Mystery_guest
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- Dec 9, 2010
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Subject: For Zeldon's Eyes only
Since I know all of you will read this, I am "MunkySpanker's" friend posting this on his behalf.
His purpose is to reach out to Zeldon, to let him know about www.indigosociety.com -- where he might find a more understanding group of people. Please do not delete this post, as MunkySpanker just wants to help a fellow brother in need.
the below is in MunkySpanker's own words.
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Friends, I am truly sorry I offended when I got here. LPolaright, thank you for understanding me, even if I came off as a cocky asshole. That's just how I am. But, you know guys, I was one of those socially awkward rejects, nerd, if you will. More of a black swan type. All my friends growing up were the reject type. Because I was one myself. I don't know if any of you could understand the subtlety in my words. I don't know if anyone even cared to understand.
I believe most people in life are too self-absorbed in their own worlds to be empathic. It was a cry for attention of sorts, I was going through one of my depressed stages of my bipolar, and mixed with a little mania, because I was going through a mid-life crisis of sorts and had just found out about this whole personality mumbo jumbo.
I'm sorry if you FELT insuted, because that was NOT my intent. There is a big difference between INTENDING to insult someone and ACTUALLY insulting them. One is intent and the other is perception from the receiver. I cannot control how you receive my words -- and I'm sure when I used emotionally charged words such as "nerd" -- it probably evoked some strong emotions, and to that point, I am very sorry.
I come off everywhere as tactless and rude.
But -- to my bestest of friends, we insult each other to no end, call it "busting each other's balls" if you will.
I am sorry I did not "follow the unspoken rules" of not posting for a week to get acclimated to the rules. I assumed the forum might be a little less fraternity like and a little bit more open to new people, new ideas, etc. I guess as Bruce Willis puts it, "assumptions are..." well you know how the rest goes.
However, I quickly found out there is a hierarchy system, and a select few who you are not supposed to go head-to-head with like Anthile.
Anthile "insulted" me when i first got here -- he accused me of NOT being an INTP right off the bat without even saying "hello" or introducing himself... as he probably did not mean to insult my intelligence, I perceived it that way and reacted accordingly -- aggressive reaction because I took many tests that said i was INTP -- so to have someone right off the bat say I wasn't was a big insult to my time and intelligence.
No -- MunkySpanker (referring to myself in the 3rd person) is not a re-troll. I was a brand new member just looking to fit in somewhere. I am very sorry I rubbed all of ya'll the wrong way.
It hurts a little bit, okay A LOT to be misunderstood. I've been that way my whole life, and thought that maybe people with the same personality might understand me.
Nope. Hey, maybe I'm not an INTP afterall, like Anthile accused me of not being when I made my first thread.
So -- I hopped over to INTJforum.com and got banned too within a couple days. I guess I must've just gotten what I wanted at the end of the day.
I hope you all can believe me when I say I was just trying to be funny, make some friends who might understand what I'm going through.
And, the last thing I wanted to do was insult people and make them feel like crying.
Anyways, to my friend Zeldon -- I keep coming back and reading your posts and getting sad because no one understands you as well. I do.
To the forum, as you may not believe, I do think you are some of the smartest group of people I have met... although not too understanding and very clique-ish -- portraying the very traits of the bullies you've spent your whole life hating. Creating a tree-house for yourselves.
Please, if I can do you a favor, allow this incident to act as a mirror for all the people that have wronged you. Because I felt wrongly banned. Maybe not wrongly, in your opinion, as I did cause ruckus, derail threads, etc., etc. But, let it be a simple lesson that fuel feeds the fire. No one had to respond to my threads, and words, spoken as well as written, are easily ignored if one chooses to ignore. On the other hand, if you choose to let words get to you, they will.
Thank you for listening to me this time around and I do wish ya'll the best. I will still be a periodic lurker, as I do value your insight and opinion to worldly matters even if you do not wish to have my feedback any longer.
