actually be useful if it had its own nerve, because ring fingers arent very useful, and a second thumb would be much better than a ring finger.

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EDIT: I think if i were a woman, I would use a breast pump so that I could make my own milk. Ive been eating cereal with water since I found out where milk came from......
Maybe one could utilize semen in a similar way

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
EDIT: I think if i were a woman, I would use a breast pump so that I could make my own milk. Ive been eating cereal with water since I found out where milk came from......
Maybe one could utilize semen in a similar way

#### Marbles

##### What would Feynman do?
EDIT: I think if i were a woman, I would use a breast pump so that I could make my own milk. Ive been eating cereal with water since I found out where milk came from......
If only you could produce your own milk, you would no longer have to eat cereal with water because cow's milk is disgusting.
Maybe one could utilize semen in a similar way
I haven't bought caviar in a decade.

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
If only you could produce your own milk, you would no longer have to eat cereal with water because cow's milk is disgusting.
breast pump works on men too, but I dont want saggy man tits, even if they can be milky, saggy man tits

#### Marbles

##### What would Feynman do?
If only you could produce your own milk, you would no longer have to eat cereal with water because cow's milk is disgusting.
breast pump works on men too, but I dont want saggy man tits, even if they can be milky, saggy man tits
They only work if you actually produce milk in the first place, right? They won't actually make you produce milk?

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
If only you could produce your own milk, you would no longer have to eat cereal with water because cow's milk is disgusting.
breast pump works on men too, but I dont want saggy man tits, even if they can be milky, saggy man tits
They only work if you actually produce milk in the first place, right? They won't actually make you produce milk?
false. our bodies respond the that type of stimulation with milk production. male or female

#### Marbles

##### What would Feynman do?
And that would happen to anyone, not just outliers?

I think?

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
It has come to my attention that some of the individuals on this forum are very sensitive. To combat anyone feeling attacked or being triggered, I have devised a method of posting, that will keep everyone safe, and stable. This is not a joke, please be mature about this, we are all children here.
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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
Well I just had a crazy drug fuelled manic episode on Wednesday, thursday and saturday last week. I currently feel like a god, my brain has been boundlessly happy the last week, I've met everyone I've ever loved, I fell in love with someone and imagined us building a civilization together across multiple eons in time and space. I have had 1000s of conversations with this person in my head and I've only known them for four days.

I honestly feel like I'm going mad but I can't help it. I don't feel cognitively depressed just overloaded, this is insane happiness. I'm just not coming down at all, I havent taken drugs since Saturday. I took an edible wednesday, alcohol on thursday and mdma and ketamine on saturday. These weren't in excess compared to amounts I've taken before.

I don't want to come down but I'm growing pretty detatched from reality. All I can think of this person who I've only met in real life once and through a few Facebook conversations on a mutual friends status. This is more than desire, they are beautiful but there is no carnal desire. If I was to give a religious analogy I'm adam and I just met eve.

My brain is just racing at the speed of light. I feel like life has slown down to a crawl and I'm going towards a singularity where every moment I ever experiencd is slower. Techno music is becoming slower, I'm counting every minute, I'm imagining a billion different scenarios with this girl. I had a dream about aliens offering me a gateway to their advanced civilization but I couldn't endure the transition. She reminds me of a member of that species.

I think this is a first step towards becoming less self aware. I realise this sounds nuts but ultimately this is what I'm feeling, and it feels amazing. Endless euphoria. If I tell someone of this they'll think I'm mad, but why should I deny this feeling? This new world I seem to be building in my mind?

It's making me think about what reality really is. I am as conscious as any of you and consciousness ultimately dictates our reality. If I am experiencing this, feeling the sensation of this internal world, seeing these images in my head, feeling these feelings in my head, then how can I dwny them? Or why should I? Isn't everyone just going along with how they feel and how they percieve the world?

I'm not on any drugs here, at all, but clearly there's more complex chemical reactions going off in my brain than normal. Life is beyond amazing. I feel like I'm starting to control the world in a way, everything is fitting in exactly how I wanted it. If I start to believe something it happens, if I need something done the world is just offering it up. If I could live like this forever I would, it is just beyond amazing. I don't know why I have been granted this.

