Emil-san
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Hello guys (and girls). I want to start off by saying that I'm not sure if I'm an INTP at all, which is why I'm here, really. It sounds confusing, but I'll explain from the beginning.
I first found out about these types of personalities, and the test used for determining them, a couple years ago. I was linked from a thread on a tricking website, Trickstutorials (irrelevant, probably) When I did it, I got ESTJ.
I didn't think much about that (mostly because I didn't know what it meant), until a few years later (about 3 months ago) when the subject came up again on the same website. I did the test again, and got ENFP this time. The results confused me, because I remembered what I got the last time I did it. So i started some digging, reading about the different types etc. I still didn't identify myself with any of the ones I got, not much, at least. Which confused me even more. But I still saw everything as kind of.. like.. random, and not too serious, like a facebook quiz.
But then, when we hade kind of a "psychology" hour in biology class (human behaviour and stuff like that, always interested me) and I realised that it was accurate and serious (apologies for probably not finding the appropriate adjectives, english is not my first language). We did the test again, and I got INTJ this time. After checking out INTJ characteristics, I started thinking about WHY i got so vastly different results. I came up with a little idea that I might have imagined different situations, or the same situations differently (considered more possibilities, involving any hypothetical other persons emotions etc. Basically viewed from a different angle) every time I did the test (mind you, this is just my theory, I can't remember everything from a couple years back). So I read about EVERY types characteristics, trying to see which one I identified with the most. I realised that I don't really identify with anyone, but still with everyone.
The one I felt most attracted to was this one though (INTP), which is why I came here for help. Since then, I've made many other, more specific personality tests. For example, I did a only extroversion/introversion test. Imagine my suprise when I got the results "Congratulations, you are an ambivert". This probably explains a lot, I thought. For one, why I got extremely high on the Interpersonal and linguistic "intelligences" in the multi intelligence test (on mypersonality.info) while I got the type INTP on the personality test on the same site. Perhaps the questions where phrased differently in the tests, causing responses in my extrovert side in one of them, and my introvert in the other.
So, my theory is that I'm almost "ambi" in every cathegory of the test. Smack dab in the middle between introvert and extrovert, sensing and intuitive (though slightly more intuitive) thinking and feeling (though slightly more thinking), perceptive and judgemental. (though slightly more perceptive) (The "slightly more" sides probably explains why I'm more drawn to this, INTP)
I should probably explain how this correlates to the "real-world me". I have many friends, and I like social situations. But they make me exhausted, and I'd rather spend time with a few, close friends. I'm very introspective at times, but when I set my mind to it, I'm really good at observing details, sensing emotions, notice peoples clothing and so on. But the emotions I observe, I don't generally care about, due to my thinking side. Unless they evoke my empathy or guilt, which are incredibly strong in me, which indicate that my feeling side is also pretty strong. I make sure to dress elegantly and appropriately, because I want people to notice me. I'm a good conversationalist, but conversations tend to bore me, especially with stupid people, who I have a hard time being around. I really care how I look, I'm pretty athletic and popular in school and so. Everyone tend to call me critical and cynical though, but sometimes they think I'm really happy and outgoing. I live for useless facts and stuff like that, I have a vivid imagination, and I'm generally pretty distracted. I do enjoy order though, somewhat, my bookshelf is neat, and books are arranged by size and genre. But when it gets "too much" (like on my computer desktop), everything turns into a cluttered mess.
When I now read what I've written about my jumbled personality, I'm starting to realise why I can identify with no one, and everyone at the same time. Also why I always try to be as objective as I can (ooooften questioning my own standpoints as well as my "opponents", for example)
So what do you all think about me? Do I deserve to be here? Should I be put in the psychiatric ward? What/Who am I really? Anyone have any useful tips or advice? Is there anyone else like me? Or do you just want to say hello and welcome, I'd be fine with that, too. (Wow, what a horribly long introduction, now you guys probably know more about me than anyone else in the world, including my parents, and best friends ect.)
