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January 27th, 2002.
Year 7 of High School begins and I befriend a boy named Alex. He and I are compatible and we enjoy the first day of High School together.

May 9th, 2003.
It is Year 8 and my friendship with Alex is intact. He had a girlfriend called Bethony since March of 2003, but she broke up with him on this date. Alex is very saddened and I take him for a walk to discuss the future with him.

November 19th, 2003.
I meet Jennifer at a party with Alex. She is highly intelligent and attractive. Alex and I befriend her.

December 1st, 2003.
I meet Jennifer in town and request a date with her. To my luck, she accepts.

February 3rd, 2004.
I am in Year 8 and this is the day on which I establish a relationship with Jennifer. She was very pleased with our numerous dates and had decided I was an adequate character to her standards. Alex is happy for me.

February 20th, 2004.
A new boy, Jack, is admitted to my High School and he befriends Alex.

August 19th, 2004.
Jack has become close to Alex and replaced me as his best friend. The value of friendship diminishes to me after this experience. I am glad that my relationship with Jennifer is intact and stable. Jennifer and I have a plan to travel to Japan together when we have saved the sufficent money.

October 19, 2004.
Alex and I have remained friends, but he is distant and Jack is consistently a priority above me. This saddens me and I confront Alex. Alex explains that it is the natural progression of friendships in life and I shall not be in favour of each outcome.

October 24, 2004.
Jack is aware of my jealousy and decides to be manipulative for his amusement. Jack lies to Alex that I threatened him to cease damaging my friendship with Alex. Alex is furious with this lie that I was aggressive and attacks me from behind while I am leaving school. He ignores my reason and words of truth.

November 19, 2004.
I am without friends now, but I have my girlfriend, Jennifer. We have become closer and spend each day together.

December 14th, 2004.
Jennifer is paranoid that lies Jack spread of me cheating on her were true. Jennifer is not reasonable and refuses to accept my innocence. This is the day when she broke up with me for a lie.

February 19th, 2005.
It is Year 9 and I am not pleased with the state of my social life. Lies have degraded my reputation and people avoid me through erroneous opinions. People enjoy to insult my character as a result of the anger induced from the lies. My mind enters a state of indifference to not be offended. This is the day when I became callous and withdrawn to avoid pain.

March 3rd, 2005.
Today I spotted Alex with Jennifer. It seems true that the rumour they are dating is accurate. My optimism that she would return to me is destroyed, but I try to not care, consequently retreating further into my reserved mindset.

March 19th, 2005.
Alex has adopted Jack's immoral traits after constant influence from him. It is true that the environment shapes a person. Alex and Jack are rumoured to be drug dealers, and they bully people weak, including me.

May 21st, 2005.
Alex releases nude photographs of Jennifer after she refuses to engage in sexual intercourse with him as his demand. Their 'relationship' ends and Jennifer is emotionally distraught. The entire school views her as a whore when she is exceedingly modest.

June 19th, 2005.
Jennifer's grades have declined significantly. She is aware all look upon her with contempt with no sympathy. I consider approaching her, but I decide against it because of a fear that someone would create a negative rumour about us.

June 28th, 2005.
Jennifer is reported dead. It is said that she hung herself with a picture of me and a note claiming she was waiting for me to return. How should I have known? My reaction is one of calmness. I cry when I arrive home and shut myself in my bedroom.

October 5th, 2005.
The world becomes irrelevant to me and I lose faith in all of the people within it. Fantasies replace my practical visions and I become very isolated emotionally.

March 19th, 2006.
Year 10 is simple. I complete the required work and return home to be in solitude. Interestingly, I feel the same closed inside my bedroom as I do when outside it.

June 28th, 2006.
This is a date which I cannot forget. Why was I obsessed with this girl? She was my final connection to much.

July 19th, 2007.
It is Year 11. It will be University soon and I have decided to become a scientist. I am oblivious to nearly all in my environment, but I have heard Alex is a drug addict.

October 3rd, 2007.
Alex and Jack are no longer friends. According to the rumours, they had a major disagreement with their dealings.

February 26th, 2008.
Lower Sixth Form is easy. A person attempts to establish a friendship with me on this day, but I respond very coldly and intimidate them away. I have no need for the experiences obtained from friendships.

April 1st, 2009.
Higher Sixth Form seems the same to the other years to me. Logical differences, of course, but no major emotional difference. All is dull. I am expecting myself to fall into fantasies entirely soon and not focus on the practical reality around me any longer. This is a day which I fear.
 

Artifice Orisit

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You seem to have cared for these people, now they have hurt you.

During high school I never allowed myself to become emotionally attached to people; I just watched the drama of their lives with cold indifference. I never relied on others for my emotional well being and when I had my demons to face I faced them alone.

I guess what happens now is your choice, you can learn to emotionally support yourself or you can find a new group of friends and hope for a better outcome.

Fi or Fe
 

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^Feel-good? I haven't seen the happy ending yet. What feels good about this to you? Curious.
 

Artifice Orisit

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Or the absurdist angle could be taken for the sole purpose of logically invalidating their feelings. In effect making unhappy people become happy against their desire to remain unhappy... is that cruel or kind?

*sigh* morality doesn’t make sense anymore.
 

echoplex

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I think their resolve to remain unhappy is too strong though. They'd just complain about how the film was "happy people propaganda" like almost everything else, thus maintaining their discontent.

And I'm pretty sure cruelty is kind to them.
 
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Save that for the sequel though. Right before you piss off the audience by revealing that the whole story was a kitten's dream.

No, delusion, and the kitten is the one detached from reality.
 

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I lol at whoever thinks this is a real diary.
 
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Kittens become suicidal when their supply of food is inadequate.
 

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Dear Diary,

Apparently being slathered in axle grease and holding a battery powered dildo is a terrible way to begin a first date, especially if you haven't actually requested the date to begin with.

Also, yelling "Come back here bitch" does nothing to rectify the situation.

It's nothing a hunting knife and some duct tape won't smooth over, though.

I'm so in love!

:):):):):):):)
 
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