Me

[wdavis36]

So I am an INTP. Initially I was told this by the myers briggs test. Now, I have literally adapted the personality type and couldn't possibly dissociate myself from it. I want to explain myself but it's not easy. I think a whole bunch. My problem is I don't know how to stop. How can I explain the way I am if I am the most bias person to do so? Unfortunately I cannot sever my conscience from who I am in this world and so therefore my perception of myself will always be skewed. Sorry, digression is a bitch. I am a very introverted person, of course. I don't really know how to get away from myself so I try to enjoy it the best I can. My humor is vulpine and rarely illicits others laughter. Neglection reflects my appearance. I yearn for companionship, closeness, security, and an overall appreciation for life. I am the only person standing the way of me achieving these things. This sucks; I can't get any farther

 

[DarkGreen]

Perhaps, you just need to have many conversations with people on this site and then you'll calm down and settle into your skin?

 

[DesertSmeagle]

hmm you sound just like me...cool. you should make a video. I want appreciation and closeness and all the shit you cant buy with money, but i have trouble getting it, so i became depressed. Then i got a camera and made videos like this. I only make them when im alone, because my family doesnt fully accept me. Heres one of my videos. I seem to use humor to distract myself from my depression and anxiety issues.
YouTube - My Day

welcome

 

[Cognisant]

This sucks; I can't get any farther

Nine! Further.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

Enter the portal! For as you journey into the portal you will be revealed to a land like no other!!

That shpuld be on a fortune cookie

 

[wdavis36]

hmm you sound just like me...cool. you should make a video. I want appreciation and closeness and all the shit you cant buy with money, but i have trouble getting it, so i became depressed. Then i got a camera and made videos like this. I only make them when im alone, because my family doesnt fully accept me. Heres one of my videos. I seem to use humor to distract myself from my depression and anxiety issues.
YouTube - My Day

welcome

Great video. I don't really understand though, do you just get in front of your camera and make yourself talk? Sounds terrifying but I've always been told to face my fears

 

[DesertSmeagle]

Great video. I don't really understand though, do you just get in front of your camera and make yourself talk? Sounds terrifying but I've always been told to face my fears

Ya, its basically exposure therapy. I started on the playstation network. I used to not be able to talk to people online when playing call of duty. Now im the number one talker of shit in the universe. Then i moved to videos. Ill link my first video. Im weaing a mask because i didnt want anyone to know it was me. I didnt want anyone from school to see me online. Then i graduated highschool, and since then, i have made no personal relatioships with any new people. Its kinda nice, because noone sees me as the weird quiet kid, thats who i am at school. I still have a little anxiety in my videos, but its getting better as i keep getting positive feedback from the people who watch them..and im alone when i make them. Hopefully i can get to the point where i can make videos in front of my family, and even other people.

And ya i just go on the camera and talk. I took a chance and threw it online, and it worked. You should make a video. Go for it.
YouTube - Awesome
My first video.. I had the urge to reveal my true self to people, even if they are people i dont even know from across the world.

 

[Adymus]

Nine! Further.

Nein! Nein.

 

[loveofreason]

Sounds more like an intro than a discussion of INTPness.

~moved~

 

[Cognisant]

Nein! Nein.

 

[DesertSmeagle]

9! 9! ficken! Can shoeless speak deutch?