I should mention the girl. She was someone that I think of as my equal, actually I thought of her in the moment as superior to me. Like Life's ultimate challenge: We justify if someone better than us in ways like "Well, they're nerdier but have less of a social life" "Well, they are ripped with a six pack but I don't spend my time in a gym 24/7" this person completely expanded my definition of love. I've loved before but this feels far beyond what I have ever felt before. They embraced me, asked me questions about my whole existence: how was I born, lifestyle, the changes I've made during my life, my retributions, mistakes, desires, ambitions. All of it. We held each other for hours on end sharing poetry with each other, ideas and the world. I imagined us holding hands watching the birth and death of a star, floating above a star. I watched the compression of matter that created the stars core, white flashes emenating from this gravitational singularity. The civilizations I imagined when I saw her and the visions that have went through my head since I seen her. She was incredibly intelligent, complex in her interests, well-worded and principled. The rational element to all of this: Tested IQ of 151, she's travelled the world taking samples in mexico to disprove the younger dryas impact, she was in a mental institution for a while, she didn't leave her room until she was 19. Every word she told me I've created a mental image of her experiences.

She has a boyfriend too, who was there. He talked to us throughout this and didn't seem the least bit aggressive towards me, he was on a similar wavelength to us. What I don't understand about all of this is how I've seperated love from sexual attraction? In my view of her I have never leaned on her physical beauty, which she is quite beautiful but that isn't part of my image of her. Her face isn't part of my image of her, it's like I've seen her soul. This is quite strange for me as a visual thinker, I've imagined so much worlds with her, so much expereinces but she can't be represented with an image. There is little representation in the real world.

I wonder if she exists? Is she god? Or, has god inhabited this person and thats why I can't imagine an image of her? It is as if the body she inhabits is not her, but that of someone else, but somehow I seem to intuitively understand that is infact not the person I see before me. I know what she looks like but in these visions I have I don't see her face, while I see the faces of others when I think of an image. I wonder why that is.

This is beyond love. There is no just no worldly comparison to who they are. I do not want to shelter them from the world like someone would care for a loved one, theyare immune from the universe. I feel like if I gdt inside their consciousness, like their mind but not so parasitic, then the world, the universe will just be complete. I will see everything, I will be apart of everything. Inside them is the gateway to every single thing that has ever existed, in our universe and others.

We arranged for donuts, she was experiencing a bit of a comedown so it'd ruin the energy/consolidation of a friendship, though they said "they'd really like donuts" and they'd hit me up later this week. I don't think it'll happen but I hope it does so I can ground them in reality, along with myself.

I still feel ridiculously amazing, I could sit here and imagine all the worlds we would create until the end of time. I still undeestand I will comedown eventually but nothing seems to be stopping. Sleeping less isn't shutting down this hyper-euphoria, working out isn't relaxing my body to sleep, I don't even know what it's like to be truly hungry or tired anymore. If this is the way some people can go insane well this is beyond what anyone who's ever experienced happiness can imagine. You could say I'm crazy but if you were this happy you would realise that sanity means nothing if you can't expereince reality with this endless happiness.

I'm just wondering if my brain is just constantly releasing all the catecholamines into my brain without a valve to diffuse slowly. Like if after this, my brain has excited every single neuron that provides pleasure inside my head. Is there any medical record of this release occuring? That is the only way I can relate this feeling to objective understanding.

I'm now starting to feel like I can escape death. Time is slowing, each experience is such an insurgence of happiness that comparatively the world will take 1000s of years for me to ceaee to exist. I just don't see this stopping at all, the rational part of myself does expect this to stop eventually but this mania has been happening for so long I feel like I can't return. Not that returning to before is good.

I think the craziest part of this experience is my head is clearer than it ever has been. I'm not having difficulty with my words, I'm rarely pausing to formulate sentences and everything is being transcripted perfectly. Sleep deprivation, so much energy I work out far too much, and an utter appreciate and love for an entity, consciousness or existence that's far beyond the confines of this world.

