How long you been studying? And how did you pick CS in the first place?
Last semester was CSCI 101 and now I’m doing CSCI 102, JAVA (SDEV), HTML.
Those are the classes that actually relate to my curriculum. So, studying for… 1.5 semesters?
I decided upon the major based on two sources. The attempt to find my personality via MBTI and my cousin. He went into CS starting out in an average curriculum via a 4- year than managed to transfer into one of the best engineering universities in this state. He managed to get a family going and finds his job rather rewarding. We get along on a special kind of level so I figured I could try…
With that said those are some attributes of my personality that I think are important for software development:
Laziness- a great motive to work hard in order to have less work, in other words efficiency.
Self learning/info finding-having good English reading and hearing is important for that, if developer doesn't need to learn something new he is doing something wrong.
Logic-you don't have to be good at math but have a logical mindset.
Creativity- being able to think, to make new ideas, not just remembering information such as algorithms.
(gained ability)Future and past simulation- to predict future trouble, how the user will behave, what the code will do, what caused that bug.
Tackling laziness is my number 1 priority atm. This changed into steps to improve my willpower, which in turn were just overall increases to life quality.
-Exercise
-Mindfulness Meditation
-Journaling
Habits I DID NOT HAVE going into this game and I’m trying to pick up.
These problems I’m talking aren’t fucking difficult. Maybe difficult is just some arrogant judgement I was making with no regards to reality. I don’t even know. I can’t even begin to pin down what’s going wrong!
Difficult to say exactly, not everyone is cut for CS. Perhaps it's time to question what got you into this mess in the first place. Was it your interest and passion about the subject? Were you programming or studying CS before you went to university (or whatever it is you went to)? What do you enjoy about it? What are the things you enjoy doing and feel naturally good at?
All of these are useful questions one might ask themselves.
The mess was a late start, and thinking I could do this all online with no support systems. Poor study habits. Lack of motivation. A mountain of personal bullshit so high, that I might have warped my identity to fit it. My counselors keep telling me I have connections, but whenever I try one it stops full on at ‘Too poor for a tutor, GG, LOL’.
As for interest and passion, I was really more interested in the humanistic and Neuroscience side of things. I jump around a lot with my interest, but I don’t think I’ve ever gotten bored of looking up new things about neuroscience. Hmmm, that’s too specific. I like learning about why we do the ridiculous shit we do. I also like the idealism of the spread of information through technology. I think the more able to find their own way thanks to tech the better. A persons environment can seal their fate, so the more doors that they can open to see something new and possibly AMAZING, the better. Though, I’ve learned with age, there are some things that can never make up for the environment.
The problem is about what people ACTUALLY DO to figure out what they have a passion for. For me figuring out what I enjoy DOING simply has not occurred.
As for what I was doing before college, honestly I was drifting around doing god knows what. My solution thus far has been to not think about it. Either way, NOW I’m trying to move forwards with something, but I don’t really have any reference points to go off of.
I did have AP physics going for me. That stuff just made immediate sense to me. Then we had physics projects and the failure started up again, weooo. High School was a pretty bad period for me. Pare of me thinks that physics was the only class where we actually DID things. The rest was just talk talk, regurgitate. Ugh. Agh. EEGh. Not thinking about that either.
Uh, thanks for listening to all that… I don’t want anyone here to feel like they were supposed to have given me the answer I needed or anything… I just appreciate having people to bounce ideas off with…