- I don't get along with the majority of people
That's what you get for wanting relationships to have depth. Most people don't mesh well on an intimate level.
- I don't want to just be another rat in the race
I have this argument with my partner all the time. She wants to invest in the system to make it better and I want to burn it down and start over. I think its broken and would be fine living in the mountains as long as I had an internet connection
- Sometimes I feel like my head is too deep and I just want to kill some braincells so the world can seem more simple
Yeah. We often pick ourselves apart with our piercing analysis. It seems like being a matter-of-fact, face-value person would have its perks, but get to know some and you'll see what you like about yourself.
- I love music and want to be a musician
I've played guitar at a couple open-mic's, but I'm moderate at best. I just wish I could write music and then maybe I could do something with it.
- I am highly unmotivated in any academic areas (though I still do well)
I got through graduate school greatly disliking my major. It wasn't until I found psychology that I found an area that creates passion in me. Course I'm sure going to grad school in psych will probably kill that.
- I lack motivation in social areas and I like being alone
Yep, pretty much. I feel guilty about it sometimes, but not too bad.
- I DON'T enjoy maths or any other numerical study
Math is either mindless computation or art in my mind. The art part is the high level math that just doesn't feel precise enough to be worth learning. I'm not sure why it still doesn't appeal to be even in quantum mechanics, but maybe its because it feels too cerebral (which is an odd sensation for me).
- I prefer talking and thinking over writing
I like writing, but I don't feel much motivation to do it unless I'm discussing something with someone else. I figure if I ever finish writing my book it'll be because I find someone to talk it all through with and record the conversations.
- I have no interest in attaining wealth
I'm a minimalist. I'm always defining what I need and what is a luxury that I don't need. Sometimes I give away some of the luxuries just because I'm feeling like I don't want to develop dependence on it (like when I stopped watching TV).
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The personality type that is most often connected with virtuoso musicians (not song writers) is ISTP. Dominant Ti, Auxiliary Se, Tertiary Ni/e are useful tools in that respect. The first relates to feeling a necessary degree of precision and skill development. That might sound familiar. Obvious our auxiliary Ne and tertiary Se/i don't match up, but I think they are also useful tools.
The auxiliary extraverted sensing is in the position of creativity, which means ISTPs enjoy the feeling that comes from that extra flourish or riff that captures the senses. Hence the rock solo.
Auxiliary extraverted intuition is different in the sense that the solo that energizes the senses is not as interesting as the unpredictable. An INTP is more likely to develop an abnormal style that combines dissonance and resonance that surprises people but still feels nice. That's not as impressive in our culture, but it was at a time. My theory is that Jazz was developed by an INTP culture. Forcing the mind to catch up to the music is invigorating to us. Especially when we do finally catch up just as resonance is achieved. Of course now Jazz has very little INTP left in it. It has rules and structure that determine how you do things. Everything else is an experiment in chaos, but that's only an imitation of what INTPs try to do with music. Not that there aren't still INTPs involved who do it well, but the culture has changed.
So tertiary, the area of awareness (I need to come up with a better term for the tertiary than awareness, but it works for now). For ISTPs its intuition that allows them to take in what is possible and contribute new ideas to their dominant functions. For INTPs its sensing which allows us to enjoy the sensation that music creates in us and how it feels to have played a piece correctly. Its not enough to motivate us, but it is helpful when we are motivated in some other way.
Is that at all helpful? The Jazz theory I came up with while I was writing this, so take it with a grain of salt.