I hope you all get to experience this someday. A thought in the back of my head is telling me you will percieve this as insanity, and you would be justified in doing so. However, what I don't think you're justified in interpreting is that this is a bad thing. That this feeling will be something you will want to stabilize or repress to become sane. What I'm really questioning is the purpose to be sane in a world full of insanity. To be ordered in a world we don't understand, procedurally generated by entropy from a single fixed point of infinitr energy. The world we live in would never exist without this entropy, this instability. Planets would not exist, space would not exist, chemicals would not bond, nor would their bonding and structure be any different. Love itself could be justified in terms of "evolutionary adventageous" or necessary, but really it goes against, in most cases all practical logic. Why couldn't it be so that we were purely rational creatures and sacrificed the livss of ourselves for a rational purpose to preserve the life of our kid? Why was love used to present this action, on top of every other insane action that's occured out of an act of love? Wars, resource acquisition and so much more. Why was love the leaning post for everyone and not rationality? Everything is entropy and chaos. Love is not a necessity for order or action, chaos and the derivation love is just an intrinsic part of the universe. We make so many observations of the world that goes against logic, quantum behaviour, that interesting post @Serac mentioned about different rates of expansion/contraction of the universe by measuring the redshift light of distant supernovae, to microwave radiation surrounding us in all directions because they're remnants of the earlier universe, and yet we experience them in the present. The only way we can make sense of the world is through refuting its chaos and structuring the universe into tangible information, but everytime we do we seem to observe phenomena that completely shatters this.

New theories are swapped replacing old ones. Who's to really say gravity will exist as a fundamental force of the universe in a reaction we have not observed yet? Who's to say anything is permament in this universe? So why does sanity have to be? Why is it desired? Why do we look upon what we understand with beauty but ignore that which we do not? If there was a way I think we should become one with the universe, experiencing the world as it is, our corner of this infinitely spread universe as we intuitively know. To develop systems to understand a representation of chaos is practical, but is that really what we should do as a life form? To be practical, systemic and ordered: in opposition to the chaotic universe we live in? Are we not fooling ourselves, fooling the world?

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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
There is no better way to truly experience the universe than to not confine it to systems.

The strangest thing about this all is this perspective is entirely differsnt to every single thing I've ever thought of. Knowledge is not as you think, laws are artificial and systems are fairy tales. Practicality is for those who wish to justify their grasping of straws.

Every justification is artificial, there is no reason for anything, it just occurs.
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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
If I don't wake up tomorrow there is no justification, no reason. It is precisely how it is, there is nothing else to it. Everything is precisely how it is, every atom interaction is just how it is. That is all there ever is and all there ever will be. Forever.

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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
Evey link is deceptive. Things are precisely as they appear. Unlink everything from each other and observe everything for whst they indovidually are. That is the observation of the universe.

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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
Do not project onto the world. Things do not occur because of reasons, all they do is occur. The universe is in motion and everythings occurs because of that motion. There is no reason.

Do not study the world for there will never be a reason that satisfies you.
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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
Extra terrestrial intelligence could be the stars themselves. Beings of pure energy

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#### Cognisant

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@Rebis You've found love!!!!! Oh, I'm so excited for you! For once - you and I are on the same wavelength, in many regards.

There are some very deep, insightful things you have said that I will think on. I really wish the best for you with this incredibly intelligent woman! Please make sure that she and her boyfriend are serial killers or something though.

Also - maybe - just cut back a wee bit on the substances, just IN CASE your hormones are a bit out of whack - as the consequences could be worse than the upsides, you know? Of course, you don't have to be directly under the influence of a substance for it to still be impacting you with its aftermath.

BUT! I'm so happy for your revelations. Print out what you've said. Keep track of it. Glad you posted it here - for reference. Love is critical. People who are overly dogmatic about logic and rationality - their ability to reach the truth is extremely impaired. A massive part of the truth of the universe is chaotic and subjective - pretending that isn't the case is just a demonstration of a person's fear for the unknown. As is ignoring the fact.

