AmacdaTNPI
AnonymousINTP
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I’ve been finding myself to be so detached from the world through my will to keep a solid perspective and not fall to social conformity to such an extend that I have lost who I am and stopped caring about the fun things I would promote about my personality. I am now extremely serious to an extent that I can no longer relax or ever find bliss with myself. I have been practicing achieving bliss but as some of you hypothetically or theoretically now, the bliss doesn’t last long and the constant search for more answers and solutions with knowledge to solve problems becomes to stressful for me to ever relax and feel anything as a person to be as effiecient in my “OCDished” manner way of thinking. My relationships are become entirely irrelevant and I can’t enjoy the simple things anymore. I’m only 17 almost 18 but it’s so difficult to deal with this stress to achieve the perfect plan I want to be able to do in order to get out of my parents house and live on my own. And the contradictive fact is one of my plans is the opposite which is using my parents to help me go to college through improving gpa and a couple of other things but at the same time I want to start fresh pick up a girl and live in the streets in Asheville. I want to become a theoretically physicist and I love physics but the only way to get there quick is buy taking the risky step and otherwise is with college. I just don’t know what path to take and the best way to live it. I’m enjoying cutting close relationships out of my life too much at this moment. I hate people