QuickTwist
Spiritual "Woo"
I'm fucking sick of being the odd man out. Every fucking place I go, people treat me like I'm fucking elephant man. God sucks eggs.
I haven't noticed anything about the way in which you receive responses compared to other users and I have only seen you in the context of this medium so my date is limited. Perhaps it's a perception issue in regards to how you're seeing yourself?
Also this forum tends to attract people who don't 'fit in' easily or feel particularly at ease in social situations. I know I don't, or even feel I can connect with people here in a number of ways. I can also see a lot of these disparities as being mutual and don't feel alienated by them. I may be sipping from the wrong vessel here but what are your thoughts on this? If it's something else altogether then where do you think these disparities are emerging?
What evidence can you provide to support your final statement of God sucking eggs?
Fixed title.
Do you feel this way about everywhere including this forum, or excluding this forum?
I just feel utterly rejected by society as a whole
and its no wonder I can't drag myself out of the house to go to a "party" or some shit.
This introversion thing is really a kick in the nuts.
Also, Sensors make no fucking sense whatsoever. Same with feelers.
I can get along ok with Judgers and perceivers. Anyways, there is clearly some other shit I am going through that I can't nail down and deal with at this time, which is also a kick in the nuts.
I don't have friends because I can't for the life of me, bring myself to actually care to do small talk, even enough to get to know people, its just shit.
No one gets my jokes either, but the worst part is Everyone fucking loves me at the place I volunteer at, but I've already failed pretty hardcore at making friends with anyone there cuz I don't give a shit about shooting the breeze so people ask me yes no questions like its actually going to amount to anything.
Plus, I generally don't like people, but still feel this irrational need to want to connect with people, which as I mentioned, isn't happening currently.
I mean, fuck, I should have realized that I was a social retard when my friend asked why I liked (and silently judged) certain bands/songs that he fucking owned and acted like I was a leper for having that taste in music. Oddly enough (or maybe not) he types himself as INFJ, and I'm actually pretty sure he could fit that bill. Weirdest guy I have met irl hands down.
IDK, I had an appointment with my psychologist today and maybe this is actually a breakthrough I am having, but fuck if it isn't painful now. He said I should do whatever necessary to engage with the outside world more. I tried another site (as well as work)
with no luck or no progress today. The other site is full of sensors who don't even fucking acknowledge me.
I mean when it came to the type thread (on the other site) no one thought I was a iNtuitive,
but clearly with the way they talk about celebrities I feel like I am literally getting dumber listening to them. No one gives a shit about big ideas (however impractical) and the best thread I have come across there talking to people who are not as low brow was a God thread... and even then I didn't see a single thing I haven't seen before... really depressing.
No offense to this site, but I feel this site is also somewhat of an offender of lack of new content (far better than the new one though, or at least, the info here is actually interesting to read and there are some really good threads too).
I don't want to come off as ungrateful for people's thought on this. There's still something that is going on in my psyche, but its not just about being the odd man out. I keep having these very strong premonitions about life (in general) and how utterly small we are compared to the cosmos. Like I literally "felt" the weight of the idea that we are so insignificant its not even funny. It was kinda terrifying tbh. I also felt the knowledge that once we die, that's it, game over, and its was a very eye opening experience. It always happens the same way: I am laying down trying to sleep and suddenly these premonitions come to me.. Its weird.
But again, I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and wishes for well being, it is appreciated.
I don't want to come off as ungrateful for people's thought on this. There's still something that is going on in my psyche, but its not just about being the odd man out. I keep having these very strong premonitions about life (in general) and how utterly small we are compared to the cosmos. Like I literally "felt" the weight of the idea that we are so insignificant its not even funny. It was kinda terrifying tbh. I also felt the knowledge that once we die, that's it, game over, and its was a very eye opening experience. It always happens the same way: I am laying down trying to sleep and suddenly these premonitions come to me.. Its weird.