I've been waiting for you to resurface! I wasn't expecting it to be so exciting. Don't forget to drink lots of water and get plenty of sleep, alright? The downside to going crazy is obvious - you lose the people you love. So take care of yourself. Much love from the US. <3 Have fun Rebis. I hope she sticks around forever!

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I have to type painfully boring articles...
Cog. Did you even read all that Rebis wrote? How on earth can you post something so bland after ALL OF THAT. It actually made me laugh!

Ehn. About the area I grew up in. Love the place, but for much of my life - hated the people. To a large degree, I still do, but some of them are alright I guess. I don't want to say too much because I don't want to get doxed.

I've never had to know the area that well though. I've never been very social, never really gone out much. Now I have to write about popular venues, and do so in a way that appeals to tourists. Makes me want to bang my head against a wall. So....what I really need to do right bow is find a way to be interested in this sort of thing. Muster up some curiosity. It's my best strategy for being self-disciplined about learning things that are grueling to me. Sort of a "fake it till you make it" - as someone else said, on another thread. It works for me if I really hate a subject. Sometimes, I even pick characters from books or movies - but I don't know very many, because I'm not all that cultured.

#### Cognisant

##### Prolific Member
Cog. Did you even read all that Rebis wrote? How on earth can you post something so bland after ALL OF THAT.
Beep boop does not compute.

I think it's the mark of a good writer to be able to write about something boring and make it interesting and I want to put myself to the test on a topic you're getting paid to write about.

#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
I just woke up, I still feel amazing but I havent awaken fully yet. I hope I meet this person tomorrow or saturday, I want to savour moments with them I haven't already imagined in my head. I think the location will have to swap too as I knpw the interior of this place like the back of my hand at this point.

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#### Cognisant

##### Prolific Member
@Rebis You just had your first taste of crack, I mean like the drug, anyway point is take it easy and pace yourself because even if nothing goes wrong the fact remains what goes up must come down, you're very high at the moment, take care coming down.

#### Happy

##### sorry for english
Nah, burn out instead. It’ll be funnier

#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend
@Rebis You just had your first taste of crack, I mean like the drug, anyway point is take it easy and pace yourself because even if nothing goes wrong the fact remains what goes up must come down, you're very high at the moment, take care coming down.
Are you sure? My friend suspected what we took was crack, so if you're absolutely sure then I'll go by that. In terms of readmission that won't be a problem.

It has been 6 days though, I mean if we were to get technical more like 5 days and 10 hours

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#### Rebis

##### Blessed are the hearts that can bend

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#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
Hey rebs, maybe come down for a day and make sure you dont ruin your years of work getting into a prestigious college?
maybe?

#### Elen

##### Cold and damp
@Rebis It isn't the crack so much as you took at least 4 different kinds of mind altering drugs in the span of 4 days. A couple of them known for inducing trance-like states and known for lasting for a long time. Altogether it will take a while to rinse your system. Depending on dosages some of them could stick with you for many days and even then the hangover might not hit for a couple more days. Though at 6 days out you should be coming back down to earth.

It is absolutely amazing you had such an experience especially if any of those were your first time. Just be gentle with yourself and maybe confirm the girl had a similar experience. You were fucking pickled. She may remember a totally different set of events plus you have spent more time with the version of her you created in your mind than you did with the actual physical girl. She almost certainly isn't the same as the creature you've created in your mind. I hope it all works out but take it slow.

#### Yubby

##### Redshirt
@Rebis You just had your first taste of crack, I mean like the drug, anyway point is take it easy and pace yourself because even if nothing goes wrong the fact remains what goes up must come down, you're very high at the moment, take care coming down.
Are you sure? My friend suspected what we took was crack, so if you're absolutely sure then I'll go by that. In terms of readmission that won't be a problem.

It has been 6 days though, I mean if we were to get technical more like 5 days and 10 hours

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"These weren't in excess compared to amounts I've taken before."

