katie717
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Hello fellow INTPs! I'll try to keep this as short as possible.
It's been a year since I graduated with a Master's. Technically to everyone I should be getting a job, but I absolutely detest finding work nowadays. I have been rejected by the government too many times (I suspect it has to do with some background checks), and in the private sector, I couldn't find a job that's valuable to me (heck, I can't even clinch an offer at all!). I find it much more difficult with degrees in Philosophy and Politics, and worse off, I hate networking and I hate meeting new people with an ulterior motive.
I'm currently 25 and for an Asian girl, I'm considered pretty old. I'm not sure if I should change myself or remain myself, because I've been thinking I only have 1 life to live and I can't afford to make mistakes anymore. I battled with myself over changing myself to fit in the corporate world, but I can't even get myself to do that (I think INTPs who eventually fit in the corporate world changed themselves unconsciously). I thought about being an entrepreneur but I hate networking, and I hate it so much I'd rather be a junior admin or something.
And here comes my question. As an INTP (at least I believe I'm not mistyped), I believe we have talents in math and science. I've been thinking of self-learning math/physics and eventually going back to academia, but I'm not sure if I'm being too idealistic and crazy. I don't have a proper background in math/science since middle school since I went on to choose humanities/social sciences majors, but I've always been fascinated with math and theoretical physics. My greatest personal heroes would have to be Feynman and Einstein (especially with my obsession of geniuses - I literally wish I could be one!). I'd have to admit I didn't do extremely well for math/science (just pretty well) in school, and the last time I excelled in it was before I hated my insane math and science teacher at the age of 9. Plus, I'd think it's because of how math/science is taught in Asia - it's just a matter of arbitrary rules and I hated anything that doesn't have a meaning behind it.
What do you think? Anyone has any advice for me? And sorry for the long read + thanks in advance!
It's been a year since I graduated with a Master's. Technically to everyone I should be getting a job, but I absolutely detest finding work nowadays. I have been rejected by the government too many times (I suspect it has to do with some background checks), and in the private sector, I couldn't find a job that's valuable to me (heck, I can't even clinch an offer at all!). I find it much more difficult with degrees in Philosophy and Politics, and worse off, I hate networking and I hate meeting new people with an ulterior motive.
I'm currently 25 and for an Asian girl, I'm considered pretty old. I'm not sure if I should change myself or remain myself, because I've been thinking I only have 1 life to live and I can't afford to make mistakes anymore. I battled with myself over changing myself to fit in the corporate world, but I can't even get myself to do that (I think INTPs who eventually fit in the corporate world changed themselves unconsciously). I thought about being an entrepreneur but I hate networking, and I hate it so much I'd rather be a junior admin or something.
And here comes my question. As an INTP (at least I believe I'm not mistyped), I believe we have talents in math and science. I've been thinking of self-learning math/physics and eventually going back to academia, but I'm not sure if I'm being too idealistic and crazy. I don't have a proper background in math/science since middle school since I went on to choose humanities/social sciences majors, but I've always been fascinated with math and theoretical physics. My greatest personal heroes would have to be Feynman and Einstein (especially with my obsession of geniuses - I literally wish I could be one!). I'd have to admit I didn't do extremely well for math/science (just pretty well) in school, and the last time I excelled in it was before I hated my insane math and science teacher at the age of 9. Plus, I'd think it's because of how math/science is taught in Asia - it's just a matter of arbitrary rules and I hated anything that doesn't have a meaning behind it.
What do you think? Anyone has any advice for me? And sorry for the long read + thanks in advance!