Partly it's because you're tired from working all day. When I was working full time as a signature gatherer, I never pretended I was going to be productive at night, after having been on my feet all day bellowing about ballot measures. Only time I could ever get real work done on computer programming stuff, was during the off seasons when there were no ballots to gather signatures for. I appreciated the seasonal nature of this occupation, as it wasn't my calling in life to be a signature gatherer. I was supposed to be a computer programmer, and that means making time for it.
Lotta truth to what Blaarun said, essentially about lack of personal discipline and goal setting.
Internet makes it really easy
to slack off. But so does any other kind of low energy entertainment, like watching TV or playing video games. My personal poison is usually Freeciv
. I've played it for years and years and years, almost always getting the same results. I'm intimately familiar with the experience curves it's providing me. Currently I've deleted it, which I do periodically for awhile.
Which means I'm back to online forums as the timewasters. I keep wondering how much INTPf is a timewaster, i.e. not actually meeting personal goals, just a placebo for unmet life needs. Or, it meets some
life needs, but I do it more than it actually provides. For instance, I'm never going to get a date here. Ever. If I want that to happen, I need to either look for other things around town face-to-face (did actually look for meetings, didn't find any imminent this week), or branch out to other internet watering holes (haven't yet. Any day now.)
I've got computer language design stuff I could be working on. Past 2 days I haven't. My excuses are that I was traveling back to Asheville. Or my sleep quality wasn't so good. Sorta true but not really enough to explain my lack of movement on it. Truth is I'm on some fairly frustrating problems right now, not so easy to get past. One of those times where one is subconsciously questioning if the tunnel has an end, or if it's a sinkhole that goes straight down. But I'd have to work at it more to decide one way or another. Anyways the language design project is real work, it's not particularly fun right now.
So, internet makes avoidance easy
. You have to be honest with yourself about why you're avoiding. And disciplined, if you intend to stop doing it and make progress on other life goals.
I have often found that grabbing the engineering design notebook, or the programming editor, first thing in the morning when I first wake up, is a good way to get past "sticking points". Something about being bleary and out of focus, makes it surprisingly easier to soldier through something hard. Maybe some of it is "cow milking energy." But I think a lot of it is, my mind is too discombobulated to object yet. I don't feel the mental pain of some things as strongly in the morning when I wake up.
Conversely, I'll be in maximum mental anguish at 10 PM. Everything mentally whiny and difficult seems like a draaaaaaaag. Going to bed, and actually doing something in the morning, would be a good strategy if I was really
determined to maximize my output. Which I have been, at certain times of my life, for my seeming survival. Except that I didn't meet the ultimate programming goal anyways, and a few years down the road went bankrupt....
I didn't do it this morning, because I didn't sleep entirely well, going back to my car again instead of the nice soft bed at my Mom's house. Woke up at 10:45 AM. Had a meeting to go to at 11 AM, completely taking any of that potential "cow milking" concentration from me.
I can try again tomorrow morning. Maybe I'll crack "the assignment problem".
One of my excuses is I'm adapting to new weather rhythms. Like, it's cold at night now, and in the early morning. Some things need to get done in the mid afternoon when it's still warm, like walking the dog. Not gonna cook at night anymore. All of these changes are things that a Perceiver can handle, but it is a change in routine.
Right now at midnight, I sit around inside a grocery store doing massive amounts of internet, buying food, because it's warm in here! Ha ha ha. Lifestyles of the rich and famous. Couldn't figure out anywhere worth having a beer and carousing or something like that. It is Sunday night after all. I've never really known what to do with myself Friday through Monday night in this town. Need to figure it out. One of those social goals that doesn't involve the internet.