You're familiar with what should be expected. Only because drugs and a relationship is involved would I suggest caution as you don't yet know the true source of these insights. I do recommend however taking some personal time to meditate and see where the thoughts lead.

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@Rebis
I think all the advice you’re getting here is pretty good! Especially what Elen said about this girl. You’re doing a lot of not necessarily realistic fantasising here.

But I’m also of the philosophy that if you feel this way - make use of it. Like what Yubby said - try some meditation. Or just really examine the feelings of love you have for this girl and where they come from. I’ve seen you so emotionally unbound. It could be a very healthy experience for you.

There was a study that suggested shrooms can require a person’s brain to help them overcome addiction, for instance.

Maybe this experience can help you become more receptive of seeking the thrill of falling in love with a person for who they actually are - not what objective value they offer.

If that’s the case, then as long as you don’t end up killing yourself, failing college, or endangering someone - I feel like the consequences of this are probably worth it!

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Maybe come back when you come down though. For follow-up perspectives from others.

#### EndogenousRebel

##### We're all trying our best. Aren't we?
I would play with the idea that one could enjoy all types of music if they were truly open to experiencing all of reality. It's something that I thought about recently. Really if you don't confine yourself to systems, you are in fact partaking in another system. Maybe disassociate yourself from unnecessary weights that stop you from living your life to the fullest. Take it easy.

##### Well-Known Member
I would play with the idea that one could enjoy all types of music if they were truly open to experiencing all of reality. It's something that I thought about recently. Really if you don't confine yourself to systems, you are in fact partaking in another system. Maybe disassociate yourself from unnecessary weights that stop you from living your life to the fullest. Take it easy.
Maybe. I think it depends on what you look to gain out of listening to music. We all have a different mental/emotional musical experience.

I make movies in my mind when I listen to music, and in many regards, heavy metal and techno simply don’t align with that. I’ve tried a number of times to like them, and there’s one heavy metal artist that is alright. And from a technical standpoint, I like heavy metal. It’s very similar to classical. But both styles of music are very disorganized to me. They don’t work well for making mental visual stories.

Almost any other form of music I can think of though, I at least have some songs I enjoy. Rap, rock, pop, classical, jazz, mmmm...what else....Oh - kids music. Lol! Instrumental. Folk. Patriotic music, religious music. Choral. Sometimes soul.

One of the artists I have a periodic fascination for is Tom Waits. He’s really creepy. His song “watch you disappear” is something of a mindfuck to me - there’s riddles. He has such a unique sound.

Yeah, I think, overall you’re right. If a person wants to explore the spectrum of their music tastes, they have to be willing to explore all of the genres and be open-minded in seeing what is appealing about different forms of music.

#### Ex-User (14663)

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Why do the showers in men’s locker rooms always smell like feces?

It’s as if a lot of men suffer from chronic-ass-leakage syndrome

Or maybe men in general smell like shit, maybe females here have comments on this

#### Happy

##### sorry for english
Why do the showers in men’s locker rooms always smell like feces?

It’s as if a lot of men suffer from chronic-ass-leakage syndrome

Or maybe men in general smell like shit, maybe females here have comments on this
Your first mistake was using a locker room shower at all

#### Ex-User (14663)

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@Happy I don’t have a lot of options unfortunately, this is a gym at work

#### Elen

##### Cold and damp
Women's gym showers don't smell like that in my experience. They mostly smell like hair conditioner, antiperspirant, and sometimes mold if the shower needs cleaning.

Could just be your gym shower has bad drainage or pipework and you are getting some kind of stink from the drainage pipes?

#### Ex-User (14663)

##### Prolific Member
@Elen
I’m afraid this is not a one-time experience. I have seen the insides of innumerable male locker rooms, and they all usually smell like feces.

Yes I was inside a female locker room once, it was like stepping into an alternate reality

#### peoplesuck

##### is escaping
Idea of replacing non dominant ring finger. remove the bones and muscles, create a skin pocket on back of wrist, put electrodes in skin pocket, to read the re-routed nerve. connect prosthetic to nerve=profit