Please excuse any spelling errors and similar.
Love, Emil
I first found out about these types of personalities, and the test used for determining them, a couple years ago. I was linked from a thread on a tricking website, Trickstutorials (irrelevant, probably) When I did it, I got ESTJ.
I didn't think much about that (mostly because I didn't know what it meant), until a few years later (about 3 months ago) when the subject came up again on the same website. I did the test again, and got ENFP this time. The results confused me, because I remembered what I got the last time I did it. So i started some digging, reading about the different types etc. I still didn't identify myself with any of the ones I got, not much, at least. Which confused me even more. But I still saw everything as kind of.. like.. random, and not too serious, like a facebook quiz.
But then, when we hade kind of a "psychology" hour in biology class (human behaviour and stuff like that, always interested me) and I realised that it was accurate and serious (apologies for probably not finding the appropriate adjectives, english is not my first language). We did the test again, and I got INTJ this time. After checking out INTJ characteristics, I started thinking about WHY i got so vastly different results. I came up with a little idea that I might have imagined different situations, or the same situations differently (considered more possibilities, involving any hypothetical other persons emotions etc. Basically viewed from a different angle) every time I did the test (mind you, this is just my theory, I can't remember everything from a couple years back). So I read about EVERY types characteristics, trying to see which one I identified with the most. I realised that I don't really identify with anyone, but still with everyone.
The one I felt most attracted to was this one though (INTP), which is why I came here for help. Since then, I've made many other, more specific personality tests. For example, I did a only extroversion/introversion test. Imagine my suprise when I got the results "Congratulations, you are an ambivert". This probably explains a lot, I thought. For one, why I got extremely high on the Interpersonal and linguistic "intelligences" in the multi intelligence test (on mypersonality.info) while I got the type INTP on the personality test on the same site. Perhaps the questions where phrased differently in the tests, causing responses in my extrovert side in one of them, and my introvert in the other.
So, my theory is that I'm almost "ambi" in every cathegory of the test. Smack dab in the middle between introvert and extrovert, sensing and intuitive (though slightly more intuitive) thinking and feeling (though slightly more thinking), perceptive and judgemental. (though slightly more perceptive) (The "slightly more" sides probably explains why I'm more drawn to this, INTP)
I should probably explain how this correlates to the "real-world me". I have many friends, and I like social situations. But they make me exhausted, and I'd rather spend time with a few, close friends. I'm very introspective at times, but when I set my mind to it, I'm really good at observing details, sensing emotions, notice peoples clothing and so on. But the emotions I observe, I don't generally care about, due to my thinking side. Unless they evoke my empathy or guilt, which are incredibly strong in me, which indicate that my feeling side is also pretty strong. I make sure to dress elegantly and appropriately, because I want people to notice me. I'm a good conversationalist, but conversations tend to bore me, especially with stupid people, who I have a hard time being around. I really care how I look, I'm pretty athletic and popular in school and so. Everyone tend to call me critical and cynical though, but sometimes they think I'm really happy and outgoing. I live for useless facts and stuff like that, I have a vivid imagination, and I'm generally pretty distracted. I do enjoy order though, somewhat, my bookshelf is neat, and books are arranged by size and genre. But when it gets "too much" (like on my computer desktop), everything turns into a cluttered mess.
When I now read what I've written about my jumbled personality, I'm starting to realise why I can identify with no one, and everyone at the same time. Also why I always try to be as objective as I can (ooooften questioning my own standpoints as well as my "opponents", for example)
So what do you all think about me? Do I deserve to be here? Should I be put in the psychiatric ward? What/Who am I really? Anyone have any useful tips or advice? Is there anyone else like me? Or do you just want to say hello and welcome, I'd be fine with that, too. (Wow, what a horribly long introduction, now you guys probably know more about me than anyone else in the world, including my parents, and best friends ect.)
Please excuse any spelling errors and similar.
Love, Emil