Sincerely,
MunkySpanker
p.s. *cry
Since I know all of you will read this, I am "MunkySpanker's" friend posting this on his behalf.
His purpose is to reach out to Zeldon, to let him know about www.indigosociety.com -- where he might find a more understanding group of people. Please do not delete this post, as MunkySpanker just wants to help a fellow brother in need.
the below is in MunkySpanker's own words.
-----------------------------------
Friends, I am truly sorry I offended when I got here. LPolaright, thank you for understanding me, even if I came off as a cocky asshole. That's just how I am. But, you know guys, I was one of those socially awkward rejects, nerd, if you will. More of a black swan type. All my friends growing up were the reject type. Because I was one myself. I don't know if any of you could understand the subtlety in my words. I don't know if anyone even cared to understand.
I believe most people in life are too self-absorbed in their own worlds to be empathic. It was a cry for attention of sorts, I was going through one of my depressed stages of my bipolar, and mixed with a little mania, because I was going through a mid-life crisis of sorts and had just found out about this whole personality mumbo jumbo.
I'm sorry if you FELT insuted, because that was NOT my intent. There is a big difference between INTENDING to insult someone and ACTUALLY insulting them. One is intent and the other is perception from the receiver. I cannot control how you receive my words -- and I'm sure when I used emotionally charged words such as "nerd" -- it probably evoked some strong emotions, and to that point, I am very sorry.
I come off everywhere as tactless and rude.
But -- to my bestest of friends, we insult each other to no end, call it "busting each other's balls" if you will.
I am sorry I did not "follow the unspoken rules" of not posting for a week to get acclimated to the rules. I assumed the forum might be a little less fraternity like and a little bit more open to new people, new ideas, etc. I guess as Bruce Willis puts it, "assumptions are..." well you know how the rest goes.
However, I quickly found out there is a hierarchy system, and a select few who you are not supposed to go head-to-head with like Anthile.
Anthile "insulted" me when i first got here -- he accused me of NOT being an INTP right off the bat without even saying "hello" or introducing himself... as he probably did not mean to insult my intelligence, I perceived it that way and reacted accordingly -- aggressive reaction because I took many tests that said i was INTP -- so to have someone right off the bat say I wasn't was a big insult to my time and intelligence.
No -- MunkySpanker (referring to myself in the 3rd person) is not a re-troll. I was a brand new member just looking to fit in somewhere. I am very sorry I rubbed all of ya'll the wrong way.
It hurts a little bit, okay A LOT to be misunderstood. I've been that way my whole life, and thought that maybe people with the same personality might understand me.
Nope. Hey, maybe I'm not an INTP afterall, like Anthile accused me of not being when I made my first thread.
So -- I hopped over to INTJforum.com and got banned too within a couple days. I guess I must've just gotten what I wanted at the end of the day.
I hope you all can believe me when I say I was just trying to be funny, make some friends who might understand what I'm going through.
And, the last thing I wanted to do was insult people and make them feel like crying.
Anyways, to my friend Zeldon -- I keep coming back and reading your posts and getting sad because no one understands you as well. I do.
To the forum, as you may not believe, I do think you are some of the smartest group of people I have met... although not too understanding and very clique-ish -- portraying the very traits of the bullies you've spent your whole life hating. Creating a tree-house for yourselves.
Please, if I can do you a favor, allow this incident to act as a mirror for all the people that have wronged you. Because I felt wrongly banned. Maybe not wrongly, in your opinion, as I did cause ruckus, derail threads, etc., etc. But, let it be a simple lesson that fuel feeds the fire. No one had to respond to my threads, and words, spoken as well as written, are easily ignored if one chooses to ignore. On the other hand, if you choose to let words get to you, they will.
Thank you for listening to me this time around and I do wish ya'll the best. I will still be a periodic lurker, as I do value your insight and opinion to worldly matters even if you do not wish to have my feedback any longer.
Sincerely,
MunkySpanker
p.s. *cry
